Understanding
K.M. Weiland Lyrics

I can't really make sense what's happening
Feeling lost and confused about what is going on in life.

I don't got a dial I'm panicking
Feeling like there's no one to turn to when in panic.

I don't talk to friends or my family
Not opening up to friends or family about personal struggles.

Music only thing understanding me
Finding solace and understanding through music.

I been taught to bottle up my feelings
Being raised to hide emotions until they become unclear.

Till I don't know what and I'm feeling
Eventually losing the ability to understand one's own feelings.

So I bottled up and I throw it in ocean, hoping you gon' get the message
Attempting to express feelings symbolically through actions.

The boat sells when you row it
Nothing will happen if one does not take any initiative.

Yourself worth keeps eroding
Losing self-esteem because of negative emotions.

When you don't make bucks, don't pay fucks, don't sell as a poet
Struggling to make a living as a creative artist.

I swear I would just do it if I could sing my pain away
Feeling like singing would release bottled up emotions.

I'm holding back on my tears, just to save up for rainy days
Suppressing tears to avoid emotional exhaustion.

I used to talk less, now I talk lesser
Becoming more introverted over time.

Got worse, never got better
Feeling that things have only gotten worse over time.

If God really was real, we could be chill with no goddamn paper like
Questioning the true value of money.

I can make a world war with all the people that I cut out
Feeling resentful towards those who have been pushed away.

Walk into a cage with a pack of wolves just coz humans doubt
Feeling more at home with animals than with people.

I don't got a fucking destination I just want to lead the pack n
Feeling aimless in life but still wanting to take charge.

Hunt and kill and eat and smoke good I don't want to pack none
Preferring simple pleasures like hunting, eating and smoking over material possessions.

I don't wanna kill life I just want to live one
Valuing living life over taking others’.

Nine to five money and you making still none
Feeling financially unfulfilled despite working hard.

Where your fucking peace at do you even feel some
Feeling like peace has been lost or never really experienced.

Seven billion people on a path of how you been? Done
Feeling like life has become mundane with a lack of individuality.

Ai'it ai'it I know
Acknowledging the listener's perspective.

I can't be your fucking idol
Rejecting the idea of being a role model.

Music is your life in your bio
Seeing music as a core aspect of one’s identity.

But I'm wasting my life though
Feeling unfulfilled or dissatisfied with one’s current life.

You think that the life you're living ain't enough
Feeling as if one's current life is lacking.

Two dimensional thoughts in your head are puffed
Feeling trapped by limited thinking patterns.

Ever thought that life came from above
Considering the spiritual or metaphysical origins of life.

But you thinking why I never give a fuck
Wondering why the singer does not seem to care.

Music is family and love
Seeing music as a bond between people.

Humans lying through their teeth, is that why they need to brush
Feeling disillusioned by people's dishonesty.

You're just sheep, why else would Jesus be a shepherd
Questioning one’s own individuality in society.