I'm Alive
Jackson Browne David Lindley Lyrics

It's been a long time since I watched these lights alone
It's been a while since I've been on my own, looking at these same lights without you.

I look around my life tonight and you are gone
I see that you're not with me and my life is different now because of it.

I might have done something to keep you if I'd known
If I had known how unhappy you were, I would have tried to keep you with me.

How unhappy you had become
I wish I would have known how unhappy you had become before you left me.

While I was dreaming of you
I was constantly thinking about you and our future together.

With my heart in your hands
I trusted you with my heart and my emotions.

And I was following through
I was making plans to be with you and following through with those plans.

With my beautiful plans
I thought that our plans for the future were beautiful and perfect.

Yeah now I'm rolling down this canyon drive
I'm now driving down a canyon road, reminiscing about our time together.

With your laughter in my head
I can still hear the sound of your laughter in my mind and it's haunting me.

I'm gonna have to block it out somehow to survive
I need to find a way to block out the past and move on in order to survive.

'Cause those dreams are dead
The dreams we had together are now gone and can never come true.

And I'm alive
Even though things didn't work out, I'm still alive and moving forward with my life.

I want to go where I will never hear your name
I need to go somewhere completely new where your name and our memories won't haunt me anymore.

I want to lose my sorrow and be free again
I want to let go of my sadness and be happy again.

And I know I've been insane
I realize that I might have been crazy to hold onto our relationship for so long.

When I think of places I could have been
I can't help but wonder what my life would be like if I didn't spend it with you.

Standing here by the highway side
I'm standing by the side of the highway thinking about my life.

Watching these trucks blow by
I'm watching the trucks drive past, thinking about all of the things that have happened to me.

Inches from my face
The trucks are passing by me very closely, almost hitting me.

Yeah thinking 'bout the time I've wasted
I'm thinking about all of the time and effort I put into our relationship and how it didn't work out.

And the pleasure we once tasted
I'm also remembering the good times we had together.

Looking up and down this road (following through)
I'm looking up and down the road, following through with my thoughts and intentions.

I've been here before (following through)
I've had these thoughts before and I can't keep going down the same path.

I can't be here no more (following through)
I need to move on and not think about you anymore.

Yeah now I'm rolling down California five
I'm now driving down a highway in California.

Hey look at the way I believed in you
I trusted and believed in you through everything.

And loved you all these years
I've loved you for these past few years and held onto our relationship for a long time.

Now you can fill a swimming pool with all my salty tears
I've cried so much about losing you and my tears could fill up an entire pool.

If you'd have told me what was in your heart
If you had told me how you truly felt, things might have turned out differently.

But baby you lied
But instead, you lied to me and kept your true feelings hidden.

And I thought that it would kill me
I thought that losing you would be the end of me and I wouldn't be able to go on.

But I'm alive
Despite everything, I'm still alive and I can move on with my life.

Yeah, I'm alive
I'm alive and I can keep going, even though things didn't work out as planned.

Yeah, I'm alive
I'm still here and I'm able to recover from my heartbreak.