Tightrope
JayteKz Lyrics

Lately
Recently, in the present time

I been reflecting on my mental state
I have been contemplating and examining my emotional well-being

Crazy
Incredibly bewildering and alarming

How the fuck did I end up this way
In what manner did I become this twisted and distorted

Maybe
Possibly or potentially

One day I'll be able to explain
At some point, I will acquire the ability to elucidate

All these unresolved discrepancies inside my brain
The various inconsistencies and conflicts within my mind that remain unsettled

Or
Alternatively or else

Perhaps I'll never quite understand
Maybe I will never truly comprehend

These complexities that swallow me like quicksand
These intricate matters that engulf and trap me like sinking sand

Got me drowning slow deeper down the rabbit hole
It has me sinking gradually and further into a state of confusion and uncertainty

Don't wanna' lose my soul searching for this pot of gold
I do not want to sacrifice my inner self while pursuing material success

No
Absolutely not

Cause lord knows I wanna' be rich
Because deep down, I desire to achieve wealth and prosperity

Prove everybody wrong that said I wouldn't be shit
To demonstrate to all the individuals who doubted me that they were mistaken

When I would dream big motherfuckers made me feel small
As I aimed for grand aspirations, certain people belittled and diminished my worth

That shit was hurtful but regardless my heart stood tall
Although it was painful, I remained resilient and strong in spirit

Yeah
Indeed

Can you tell my thoughts are everywhere
Can you perceive the scattered nature of my thoughts

I'd be lying if I told you I was never scared
I would not be truthful if I claimed to have never felt fear

I'm well aware that this life is unpredictable
I am fully cognizant of the fact that life is full of uncertainties

And I can swear that my love is unconditional
I can confidently attest that my affection knows no bounds or conditions

Walking on the edge between life and death
Navigating the precarious balance between existence and demise

I can feel this knife inside my chest
I can intensely sense the pain and anguish piercing my heart

Tryna' catch my breath but life moves too fast
Struggling to regain composure but being overwhelmed by the rapid pace of life

This bleeding heart of mine is seeping through the cracks
My emotionally wounded heart is slowly revealing itself and leaking through the fractures

And I swear it breaks my heart looking in your eyes
I sincerely admit that it shatters my own heart to gaze into your eyes

How much life is there left in you before you die
The amount of time remaining in your life before reaching the end

And I cry inside every time I see you smile
Internally, tears well up within me whenever I witness your smile

Cause I know that you know time is running out
Because I am aware that you are also conscious of the diminishing time

While the sun is out have one last dance with me
During this period of opportunity, engage in a final dance with me

If I'm looking down it's only cause I'm panicking
If my gaze is directed downwards, it is solely due to my state of anxiety

Tragedy and agony ensues us
Misfortune and intense distress follow us relentlessly

Imagine we weren't damaged and weren't bruised up
Conceive a scenario wherein we were not harmed or emotionally wounded

I think I'm finally at a loss for words
I believe I have ultimately reached a point where words fail me

So I smoke fill my lungs up with all this herb
Consequently, I resort to smoking and filling my lungs with marijuana

So much hurt in my heart got me growing weak
An abundant amount of pain in my heart is causing me to become feeble

I feel safe in the dark when I go to sleep
When I fall asleep, I experience a sense of security in the darkness

Oh, oh please someone notice me
Oh, I beg for someone to acknowledge my presence

Hold me tight just in case I lose control of me
Embrace me tightly, as a precaution in case I lose grasp of my own self

Fuck
Expression of frustration or anger

Or maybe I should just let go of me
Alternatively, perhaps I should release and relinquish control of myself

Cross my heart pray the lord for my soul to keep
Making a solemn promise and praying to God to safeguard my soul