In My Feelings
Joell Ortiz Lyrics

Uh, I'm in my feelings y'all, pardon
I'm feeling emotional right now, please excuse me

I feel like Oakley in the Garden
I feel tough and relentless, just like Charles Oakley playing at Madison Square Garden

When I played it was full contact
When I was playing music, I gave it my all without holding back

And I ain't see a quarter of these contracts
I didn't have as many lucrative opportunities as I see artists have today

I put up numbers when I hold this mic
I've had great success and made an impact when I perform and rap

But see I came up in an era where HOV was Mike
I grew up in a time when Jay-Z was considered as great as Michael Jordan

Being a fellow Brooklynite, I was an ALL Star
Being from Brooklyn, I was a standout in the rap game

But never got to pop champagne 'cept in a Sports Bar
I didn't achieve enough success to celebrate with champagne, only in local sports bars

Now I'd be lying if I said I hadn't gone far
I would be dishonest if I said I didn't achieve any level of success

But I'm still tight 'bout what I mentioned in that four bar
I'm still upset about the diss I delivered in those four lines

A younger me just steaming 'em wit this pen
When I was younger, I used to release my anger through my lyrics

Wonder what I woulda been if streaming existed then
I wonder how my career would have been different if music streaming platforms existed back then

Young May, Cash Clay, leaning into ya chin
In my earlier days, I was aggressive and confrontational in my lyrics

Leaving 'em in the wind as I'm weaving 'em let's begin
I would leave my opponents speechless with my clever wordplay and skills

In '07 the Brick dropped, Hip Hop made a pit stop
In 2007, I released my album 'The Brick,' which had a significant impact on the hip-hop scene

On this block in Brooklyn and noticed I had the strip locked
In my neighborhood, I gained recognition and established my dominance as an artist

Big Rocks in my socks all tied into small ziplocks
I used to hide valuable items in my socks using small ziplock bags

Fifth Glock on my hip had 'em dancing before Tik Tok
Carrying a firearm made people respect and fear me, even before the TikTok era

Wave cap, skully and my braids all ugly
I had a less-than-perfect appearance with my wave cap, beanie, and braided hair

Pitching, y'all should want a signed baseball from me
I'm delivering my rap skills with such precision that you should want my autograph

Listen, I feel like Strawberry at Shea
I feel like a star player, similar to Darryl Strawberry at Shea Stadium

Whenever I had to bat, y'all saw an Apple a Day
Every time I performed, my fans witnessed greatness

And it still wasn't enough to keep the Doctor away
Even with my impressive performances, I couldn't achieve the level of success I desired

'Cause, yeah, shortly after that I signed to Dre
Because of my talent, I signed a record deal with Dr. Dre

Y-A-O-W-A and NWAs own
I'm associated with the Y-A-O-W-A (Yaowa) movement and also part of N.W.A.

Joined forces y'all in trouble today
When we came together, it became a problem for our opponents

That's how I felt when that ink hit that paper
I was ecstatic and felt a sense of accomplishment when I signed my record deal

Then minor league coaching advised me to leave the majors
People who had less experience and success than me advised me to leave the mainstream music industry

Big League mistake in my opinion I was loyal to a fault
In my opinion, it was a major mistake to leave the high-level industry because I was loyal to a fault

What they did for Kendrick Lamar they was tryna do for ya boy
They were attempting to provide me with the same opportunities and success as Kendrick Lamar

But that didn't include everybody inside the room
Unfortunately, not everyone involved in the decision-making process shared the same vision

'Cause Dre seen what I saw later, but it's cool
Dr. Dre eventually understood what I had realized later on, but I'm okay with it

Live and ya learn, no bridges burned I give and I earn
I live and learn from my experiences without damaging relationships, and I work hard to earn my success

I sleep really well at night, while they twist and they turn
I have peace of mind while my rivals struggle and worry

But back to rap, none of y'all 'cause a bit of concern
In terms of rap skills, none of you pose a threat or concern to me

I been underrated since Undertaker lifting his urn
I have been underappreciated and overlooked, just like The Undertaker in his early days

So then I jumped on this record with Joe
I collaborated on this song with Joe

Man y'all know how the rest of this go
You all know what happens next in my story

Niggas screaming Slaughterhouse as I exit the show
People are shouting for Slaughterhouse (his rap group) as I finish my performance and leave the stage

Head to toe, fly as fuck while the X's and O's
Looking stylish from head to toe, while also understanding the strategic aspects of the rap game

Was pouring in from the baddest, lotta whores got ravished
I received attention and admiration from attractive women, and many of them desired me

Four month damage on my tour bus mattress
I engaged in sexual activities on my tour bus, leaving a significant impact on the mattress

'Cause the four headed monster flamed shit above average
The four members of Slaughterhouse brought an exceptional level of talent and skill to the rap game

Then they called the Fire Marshall, wit the last name Mathers
They had to call the Fire Marshall (Eminem, whose real name is Marshall Mathers) due to the intensity and energy of our performances

Just let me know 'cause I'll stop if you want
Tell me if you want me to stop, and I'll respect your wishes

Or keep cutting, 'cause I feel like Barry Sanders with blockers in front
I'll keep delivering my lyrics with precision, like Barry Sanders running the football with a strong offensive line in front of him