Boyfriend
Jay Lewn Lyrics
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Strawberry shades, summer hair,
Strawberry haze, the solstice air’s got my head spinning,
Like the wheels on my Toyota,
If I squint I see you in the mirror,
If I clinch you I can feel little deeper,
No your boyfriend’s not around,
He’s besting me, arresting me, its testing me,
My energy, its jealousy,
Pay for love, the only way it could ever be,
Pay for highs, the only way I could ever see,
The only way I could ever sleep,
We stay numb before the thirst strikes,
Another gram before the first light,
Could die, hit our last line,
Picked up, you said you said pure right?,
My heirloom in the midnight, my love at last sight,
Was premature, you’re out of sight,
Tried to love you through the midnight,
Was immature, a wet dream under moonlight,
No shadow left on my mind,
No shadow cast on my mind,
No your boyfriend’s not around, (no your boyfriend’s not around),
No your boyfriend’s not around, (no your boyfriend’s not around),
You tested me and boy you fucking bested me,
Pretty fucking hard, a pretty fuckry,
You’re pretty with the pride in your eyes,
Hubris looks good on you,
Quick to turn tables, to numb the words,
To tell me what I couldn’t do,
Never really knew you, but I still miss you,
Never felt your body, I still feel you,
But I still feel you, no I still feel you,
Never be enough, I could never be enough, not for you….
Will I ever be enough?
I still feel you, no your boyfriend’s not around,
I still feel you, no your boyfriend’s not around,
I still feel you, no your boyfriend’s not around,
I still feel you
These lyrics tell a complex story about a complicated romantic relationship. The first paragraph illustrates a sense of longing and infatuation. The singer describes being captivated by someone's appearance and the intoxicating atmosphere of summer. The mention of seeing the person in the mirror and feeling a deeper connection implies that they are constantly on the singer's mind.
The line "No your boyfriend's not around" is repeated multiple times throughout the song and serves as a reminder that the person the singer desires is currently unavailable. However, it also suggests a rebellious, reckless attitude on the part of both parties involved. The singer acknowledges that he is being tested and that his energy and jealousy are being challenged. He confesses that he resorts to paying for love and seeking highs to cope with the situation. It is implied that these vices are the only way he can find temporary relief or escape.
The second paragraph delves into the self-destructive tendencies of the relationship. The use of drugs to numb emotions and satisfy their cravings is emphasized. The singer describes the desperation to get their fix before the day begins and the constant risk of pushing their limits too far. The mention of a "pure" substance prompts the question of the authenticity of their love and the consequences that come with it. The lines "Tried to love you through the midnight, Was immature, a wet dream under moonlight" reflect a sense of immaturity and impulsivity in their actions, suggesting that their love was unrealistic or idealized.
The third paragraph introduces a sense of anger and resentment towards the person the singer desires. The song takes on a more confrontational tone, with the singer feeling that he has been outsmarted and bested. The use of expletives emphasizes the frustration and the realization that the other person manipulated their words and actions. The singer admits to not truly knowing the person, yet still missing them and feeling their presence. This demonstrates the conflicting emotions the singer experiences, torn between wanting to move on and still being attached.
The final part of the lyrics expresses the singer's self-doubt and the underlying question of whether he will ever be enough for the person he desires. Despite the ongoing absence of the person's boyfriend, the singer still feels their presence and struggles to let go. The repetition of "I still feel you" emphasizes the lingering impact this relationship has on the singer. The song ultimately leaves us questioning if the singer will ever find closure or the self-worth he seeks.
Line by Line Meaning
I loved to stare
I enjoyed gazing at you
Strawberry shades, summer hair
You had red-colored sunglasses and beautiful hair during the summer
Strawberry haze, the solstice air’s got my head spinning
The hazy atmosphere, along with the feeling of summer solstice, makes me feel dizzy
Like the wheels on my Toyota
Just like the spinning wheels of my Toyota car
If I squint I see you in the mirror
When I narrow my eyes, I can see your reflection in the mirror
If I clinch you I can feel little deeper
When I hold you tightly, I can feel a deeper connection
No your boyfriend’s not around
Your boyfriend is not present
He’s besting me, arresting me, its testing me
He is surpassing me, overpowering me, and putting me to the test
My energy, its jealousy
My emotions are filled with envy
Pay for love, the only way it could ever be
The only way to obtain love is by paying for it
Pay for highs, the only way I could ever see
The only way for me to experience happiness is by paying for it
The only way I could ever sleep
Paying is also necessary for me to find peace in my sleep
We stay numb before the thirst strikes
We try to remain emotionally detached before feeling the desire for something
Another gram before the first light
Using drugs to escape reality before dawn
Could die, hit our last line
We risk our lives by consuming drugs to the point of overdose
Picked up, you said you said pure right?
After buying drugs, you confirmed their purity, right?
My heirloom in the midnight, my love at last sight
Late at night, my cherished possession, my last glimpse of love
Was premature, you’re out of sight
Our relationship ended prematurely, and now you're gone
Tried to love you through the midnight
I attempted to love you during late hours
Was immature, a wet dream under moonlight
My love for you was inexperienced, merely an unrealistic fantasy under the moonlight
No shadow left on my mind
There's no lingering influence or impact on my thoughts
No shadow cast on my mind
There's no haunting or troubling presence in my thoughts
You tested me and boy you fucking bested me
You put me to the test, and you completely outperformed me
Pretty fucking hard, a pretty fuckry
It was incredibly difficult, a chaotic and complicated situation
You’re pretty with the pride in your eyes
You look beautiful when your eyes are filled with pride
Hubris looks good on you
Your arrogance suits you well
Quick to turn tables, to numb the words
You are adept at shifting blame and avoiding emotional pain
To tell me what I couldn’t do
You constantly remind me of my limitations
Never really knew you, but I still miss you
I never truly understood you, but I still feel a longing for you
Never felt your body, I still feel you
I never experienced physical intimacy with you, yet your presence still lingers
But I still feel you, no I still feel you
Despite everything, I still have strong emotions towards you
Never be enough, I could never be enough, not for you…
I could never meet your expectations or be sufficient for you
Will I ever be enough?
I question whether I will ever be sufficient for anyone
I still feel you, no your boyfriend’s not around
I still have emotional connections to you, even though your boyfriend is not present
I still feel you, no your boyfriend’s not around
I still have strong emotions towards you, despite your boyfriend's absence
I still feel you, no your boyfriend’s not around
I still have unresolved feelings towards you, even though your boyfriend is not here
I still feel you
I am still deeply affected by my emotions for you
Lyrics © O/B/O APRA AMCOS
Written by: JACK LEWIN
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shasha sessionslive
Great passion and talent throughout. You convey your emotions well. I am so moved of your voice and this song. I would love to see you perform at sessions live. I sent you an email. Let's connect.
Nick Shillito
🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥straight up vibes
Jay Lewn
🥰🥰🥰
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Feel it👌
Jay Lewn
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Tarcisio Soares
Issa Rae could it on Insecure season 5 <3
Jay Lewn
I would love that fr!