Where Have You Been
Jadakiss Feat. Beanie Sigel Lyrics

Damn how I'ma say this shit?
I don't know how to say this but I need to talk to you.

Hey, hey dad, yeah, it's your boy Remember me? I wanna talk to you scrap
It's me, your son, do you remember me? I need to talk to you.

I remember being kicked out the house 'Cause I looked just like you Said I'd be nothing but a crook Just like you
I got kicked out of the house because I resembled you and they said I'll turn out to be a criminal like you.

The niggas in the hood was shook Where they just like you 'Cause all they said was little whitey look I'm just like you
People in the neighborhood were afraid of me because I resembled you. They saw me as a reflection of you.

But dog I can't see it at all, shit We never kicked it at all We never pitched or kicked at a ball Dog, you never taught me shit
I don't see any similarities between us because we never had any moments together. You never taught me anything.

How to fight, ride a bike, fix the flat None of that sorts of shit Nigga you was an abusive pop Fuck you left me out to dry, stuck
You never taught me basic skills like fixing a flat tire or even how to fight. Instead, you were abusive and left me hanging.

Gotta teach news to box Gotta teach news to bop And that ain't the half of it man I gotta teach news to block
I had to learn how to defend myself on the streets because you never taught me anything. It's not just about fighting, I had to learn how to block too.

Sit down let me tell you 'bout your fatherless sons How they grew to be men and father they sons Father they daughters Nigga, you left a fatherless daughter
Let me tell you about the impact of your absence. Your fatherless sons are now fathers themselves and have daughters too. You left a fatherless daughter.

Nigga you make me sick Pussy you could, ooh How you gonna leave these memories in the back of my mind I can see it clear as day you smackin' my mom
The memories of your abuse are still fresh in my mind and it sickens me. I still remember the day you hit my mother.

I 'member that day you showed me that gat, that 9 Put it in my palm when I was young And said that would be mine, you turned me out
I remember the day you showed me a gun when I was young, put it in my hand and said it would be mine. You pushed me towards a life of crime.

The reason why I hit the block Reason why I tried to hit them cops Reason why I started hittin' shots Reason why I started gettin' licked And drinkin' syrup and skippin' court
I turned to the streets because of you. It's the reason why I tried to hit cops and started selling drugs. I started abusing drugs and skipping court too.

Look at your hands man damn you foughtNigga you left my mom Left us with no good-bye's You left us out to dry You left us with no letters, notes (nothing), no replies
I see the scars on your hands from fighting. You left us without a proper goodbye and never contacted us again. We were left to fend for ourselves without any support.

No digits numbers was unlisted You left me with some of my loneliest nights Nigga some of my hungriest nights Shit, one of the reasons for years (shit embarrassing)
You didn't even leave us a phone number, which left me feeling lonely and hungry. I had to struggle for years because of your absence.

Yeah you gave us life like, fruit from a plant We ain't eat right from them foods from them stamps And to think you was my pop Man I gotta stop, shit
You may have given us life, but we didn't have enough to eat and had to rely on government assistance. It's hard to believe that you were my father.

Daddy, where have you been? And when you come home, you got us here all alone Mommy, where daddy went? You always stick up for him, always said you'd make up for him Mommy, what happened then?
I want to know where you've been and why you left us alone. Mom, you always defended him and said you'd make up for his absence. What happened?

What was you cheatin' on him? Why he's always beatin' on you? Nigga, you gon' hear me out
Did you cheat on him? Is that why he constantly abused you? You're going to hear me out on this.

I wanted to walk just like you (remember?) Wanted to talk just like you (word) Often momma said I look too much and I thought just like you Wanted to drink Miller nips and smoke Newports just like you
I wanted to be like you when I was young. Mom always said I looked and acted like you. I even wanted to drink and smoke like you.

But you left me, now I'm goin' to court just like you I would say, My daddy loves me and he'll never go away Bullshit, do you even remember December's my birthday?
But you left me to fend for myself and now I'm in the same situation as you. I used to believe that you loved me and would never leave, but it's all bullshit. Do you even remember my birthday?

Do you even remember the tender boy You turned into a cold young man With one goal and one plan Get mommy out of some jam, she was always in one Always short with the income Always late with the rent
Do you even remember the boy I used to be before you left? You turned me into a cold, single-minded person whose only goal was to help mom out of her financial struggles. She was always struggling to make ends meet, always behind on rent.

You said that you was comin' through I would stay in the hallway (waitin') Always playin' the bench (waitin') And that day came and went Fuck you very much, you showed me the worst kind of pain
You always promised to come back for us, but I would always be waiting in the hallway for you, playing the bench. That day never came and you showed me the worst kind of pain.

But I'm stronger and trust me I will never hurt again Will never ask mommy, Why daddy don't love me? Why is we so poor?, Why is life so ugly? Mommy why is your eyes puffy?
I'm stronger now and won't be hurt by your absence anymore. I won't ask mom why you don't love me, why we're poor, or why life is so ugly. I won't ask why her eyes are puffy from crying anymore.

Please don't cry everything'll be alright I know it's dark now, but we gon' see the light It's us against the world We don't need him, right? (Right) Mommy drivin' 6's now (yeah), I got riches now (yeah) I bought a nice home for both of my sisters now We doin' real good We don't miss you now See how life twists around, fucker?
Don't cry, everything will be alright. We don't need him, it's just us against the world. We've made it on our own and are doing well - Mom is driving a nice car and I bought a nice home for my sisters. We don't miss you now, see how life turned around?