Expectations
JL of B.Hood Lyrics

Yo, I've been a starving artist for years
I have been struggling financially as an artist for a long time.

The arguments we've had have already brought me to tears
Our arguments have been so upsetting that I have cried.

I know part of it is I could of had 100 careers
I understand that my indecisiveness may have cost me many other successful career paths.

Put the same amount of time in and then made us all millionaires
If I had used my time differently, we might all be wealthy by now.

Nothing scares my momma that Imma fail
My mother is confident that I will not fail.

Tell her my talents are rare and I don't apply to the trail
I explain to her that my talents are unique and cannot be confined to a traditional path.

Want me to have kids but I won't be in JL
Although my family wants me to have children, I am not in a stable enough place to do so.

And the face disappears up under the wedding veil
The woman I marry will hide her face under her wedding veil.

No trace of faith at the crossroads
I have lost my sense of faith at the crossroads of my life.

Complaints from a blank face that I'm not so hot so I'm hostile
I receive complaints from someone whose expression is emotionless, which makes me feel irritated and defensive.

In any case I'm a lost soul, chasing the dream with tears and runny nostril
I feel like a lost and confused individual who is desperately chasing after my dream even though it has caused me emotional pain.

Basically I'm weird look what we got though
I acknowledge that I am an unusual person, but despite that, I have achieved some measure of success.

Skills but if that pay bills be in a yacht float-
I have skills, but they don't pay the bills, so I am not living a luxurious lifestyle.

-ing off the coast how I feel riddle me not
I am uncertain about my feelings even as I imagine myself living on a yacht off the coast of somewhere.

Everything stop you give me another shot
If everything came to a halt, I would need another opportunity to succeed.

You're just a little bit too good for me
You are too good for me, I cannot meet your expectations.

And I can't live up to these expectations for me
I cannot live up to these expectations that have been set for me.

All ya'll come to me to be the strong one
Everyone relies on me to be the strong one in difficult situations.

Imma say this past year done been a long one
I feel like this past year has been very long and difficult for me.

Gotta pray all I ask forgive the wrong done
I need to pray for forgiveness for the wrongs I have committed.

The outcome has all got to fall apart
I feel like everything is falling apart and we will not get the desired outcome.

I'm out, done, I fall with a broken heart
I am giving up, I am defeated and heartbroken.

Like how come it's always cold and dark
I wonder why in my darkest moments, the world seems cold and dark.

I done sacrificed it all for this spoken art
I have given up everything for my art form.

Everybody telling me it's coming up
People keep telling me that things will get better for me.

My reality has been telling me I should let it go
Despite that, my reality tells me that I should give up and move on.

Is there hell at the dead end I'm heading fo'
Am I setting myself up for failure by following this path?

Hell I wouldn't be surprised if my head explode
I am under so much stress that I wouldn't be surprised if I had a mental breakdown.

Attempt to write up another classic
I try to create another masterpiece.

Like a pimp telling me do it or get my ass kicked
I feel pressure to create something great, as if someone is threatening to harm me if I do not succeed.

I'm convinced failing is truly a lack of passion
I believe that if I fail, it is because I do not have enough passion in my work.

And I'll admit I was distracted in the traffic
I acknowledge that I have been distracted and unfocused when it comes to my work.

Feeling like I can hang with the best of them
I feel like I have the talent to be as successful as the best in my field.

I spit it yeah feelin the shit it was like the death of them
I deliver my work with confidence and feel like it will be successful.

Knocked off of the high horse got to confess I'm in
I have been humbled and forced to face the reality that I am not as great as I thought.

A downward spiral misfortune to estimate
I am spiraling downward and cannot predict the extent of the misfortune that awaits me.

Stress weighing heavy upon my chest
I am carrying a heavy burden of stress.

I'm praying that planned shit is a mess
I hope that my carefully laid plans will fail, sparing me from failure.

I was hiding out at the pain get this address
I feel like I have been avoiding my problems instead of facing them head-on.

I ain't lying tried that opportunity missed
I am not lying when I say that I tried and failed to seize an opportunity.

Getting fucked up so many reasons that I'm blessed
Despite my many struggles, I am able to appreciate the blessings in my life.

Knowing that you only collaborate with the best
I understand that I will only collaborate with the best in my field.

Won't elaborate but I thought I had it I guess
I thought I had succeeded in my work, but now I realize that I was wrong.

That I ain't as good in comparison to the rest
I realize that I am not as great as some of my peers.

I'm sinking, who do I gotta kill
I feel like I am drowning and am willing to do anything to succeed, even if it means harming someone else.

Got me thinking maybe I wasn't ready keeping it real
I am questioning whether or not I was ready for the challenges that come with pursuing my dreams.

Maybe I don't have what it takes to get a deal
I am starting to doubt whether or not I have the talent and ability to succeed in my field.

Mistakes got me ill
My past mistakes are weighing heavily on me and making me feel sick.

I gotta chill
I need to calm down and take a break from my work.