Mirrors
J.Mitchell Lyrics

I used to give you too much power
I used to place too much importance on your opinions and actions

Trust me, them days is over
I assure you that those days are done

Can't understand how I
I cannot comprehend why I

Let you sit on my shoulders
I allowed you to have too much influence over me

Them times when you messed up
Those instances when you made mistakes

I made escuses for
I made excuses to overlook your faults

And I always knew it, that I should have headed for the door
I was aware that I should have ended our relationship earlier

But I stayed and you played the right way in your place
Yet I remained, and you acted appropriately in your role

And I prayed everytime you was away you'd see my face
I hoped that during your absences, you missed and thought of me

But the me was you, and your
However, I was actually dealing with my own issues and

Pain was mine, and the
emotional pain I felt was a result of my own insecurities

Same situation playing over in my mind
The same scenario kept replaying in my thoughts

Ain't tryna hear you
I don't want to listen to you

Just tryna hear me
I'm only interested in hearing my own thoughts

Don't wanna hear nothing, baby it's selfishly
I don't want to hear anything because it's all about me and my needs

I blaming you for the hurt in me, but it's not your fault that
I've been holding you responsible for my pain, but in reality,

I'm so incomplete
I am feeling unsatisfied and inadequate

You see everytime I do it do it
Whenever I enter into relationships

I seem to ruin
I often end up sabotaging them

Got this funny way of falling in love
I have a peculiar method of falling in love

And it's effecting how I'm breathing
This affects my mental and emotional state, causing me to have difficulty

Effecting how I'm eating
It even affects my dietary habits

Seems like I'm all up on drugs
It feels like I'm addicted to love

So beg you my pardon
Please forgive me

Loving you deep in my heart
I genuinely care for you, but

And I can't take no more
I've reached my limit

I'm looking for the problem
I'm searching for the root cause of my issues

Standing over the seek
Staring down my own faults

One thing I found, I had to take a look in mirror
I discovered that I needed to introspect and examine myself

See I can't leave you, until I learn to leave me
I cannot leave our relationship until I learn to love and accept myself

What was I thinking
I question my own judgment

That you could talk to me like that
I was allowing you to treat me poorly

You was holding me down, but I was holding me back
You were preventing me from progressing, but I was the one who was hindering my own growth

Looking inside myself, and has to see who I am, cause this is my trial, affecting my smile
Upon introspection, I had to confront my true self, realizing that this is a challenge I must overcome, which is causing me distress and negatively impacting my mood

I'm gotta walk (?), this is gonna be a while
I need to continue on this journey of self-discovery, and it may take some time

Everything I thought I knew
All of my prior knowledge and beliefs

All them times I ran away
Whenever I tried to escape from my own issues

You see, really I was running for me
I was attempting to flee from myself

I know constantly we're trying, we was living in a lie
Although we were always striving to make things work, we were essentially living a façade

Finally looked into mirror to see
Finally, I faced my demons by confronting my own reflection

Probably would have left you sooner, but I was being scared, that ain't how I ever should be
I should have ended our relationship earlier, but fear held me back, which is not how I should have acted

Yeah I was searching for a while for the sores of the problem
I had been looking for the root cause of my issues for a long time

One thing I found, I had to take a look in the mirror
Ultimately, I realized that I needed to introspect and examine myself to find the solution