So Afraid
Janelle Monae Lyrics


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All the kids run around playing free and fun
While the dogs lap around the can
Falling down, climbing trees, swimming in the river
No life jacket on their backs
Daughters sharpen their knives and they hunt for food
Others watch their children grow
Mothers going to work
And they shake the hands of a corporate tycoon's ghost

And I'm afraid
Ah, I'm so afraid
Ah, what if I lose?
Is what I think to myself
I'm finding my shell
I'm afraid of it all, afraid of loving you

I'm a gift and a curse to the wilderness
When the leaves only turn to brown
The birds fly high
And they wink at all
Of the grandmothers on the ground

Rain pours down in the village dens
My cousins fetch for lunch
While I sit in my room writing letters
To my church and things and such

'Cause I'm afraid
Ah, I'm so afraid
Ah, what if I lose?
Is what I think to myself
I'm finding my shell
I'm afraid of it all, afraid of loving you

Cousins all in the creek
Riding high, ride with me
And the rain pours down, the cattle dancing, yeah

I'm so afraid
Ah, I'm so afraid
Ah, what if I lose?
Is what I think to myself
I'm finding my shell
I'm afraid of it all, afraid of loving you
I'm afraid, afraid of loving you

Cousins all in the creek




Riding high, ride with me
And the rain pours down, the cattle dancing, yeah

Overall Meaning

Janelle Monรกe's "So Afraid" is a track from Dirty Computer, her 2018 album that they described as a "tribute to marginalised people." The song features a mix of images depicting everyday life in rural America juxtaposed with overtones of the terror and uncertainty that can sometimes come with pursuing love. Monae contrasts the carefree childhood of kids playing in nature, including descriptions of dangerous behaviour like swimming without life jackets, with the more serious concerns of mothers providing for their families in the face of corporate greed. Central to the song is Monae's introspection on her fears of losing her identity and the love that is being offered to her.


Monae's lyrics contain a lot of wordplay and metaphoric ideas, intertwining themes and meanings that create several layers of interpretation. The line "Daughters sharpen their knives and they hunt for food," for example, seems to simultaneously reference the deeply interwoven bond between family and necessity in the rural American lifestyle and point to the added dimensions of everyday life that women have to negotiate. Monae also hints at her own insecurity by saying โ€œIโ€™m a gift and curse to the wilderness,โ€ suggesting that being an outsider or disruptor confers both benefits and drawbacks.


"So Afraid" is a multi-layered song that seems to originate from Monae's own grappling with both internal and external pressures. The song touches on themes of marginalisation and identity-seeking, with Monae counting the costs of embracing authenticity in a society that regularly pushes back against the defiantly unique, but which also recognises the joys of embracing oneself and one's culture.


Line by Line Meaning

All the kids run around playing free and fun
Children are carefree and enjoying their time without any worries or responsibilities


While the dogs lap around the can
Dogs are content with simple pleasures, like drinking water from a can


Falling down, climbing trees, swimming in the river
Children are adventurous and engaging in various physical activities


No life jacket on their backs
Children are taking risks and not worried about their safety


Daughters sharpen their knives and they hunt for food
Girls are learning to be self-sufficient by hunting and gathering food


Others watch their children grow
Some parents are content with observing their children's development


Mothers going to work
Mothers are working hard to provide for their families


And they shake the hands of a corporate tycoon's ghost
Mothers are forced to interact with the oppressive and powerful forces of the business world


And I'm afraid
The artist is expressing fear and anxiety


Ah, I'm so afraid
The artist is deeply terrified


Ah, what if I lose?
The singer is worried about losing something important


Is what I think to myself
The artist is having internal thoughts and doubts


I'm finding my shell
The singer is searching for self-protection and isolation


I'm afraid of it all, afraid of loving you
The singer is scared of the vulnerabilities that come with being in a loving relationship


I'm a gift and a curse to the wilderness
The singer feels like a mixed blessing to the natural world


When the leaves only turn to brown
The artist is observing a change in the environment


The birds fly high
Birds are free and soaring in the sky


And they wink at all
The birds are playful and teasing observers


Of the grandmothers on the ground
Elderly women are seated on the earth, watching the world pass them by


Rain pours down in the village dens
The artist is in a rainy village, possibly in a rural area


My cousins fetch for lunch
Family members are gathering food for a meal


While I sit in my room writing letters
The artist is in a separate space, possibly isolated or reflective


To my church and things and such
The singer is sending correspondence to religious or other personal entities


Cousins all in the creek
Family members are playing in the creek


Riding high, ride with me
The singer is inviting someone to participate in the fun


And the rain pours down, the cattle dancing, yeah
Despite the rain, the livestock are all lively and playful


I'm afraid, afraid of loving you
The singer is still struggling with fear and anxieties about romance




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Written by: Janelle Monae

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@jediaellima3677

Lyrics:
All the kids run around playing free and fun
While the dogs lap around the can
Falling down, climbing trees, swimming in the river
No life jacket on their backs
Daughters sharpen their knives and they hunt for food
Others watch their children grow
Mothers going to work
And they shake the hands of a corporate tycoon's ghost
And I'm afraid
Ah, I'm so afraid
Ah, what if I lose?
Is what I think to myself
I'm finding my shell
I'm afraid of it all, afraid of loving you
I'm a gift and a curse to the wilderness
When the leaves only turn to brown
The birds fly high
And they wink at all
Of the grandmothers on the ground
Rain pours down in the village dens
My cousins fetch for lunch
While I sit in my room writing letters
To my church and things and such
'Cause I'm afraid
Ah, I'm so afraid
Ah, what if I lose?
Is what I think to myself
I'm finding my shell
I'm afraid of it all, afraid of loving you
Cousins all in the creek
Riding high, ride with me
And the rain pours down, the cattle dancing, yeah
I'm so afraid
Ah, I'm so afraid
Ah, what if I lose?
Is what I think to myself
I'm finding my shell
I'm afraid of it all, afraid of loving you
I'm afraid, afraid of loving you
Cousins all in the creek
Riding high, ride with me
And the rain pours down, the cattle dancing, yeah



@marlenevaldezxzxz846

All the kids run around playing free and fun
While the dogs lap around the can
Falling down, climbing trees, swimming in the river
No life jacket on their backs
Daughters sharpen their knives and they hunt for food
Others watch their children grow
Mothers going to workย 
And they shake the hands of a corporate tycoon's ghost

And I'm afraid
Ah, I'm so afraid
Ah, what if I lose?
Is what I think to myself
I'm finding my shell
I'm afraid of it all, afraid of loving you

I'm a gift and a curse to the wilderness
When the leaves only turn to brown
The birds fly highย 
And they wink at allย 
Of the grandmothers on the ground

Rain pours down in the village dens
My cousins fetch for lunch
While I sit in my room writing lettersย 
To my church and things and such

'Cause I'm afraid
Ah, I'm so afraid
Ah, what if I lose?
Is what I think to myself
I'm finding my shell
I'm afraid of it all, afraid of loving you

Cousins all in the creek
Riding high, ride with me
And the rain pours down, the cattle dancing, yeah

I'm so afraid
Ah, I'm so afraid
Ah, what if I lose?
Is what I think to myself
I'm finding my shell
I'm afraid of it all, afraid of loving you
I'm afraid, afraid of loving you

Cousins all in the creek
Riding high, ride with me
And the rain pours down, the cattle dancing, yeah



@cuervito9634

Verse 1]
All the kids run around playing free and fun
While the dogs lap around the can
Falling down, climbing trees, swimming in the river
No life jacket on their backs
Daughters sharpen their knives and they hunt for food
Others watch their children grow
Mothers going to work and they shake the hands of a corporate tycoon's ghost

[Chorus]
And I'm afraid
Ah, I'm so afraid
Ah, what if I lose?
Is what I think to myself
I'm finding my shell
I'm afraid of it all, afraid of loving you

[Verse 2]
I'm a gift and a curse to the wilderness
When the leaves only turn to brown
The birds fly high and they wink at all of the grandmothers on the ground
Rain pours down in the village dens
My cousins fetch for lunch
While I sit in my room writing letters to my church and things and such

[Chorus]
'Cause I'm afraid
Ah, I'm so afraid
Ah, what if I lose?
Is what I think to myself
I'm finding my shell
I'm afraid of it all, afraid of loving you

[Refrain]
Cousins all in the creek
[?]
And the rain pours down [?]

[Chorus]
I'm so afraid
Ah, I'm so afraid
Ah, what if I lose?
Is what I think to myself
I'm finding my shell
I'm afraid of it all, afraid of loving you
I'm afraid, afraid of loving you

[Refrain]
Cousins all in the creek
[?]
And the rain pours down [?]



All comments from YouTube:

@WETRIX_

pop needs more vulnerable music like this

@anon-oso5714

You're just not looking in the right places or not hard enough

@rivainihawke992

@@anon-oso5714 Do you have any good recommendations please?

@anon-oso5714

@@rivainihawke992
nawh, man

That was from 10 months ago. I don't know them anymore, annnd i wouldn't trust my music prefrences lmao ๐Ÿ•บ๐Ÿšช

@scotttaney9180

So Afraid is becoming one of my favorite songs on Dirty Computer! Again Janelle Monae has made a wonderfully written album. It is a DAMN shame that she is not as big as she should be by now. So with that, I say...... I love you Miss Janelle, you are #1 in my book, and have ALWAYS been since I have first heard March of the Wolfmaster!!!

@ghanus2009

" Janelle Monae has made a wonderfully written album. It is a DAMN shame that she is not as big as she should be by now. "

Well its on just about EVERY top 10 album list in the world, and nominated for a Grammy. So it's picked up since you wrote this. :) Yeah I love her too.

@ingorichter649

I think, especially with this song she approved herself for the running music history. And - she is so young...

@indiesongwriter5474

If album doesn't break out then I'm sorry, this world is lost. Janelle is a living legend. She's up there with Frank Ocean and Kendrick Lamar.

@dee-raynesmash613

Derek Price who is Frank ocean?

@croatoan6562

Kendrick isn't up anywhere

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