In My Secret Life
Katie Melua Lyrics

I saw you this morning, You were moving so fast.
I saw you this morning which depicts that you're always on the run, can't seem to slow down despite those around you.

Can't seem to loosen my grip, On the past.
I can't seem to stop thinking about the past, it has a strong hold on me even though I want to let go.

And I miss you so much, There's no one in sight.
I miss you so much, and it feels like no one else is around to fill the void you left behind.

And we're still making love, In my secret life.
Even though we're apart, we're still connected in my secret life, where we make love and share things that only exist between us.

I smile when I'm angry.
I hide my emotions by smiling even when I'm angry, it's a defense mechanism I've developed.

I cheat and I lie.
I'm not always truthful, and sometimes I cheat to get ahead, even though I know it's not the right thing to do.

I do what I have to do, To get by.
I'm doing what I need to do to survive and make it through each day.

But I know what is wrong, And I know what is right.
I may not always follow what's right, but I know the difference between right and wrong.

And I'd die for the truth, In my secret life.
I hold the truth very close to my heart, and even though it's hidden from others, I'm willing to die to protect it.

Hold on, hold on, my brother, My sister, hold on tight.
I'm encouraging my brothers and sisters to hold on tightly during difficult times, to not give up, and to stay strong.

I finally got my orders, I'll be marching through the morning.
I've received my orders and I'm ready to face the world, even if it means starting early in the morning when everyone else is still asleep.

Marching through the night, Moving 'cross the borders, Of my secret life.
I'm moving through the darkness, crossing borders in my secret life, not afraid of what's out there or what I might find.

Looked through the paper, Makes you want to cry.
The news in the paper is difficult to read, it's filled with heartbreak and despair, it's almost enough to make you want to cry.

Nobody cares if the people, Live or die.
It seems like nobody cares about the well-being of others, whether they live or die, and that's a scary thought.

And the dealer wants you thinking, That it's either black or white.
The dealer wants you to think in absolutes, that it's either good or bad, that there's no in-between, no shades of gray.

Thank God it's not that simple, In my secret life.
Thankfully, in my secret life, things aren't always so black and white, I'm able to see the nuances and complexities of situations.

I bite my lip.
I bite my lip to keep from saying things I'll regret, to keep from showing emotion that I'm not ready to share.

I buy what I'm told.
I follow instructions and buy into what people tell me, even if it's not always the best course of action.

From the latest hit, To the wisdom of old.
I take advice from all sources, from the latest trends to the timeless wisdom of the past.

But I'm always alone, And my heart is like ice.
Despite the people around me, I always feel alone, and my heart is closed off, like a piece of ice that's difficult to melt.

And it's crowded and cold, In my secret life
Even though my secret life is full of people and things, it's still a lonely and cold place, where my true feelings are hidden from the world.