Life of the Party
Joe Lyrics

I don't wanna believe that it's over
I don't want to accept that our relationship is ending

I gotta take my time with this one
I need to carefully process my feelings before acting

You might see me smilin'
I may appear happy on the outside

But inside I'm dying
But internally, I am suffering

Too proud to let it show
I am too proud to reveal my vulnerability

I ain't the one
I am not the type of person to show my emotions easily

You won't see me crying
I won't cry in front of others

But it's hard to let it go
But it's difficult to move on from the relationship

All my time on the tour bus
Spending time on tour was not beneficial for our relationship

Wasn't good for us
Being away for long periods was harmful to our relationship

And then you throw it all
And then you ended it all abruptly

Started gettin' around with a few choice chicks
You started seeing other women

But we had something special
But we had a unique bond

Plus the sex was sick
And we had great sexual chemistry

Do you remember
Do you recall

From the bed to the wall
Our sexual experiences in various parts of our living space

On the floor by the fireplace?
Including on the floor in front of the fireplace

I know you remember
I am sure you recollect those moments too

On the truck, couldn't wait
In a car, unable to contain our desires

So we got off on the garden state
We went off on the Garden State Parkway

Somehow we must of got all turned around on last freeway
Somehow, we became disoriented and lost our way

Now I can't find my way home to you
Now I can't seem to find a way back to you

Oh girl
Oh my love

Still
Yet, despite everything

I get love in the hood
I still receive affection from those in the community

Still arguin'
We still argue and don't see eye-to-eye

Acting like my life is all good
Projecting an image of strength and contentment

Still
Nevertheless

Putting up a false bravado
Feigning confidence and courage

When I lost you, I lost my winning ticket to lotto
When our relationship ended, I lost something invaluable

Every time I raise my glass
Whenever I drink to celebrate or numb my pain

I try to drink away my past
I try to erase my memories through alcohol

To the world I might appear to be the life of the party
To others, I may seem like a happy and social person

But they don't see me
However, they don't see the real me

Oh, I never thought I'd be the one missing
I never thought I would be the one struggling to move on

Oh, I can't take this emptiness
I can't bear this sense of loneliness

And I can't keep going on like this
I can't continue to live like this

And I can't keep pretending that this don't hurt like a mother, babe
I can't continue to pretend that this doesn't hurt me deeply

I know that it's crazy for me to come over
I know it's irrational to visit you

I had to see you
But I had to talk to you

I know I got to change, girl
I know I need to make changes in my life

I'll do that quick
I will make those changes rapidly

You need to take me back 'cause the sex was sick
You should forgive me and continue our relationship because our sexual connection was amazing

Y'all don't see
Others do not understand

You only see what you see on the TV
You only witness what the media shows of me

This is my reality
This is my actual life

You got to get to know me
You must make an effort to understand me

Every time I raise my glass
Whenever I drink to toast or drown my sorrows

I try to raise my glass
I try to lift my spirits

To the world I might appear to be the life of the party
I may seem like a cheerful and outgoing person to others