Be Here Now
Jessia Lyrics

I don't know if I am happy with anything anymore
I am uncertain about my overall level of satisfaction with life

I'm not complaining I'm just a bit unsure about
I'm expressing doubt, not necessarily dissatisfaction

Who I am where I stand, when does my part fit in
I am struggling with my identity and place in the world

Seems like everybody's falling in love with their path
Others seem to have a clear direction in life and are confident in it

And I'm hesitating and building my tracks
I'm taking my time and creating my own path, rather than following others

If somebody else tells me just to relax
I don't appreciate it when others tell me to calm down or stop worrying

I wish it was that easy to shut it all off
I wish I could turn off my thoughts and emotions more easily

I wish it was that simple to know I'm enough
I wish I had a clearer sense of self-worth and didn't constantly question myself

I wish I could pretend that I'm doing it
I wish I could fake confidence and stability like others seem to

And I'm not wrapped up and I'm losing it
Instead, I often feel overwhelmed and like I'm falling apart

When I'm out with my friends I'm not really though
Even when I'm socializing, I'm not fully present because my mind is preoccupied with my inner struggles

I'm just waiting for my dreams to call up my phone
I'm hoping for a clear sense of purpose or direction to come to me

I can't keep this up I'm original
I can't continue to act like everything is okay when I'm really struggling with my individuality

And it's killing me more than you know
This is taking a heavy toll on my mental and emotional wellbeing

I just want to be here now, mmhm
I want to be present in the moment and not constantly weighed down by my doubts and anxieties

'Cause I know that I can be here now, mmhm
I am capable of being fully present and engaged in my life, I just struggle with it at times

Maybe I should be more open about it but don't get me started
I recognize that I may benefit from opening up about my struggles, but it's a sensitive topic for me

'Cause once in my head it's kind of a mess
When I start to think about my insecurities, it can quickly become overwhelming and difficult to sort through

I'm trying to clean
I'm actively working on sorting through my thoughts and feelings

Don't know what I should keep
It's hard for me to discern which thoughts or feelings are useful or relevant versus which ones are unhelpful or distracting

I don't want to be fake
I don't want to pretend to be someone I'm not or hide my struggles from others

Unoriginal
I don't want to feel like I'm just copying others or following the crowd

Trying to keep up with all these decisions now
I feel pressure to make important choices and it's hard to keep up with everything

I just wanna be here now, be here now, I just wanna be here now
I want to focus on being present and engaged in my life, rather than being stuck in my head

And I wanna stay for a minute now
I want to take some time to slow down and be still

'Cause I just want 60 seconds for myself
I want a brief moment of respite from my inner turmoil and the demands of daily life