Halfway Home
Jude. Lyrics

It's been hard to let go
I've had a difficult time moving on from this situation.

I've been on my own
I've been dealing with this by myself.

I keep my head low
I try to stay out of the spotlight and avoid drawing attention to myself.

Wish you would of said more
I wish you had been more upfront with me.

What you always tryna stay ahead for
Why were you always trying to be one step ahead of me?

Ahh
Expressing a deep sigh or frustration.

I Can't help but let you go
Although it's difficult, I have to move on from this situation and let you go.

I already got halfway home
I've made some progress in this journey, but I'm not quite there yet.

Wish I coulda had my own
I wish I could have had control over this situation.

It was hard to deal with the notion
It was difficult to come to terms with the reality of the situation.

Hard to see your friends
It was tough to watch my friends struggle with this too.

Tryna go through the motions
We were all just trying to get through this.

You broke the news
You told me something that was hard to hear or deal with.

And faces filled with emotions
Everyone's reactions to the news were filled with a lot of emotion.

You were bent but not broken
You were impacted by this situation, but it didn't completely break you.

Used to see you weekly
I used to see you on a regular basis.

That turned into monthly
Our visits became less frequent over time.

Then I saw you in a white bed
I visited you while you were in the hospital.

Stuck with an IV
You were hooked up to an IV machine for treatment.

Used to see you happy
I remember when you used to be happy and carefree.

Used to see you smiling
I remember when you used to have a big smile on your face.

Now I only see you
These days, I can only remember you in a certain way.

By your gravestone writing
I imagine you writing a message on your own gravestone.

I never gave up
I never lost hope or stopped trying to make things better.

I never thought it could happen
I didn't believe this situation could happen to me or someone I care about.

I kept my hands up
I kept fighting and didn't give up.

I kept on praying and asking
I continued to pray and ask for guidance and strength.

I wanted answers
I was searching for answers to help me understand what was happening.

I wanted an explanation
I needed someone to explain this situation to me.

I paid the ransom
I did everything I could to try to fix the situation.

Just give me back what was taken
I just want things to go back to the way they were before this happened.

I might be crazy
I know this may sound strange or irrational.

Don't tell me I lost my mind
Don't say that I've gone crazy for feeling this way.

I just wanna look up inside
I want to see you again and feel that connection we had.

And see your eyes
I want to see your eyes and feel that connection we had.

I used to read you like a book
I used to know you so well that I could predict your next move or thought.

I read between your lines
I understood the hidden meaning behind what you were saying.

Girl, I know that
I am aware of what's happening and how I'm feeling.

Ima have to see you one more time Yeah
I feel like seeing you again would help me get closure or understand this situation better.

Wasn't lying when I said
I was telling the truth when I said that I wouldn't let you go.

"Won't let you go"
I promised that I wouldn't let this situation drive us apart.

My girl bad from her head
My girl is amazing or incredible from her head to toe.

Down to her toes
I find everything about her to be attractive or admirable.

Oh I guess that's the murder
I guess that's why I'm so attracted to her or why I love her so much.

That she wrote
That's the way she was made or the qualities she possesses.

I just know I couldn't let her go
I couldn't bear the thought of losing her.

Say you look bad today
I compliment her and tell her she looks great even when she may not feel that way.

I could not lose you no way
I know I can't let this situation tear us apart or cause us to drift away.