Sanctuary
John Smith Lyrics


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Drinking hard in circles
Trying to forget
Lost a card or two
And found myself in bed
She told me it was nothing
And I could not disagree

So I woke up
Desperate for a little air
With my coat and my change
I stumbled out of there
Into the freezing morning
Let it lead me anywhere

I saw the future with eyes wide open
Across a river of fallen leaves
And though you're gone I was kind of hoping
You'd still be there to shelter me
And I would find some sanctuary

I watched you run like crazy
Chasing all those dreams
I tried to follow close
But I ran out of steam
I knew I had lost you
Long before you had to leave

Walking past the station
Getting colder now
Remembering how you waited there
Your first time in this town
And how it felt to hold you
As the evening sun went down

Oh gotta let it go, let it go
I can't keep aligning the stars
I'm a fool if I think that
Wine and a stranger
Waking up wasted




Ever fixed a broken heart
But it's a place to start

Overall Meaning

The first verse of this song sets the scene of someone drowning their sorrows in alcohol, trying to escape reality by losing themselves in a haze of excessive drinking. They confess to losing control and finding themselves in bed with someone, perhaps seeking temporary solace or distraction from their troubles. The individual they encountered reassures them that it was meaningless, but deep down, they may still feel conflicted about the encounter.


In the second verse, the singer wakes up the next morning feeling suffocated and desperate for fresh air, physically leaving the space of their indulgence. The imagery of stumbling out into the freezing morning conveys a sense of disorientation and a need for clarity. Despite feeling lost and uncertain, they open themselves up to the possibilities of the unknown, willing to let the morning lead them wherever it may.


The chorus delves into a reflective moment where the singer envisions a future with a sense of hopeful longing. Imagining a landscape filled with fallen leaves, they acknowledge the absence of someone significant in their life. Despite this absence, there is a yearning for that person to provide comfort and shelter, symbolizing a desire for emotional refuge or sanctuary in times of distress.


Continuing to reminisce about the past, the singer recalls moments shared with the person they long for. Walking through familiar places and remembering intimate details, such as waiting at the station or watching the sunset together, evokes a sense of nostalgia and longing. They come to terms with the realization that they have lost this person, even before they physically departed, highlighting a sense of resignation and acceptance of inevitable separation. The lyrics convey a bittersweet tone as the singer grapples with letting go and starting anew, recognizing the futility of seeking solace in temporary distractions like alcohol and temporary flings. By acknowledging their own foolishness and the need to move on, they confront the painful reality of heartbreak and the difficult journey towards healing.


Line by Line Meaning

Drinking hard in circles
Engaging in repetitive, self-destructive behaviors to cope with emotional pain


Trying to forget
Attempting to push painful memories out of one's mind


Lost a card or two
Making mistakes or bad decisions


And found myself in bed
Ending up in a vulnerable or regrettable situation


She told me it was nothing
Trying to downplay a significant event or mistake


And I could not disagree
Unable to deny the truth or reality of the situation


So I woke up
Becoming aware of one's surroundings and situation


Desperate for a little air
Feeling suffocated or overwhelmed


With my coat and my change
Leaving with only the essentials


I stumbled out of there
Leaving the comfort or familiarity of a place


Into the freezing morning
Facing harsh realities or difficult circumstances


Let it lead me anywhere
Embracing uncertainty and unpredictability


I saw the future with eyes wide open
Facing the future with clarity and awareness


Across a river of fallen leaves
Navigating through past experiences and memories


And though you're gone I was kind of hoping
Despite knowing the truth, holding onto hope or longing


You'd still be there to shelter me
Seeking comfort and protection from someone emotionally


And I would find some sanctuary
Hoping to find peace or solace in a challenging situation


I watched you run like crazy
Observing someone pursue their dreams passionately


Chasing all those dreams
Actively pursuing personal goals and aspirations


I tried to follow close
Attempting to keep up with someone's ambition or pace


But I ran out of steam
Losing energy or motivation to keep up


I knew I had lost you
Realizing a relationship or connection has ended


Long before you had to leave
Recognizing the signs of detachment or distance


Walking past the station
Moving forward or progressing despite setbacks


Getting colder now
Feeling emotionally distant or disconnected


Remembering how you waited there
Recalling moments of patience and support from someone


Your first time in this town
Reflecting on initial experiences or memories


And how it felt to hold you
Recalling the emotional connection with someone


As the evening sun went down
Remembering intimate or peaceful moments


Oh gotta let it go, let it go
Recognizing the need to release past emotions or situations


I can't keep aligning the stars
Unable to control or manipulate external circumstances


I'm a fool if I think that
Acknowledging unrealistic expectations or beliefs


Wine and a stranger
Using temporary distractions or escapism


Waking up wasted
Regretting impulsive or reckless actions


Ever fixed a broken heart
Questioning the effectiveness of certain coping mechanisms


But it's a place to start
Recognizing the need for personal growth and healing




Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, O/B/O DistroKid, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Capitol CMG Publishing
Written by: JONAS CARL GUSTAF MYRIN, JORDAN MACKENZIE SMITH, JOSH ZEGAN

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Comments from YouTube:

@jpinto9056

The best of the bests!

@user-rv6mh3zf7u

I don’t sub every singer I hear. I heard 3 songs. That was good enough for me.

@alanr.johnson7222

A new master in a great English language singer songwriting tradition on this side of the Atlantic. I've been a big fan of Bert Jansch since the mid1970s and missed him enormously over the last 10 years, John Smith has gone a long way to filling that gap!

@thejohnsmith

Most kind. Thank you Alan!

@Buddhamaster44

Dear John... If only you would truly realise how good you are.... 😊, and stop being so bloody humble.....cheers mate ! Erik 🙏🎸

@danbennett6854

What a beautiful video to accompany a great song!

@sbassett5572

Still here in south India listening John, still going inspired by your music.. Thanks

@thejohnsmith

That's very cool. Thank you for that.

@sbassett5572

@@thejohnsmith emailed you a few years ago.. About the child protection work here and how youd inspired me to keep going.. We are still going, still listening in the mountains of Tamil Nadu. Hopefully get back one of these years and see you live again.. Your music means the world to us here, so.. Thank you 🙏

@rustyrobots426

Just a beautiful song John as is all of the fray.

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