Disorder
Jay Robinson Lyrics
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I'm not really much for cryin' no
Not really big on tryin'
Not anymore
Not really down for hurtin'
Not really much for searchin', no
I'm not really down for much with
This world anymore
I'll try to clear my head
Maybe I can find some peace in
The shadows of the dead
No, I'll find my demons lurking there
They come from underneath my bed
And I cannot escape them
Not even in my head
Who are you? Who am I
Not really big on staying, here but
I'm not down for going, anywhere
Makes me wish I could do something more
Makes me wish that I could care
I think the truth about it, is
The people try to doubt it, then
I feel so very clouded
And it doesn't go away
But baby I am broken
No I am not okay
But really by that token
Who is anyway?
I'm pretty good at hiding
That I'm not really well
And the saddest thing about it
Is that you could never tell
It's only a condition
Maybe someday you could see
It's not my disposition
No it's not really me
Who are you? Who am I
It's only a condition
Yeah someday you could see!
It's not my disposition
No, it's not really me
Who are you? Who am I
The lyrics to Jay Robinson's song "Disorder" touch upon themes of personal struggle, emotional turmoil, and feeling disconnected from the world. The singer expresses a lack of desire to hide or cry, indicating a sense of weariness and emotional exhaustion. They also mention not being inclined to try or hurt anymore, suggesting a feeling of apathy and disengagement.
The lyrics further reveal a sense of wanting to escape from the world and find peace, but the singer acknowledges that their inner demons and troubles always follow them, even in their own mind. The repeated question of "Who are you? Who am I?" highlights a sense of questioning and uncertainty about identity and purpose.
The song also addresses the singer's ambivalent feelings towards staying or leaving. They express a desire to do something more, to care, but also feel clouded and unable to escape their own brokenness. The singer acknowledges their skill in hiding their true emotions and the sadness in knowing that others cannot tell the depth of their struggle.
Ultimately, the lyrics convey a sense of internal conflict, a longing for understanding, and a feeling of being trapped in one's own emotional turmoil.
Line by Line Meaning
Not really down for hidin'
I have no desire to conceal my true feelings or emotions
I'm not really much for cryin' no
I don't tend to cry or express sadness
Not really big on tryin'
I have lost interest in making an effort
Not really down for hurtin'
I don't want to experience pain
Not really much for searchin', no
I have little motivation to seek answers or solutions
I'm not really down for much with
I have lost interest in many aspects of
This world anymore
the world and its challenges
So I think I'll go away now
I have decided to distance myself from my current situation
I'll try to clear my head
I will attempt to free my mind from clutter and negative thoughts
Maybe I can find some peace in
Perhaps I can discover tranquility within
The shadows of the dead
The realm of darkness and solitude
No, I'll find my demons lurking there
Unfortunately, I will encounter my inner struggles within that realm
They come from underneath my bed
My fears and troubles originate deep within my subconscious
And I cannot escape them
I am unable to evade or elude these internal battles
Not even in my head
They persist even within my thoughts
Who are you? Who am I
Questions about identity and self-understanding arise
Not really big on staying, here but
I don't have a strong desire to remain in my current location
I'm not down for going, anywhere
However, I also lack the motivation to leave
Makes me wish I could do something more
It makes me desire to be more proactive or capable
Makes me wish that I could care
I long to feel a genuine sense of concern or interest
I think the truth about it, is
In my opinion, the reality is
The people try to doubt it, then
Others attempt to question or disbelieve this reality
I feel so very clouded
My mind feels overwhelmed or confused
And it doesn't go away
These feelings persist without resolution
But baby I am broken
I am emotionally damaged or shattered
No I am not okay
I am not in a stable or positive mental state
But really by that token
However, in light of that fact
Who is anyway?
Who, in reality, truly is?
I'm pretty good at hiding
I have become skilled at concealing
That I'm not really well
The truth that I am not genuinely okay
And the saddest thing about it
The most disheartening aspect is
Is that you could never tell
You are unable to perceive or discern
It's only a condition
It is merely a state or circumstance
Maybe someday you could see
Perhaps one day you will understand
No it's not really me
It does not truly represent who I am
It's only a condition
It is simply a temporary state
Yeah someday you could see!
Hopefully, one day you will comprehend
No, it's not really me
It does not truly reflect my identity
Who are you? Who am I
Continued contemplation of personal identity and self-awareness
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Written by: Jay Robinson
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