Post Mortem
Jean Grae Lyrics

Vision is blurred yo
I'm about to die and my vision is blurry.

This is the last chapter
This is the end of my life.

Bombs hit who? Crushed what?
I don't know who or what got hit by the bombs that caused my death.

Over there? Oh my god, oh dear
I'm expressing shock and surprise about what happened.

I was hmm.. I think I was *h* movin somewhere
I was in the process of moving somewhere, but now I'm dead.

About to paint my fear bright glare not quite clear
I was afraid of something and was trying to express it creatively, but wasn't able to make it clear.

Stay blinded to the light of possibilities
I was afraid to explore new possibilities and remained in the dark.

Think I heard the screams of those in my proximity
I heard people screaming and dying around me.

On how they started thinking wishfully
People started hoping and dreaming before they died.

Guided by fear I'm suddenly aware
I became aware of my fear controlling me, but it was too late.

Please, is anybody out there?
I'm calling out for help or companionship, but there's no one there.

It was a gentle fission kiss on my block
The impact of the bomb was like a gentle kiss of nuclear fission on my neighborhood.

And hot light like a baby breathing sigh a terrain
The hot light of the nuclear explosion was like a baby's gentle sigh on the landscape.

And now my name is merely left
All that's left of me is my name and memory.

Suckin on brain exist before the final flash
I was alive and conscious for a brief moment before I died.

The emotion of pretty details of a life I had passed
I'm reminiscing about the beautiful details of my life before I died.

Now my warm night in Brooklyn is ash
My warm memories of Brooklyn are now ashes.

Falling from the snot of loosies that I choked
I'm choking on my own phlegm as I die.

Around the corner from class
I was near my school or college when I died.

Before the moments when the moon can move fast
I died before I could experience time moving quickly or before an event can take place.

Another summer slowly growing with the friendships
I'm remembering past summers and the friendships I had.

That would end with a blast
But those friendships ended abruptly with my death.

Or how the hours could so blissfully lag
I remember how time could pass slowly and happily.

She slid her tongue between my lips and I gasped
I remember a past experience of kissing someone and being shocked.

Told my dawgs and they laughed
I shared this experience with my friends, but they only laughed at me.

Now we're combining our cash at last
I'm remembering a moment when I pooled money with friends for a common goal.

A pack of smokes and a flask
We likely used the pooled money to buy cigarettes and a flask of alcohol.

Hopeless liquor with a
We were hopeless and drinking together.

Convert to atheism denounce god pronounce religion dead
I denounced religion and lost my faith.

Faith in nothing trace my wrists with razors
I lost all faith and harmed myself through self-harm.

I refuse to wait for the blades to erase my spirit
I didn't want to be erased by blades or any means because I wanted to live.

Death - faced with it - run to it - not from it
I faced death head-on rather than running from it.

Swallow all the pills in the medicine cabinet
I committed suicide by swallowing all the pills in my medicine cabinet.

Chase it with a bottle of 151 hung mommy
I drank alcohol after taking the overdose of pills.

Head outside the smashed windows in trash my hotel lobby
In my last moments, I wrecked a hotel lobby and broke its windows.

Break the grip off the time at last
I'm trying to escape the grip of time as I die.

I find I get to him up Wish I did more sinnin
I regret not sinning more in life before I died.

Get a strap on run up in two women
I wish I took advantage of women or committed more crimes.

Laid in the middle of a highway wait for pain to hit me
I allowed myself to be hit by a vehicle on a highway and waited for the pain to hit me.

Still a can with people lootin screamin come and get me
I'm present during a time of looting when people are stealing things and calling for others to join them.

Finally it was porn shop biggest gun crowded street
I find myself in a crowded street in front of a porn shop with a large gun.

Blow my brains to hell - I'm gone - and let the devil come for me
I commit suicide by shooting myself in the head and am ready to face the devil.

What's the chance that I'd be one of the last ones left of my preceders
I'm acknowledging the chance of being one of the last people remaining in my family or lineage.

The Earth Crusher came before I could even conceive a fetus
The potential of my existence was destroyed even before my parents met or gave birth to me.

But I did go from nothing to misunderstood elitist
I rose from nothing and gained power, but was misunderstood by others as arrogant or out of touch.

Who tried to tell his people the lies instead of acting like defeatists
I tried to motivate people with lies rather than giving up and being a defeatist.

But what good is that? Cause we're now all goin to hell
But it doesn't matter now because we'll all suffer the consequences of our actions.

Like some kid playin in his class out talkin before the bell
He used the analogy that we're like kids playing and talking before the end of class, oblivious to the impending danger.

I died believing in righteousness but I could have indulged more
I died believing that my actions were righteous, but I could have been more indulgent in life.

Cause giving in to temptation don't seem that raw no more
Giving in to temptation doesn't seem terrible anymore because death is worse.

I heard some airline offered flights into space
I heard about an airline offering space flights before I died.

I shoulda took it to see earth before they matched up the place
I regret not taking that space flight before the earth was destroyed.

Now we're all ground by the grind
Now we're all struggling to survive.

Out of luck and out of line, out of signs
We're out of luck, out of line, and there are no signs of hope.

And now we're out of time...
And now there's no more time left because we're all going to die.