Purpose
J.Ransom Lyrics

And I'm falling in love
Finding a deep connection with a new perspective

With the thought of leaving it all
Considering the idea of starting fresh and leaving everything behind

And I'm falling in love
Embracing the idea of solitude and self-reflection

With the thought of being alone, tonight
Finding comfort in being by oneself for the night

I'm sorry that I wasn't enough
Expressing regret for not meeting expectations

I'm sorry that I didn't shape up
Apologizing for not improving or changing for the better

I'm sorry that I didn't break through
Regretting not overcoming obstacles or barriers

I'm sorry never should've hurt you
Recognizing the pain caused to another person

If I could do it again
Reflecting on past mistakes and wishing for a second chance

Never woulda been over my friend
Would not have let the friendship end if given another opportunity

Would've run away in the night
Desiring to escape and start anew in the darkness

Away to you, we coulda took flight
Wishing to fly away together to a better place

That feeling when I was close to you
Recalling the warmth and joy experienced in your presence

Just the thought goes and lights up the room
Even the memory of you brings light and positivity

Like a flower, baby, everything blooms
Comparing your impact to that of a blooming flower, bringing beauty and growth

In your eyes, everything's new
Finding renewal and freshness in the way you see the world

Oh the peace that I feel in my chest
Experiencing a profound calmness within oneself

For that alone I would've given the rest
Valuing the inner peace enough to give up everything else

Baby all the little things you do
Appreciating the small gestures and actions you take

Tried to leave, but you held me like glue
Attempted to distance oneself, but your influence remains strong

I know I push and pry myself away
Acknowledging the struggle to create distance for self-preservation

I know I promised I would be okay
Made a commitment to maintain composure despite inner turmoil

But I'm tired and I feel so alone
Experiencing fatigue and profound loneliness

Baby please baby pick up the phone
Yearning for connection and communication with a loved one

I'm here I just want to go home
Physically present but longing for a place of comfort and belonging

But I'll stay but I'll stay on my own
Choosing to remain independent and self-reliant despite the desire for company

Cause I know that these voices in my head
Awareness of internal struggles and conflicting thoughts

That I drown out with music in my bed
Using music as a coping mechanism to silence intrusive thoughts

Just to sleep, if I don't then they spread
Struggling to find tranquility when sleep eludes and anxieties multiply

They aren't real they aren't real
Recognizing that the negative thoughts are unfounded and illusory

If my God had asked me to go
Considering a divine calling or purpose

So far away that I won't
A distance so great that separation is inevitable

Get to be with you then I know
Understanding the sacrifice of personal connection for a higher calling

That there must be a purpose I own
Believing in a personal mission or reason for such sacrifices

And I know that with purpose comes blessing
Finding strength and reward in fulfilling a meaningful purpose

And if I only I had room for messing
Regretting past mistakes or missed opportunities

Around with you I'd go letting
Desiring to spend more time and make memories with you

This pain in my chest out confessing
Vulnerably expressing deep emotional pain and longing

The feelings that I had for you
Acknowledging and revealing the strong emotions held for you

They are still here, they've started a cue
Insisting that the feelings remain and grow stronger

I am burning inside and that's due
Feeling intense passion and yearning that cannot be ignored

To my undying love for you
Expressing unwavering and eternal love for you

And I'm falling in love
Discovering new emotions and connections once more

With the thought of leaving it all behind
Considering the possibility of leaving behind past struggles and starting anew

And I'm falling in love
Embracing the idea of self-discovery and growth

With the thought of being alone tonight
Finding solace and introspection in solitude for the night