The Life I Never Led
Katie Rowley Jones Lyrics
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I've never slept late
I've never sat down
When told to stand straight
I've never let go
And gone with the flow
And don't even know, really, why
Or taken a dare
I've never worn clothes
That might make people stare
I've never rebelled
Or stood up and yelled
Or even just held my head high
And all of the feelings unspoken
All of the truths unsaid
They're all I have left
Of the life I never led
I've never gone surfing
Or ran with a crowd
Or danced on a table
Or laughed much too loud
I've never quite dared
To leave myself bared
I've just been too scared I might fall
I've never seen Paris
Swum naked
Been kissed
I've never quite realised
Just how much I've missed
And what did I get
For hedging each bet?
Another regret, and that's all
And all of the wishes unasked for
All of needs unfed
They're all that remain
Of the life I never led
And now...
Now that you've given me one
Little taste of it
And now...
Now that I know what I know
Well how...
How can I go on ignoring the waste of it?
After all of the years
That I've clung to my fears.
Won't you help me let go?
Help me let go!
I want to be brave
I want to be strong
I want to believe
I'm where I belong
To stand up and say
"I'm seizing the day"
To not just obey, but to choose
And I may not surf
I may not see France
But I have to know
I still have the chance
And maybe I'll make
A painful mistake
It's mine though, to take or refuse
And all of the doors yet to open
All of the rooms ahead
They're beaconing bright
Scary and new
But I'm standing tall
And I'm walking through
What's gone may be gone
But I won't go on
Playing dead!
It's time to start living
The life I never led
Katie Rowley Jones's song, The Life I Never Led, portrays a female protagonist who has led a very sheltered and unwavering life up until now. The individual has always followed the rules and never asked to question them; they have never taken a chance to step outside of their comfort zone. The lyrics suggest that the singer has lived in fear and missed out on many opportunities to live their life to the fullest. The individual has never rebelled or taken risks, and as a result, they have a lot of pent-up emotions and unspoken truths.
Throughout the song, the singer talks about the sadness of missing out on things like surfing, kissing, and being free. The singer believes their fear has led to regret and wishes they had been braver. However, as the song progresses, the singer realizes that they do not have to stay stuck in their ways, and they long to be brave and stand up for themselves. Therefore, the lyric, "And all of the doors yet to open, all of the rooms ahead, they're beaconing bright, scary and new, but I'm standing tall, and I'm walking through," indicates that the singer is open to new possibilities and is excited to begin living the life they never led.
The song is all about embracing life and opening oneself up to new opportunities, and it is a powerful message. The song reminds us that it is never too late to take risks and do the things we have always dreamed of, and we should not let fear hold us back.
Line by Line Meaning
I've never talked back
I've never challenged authority or spoken up for myself
I've never slept late
I've never relaxed or taken it easy
I've never sat down
When told to stand straight
I've never disobeyed or protested against rules or expectations
I've never let go
And gone with the flow
And don't even know, really, why
I've never embraced spontaneity or just lived in the moment, and I'm not sure why
I've never asked questions
Or taken a dare
I've never been curious or embraced challenges
I've never worn clothes
That might make people stare
I've never expressed myself or taken risks through fashion choices
I've never rebelled
Or stood up and yelled
Or even just held my head high
I've never defied expectations or stood up for myself or others
And all of the feelings unspoken
All of the truths unsaid
They're all I have left
Of the life I never led
All of the emotions and truths I've suppressed in myself are a reminder of what I've missed out on
I've never gone surfing
Or ran with a crowd
Or danced on a table
Or laughed much too loud
I've never been adventurous, social, or carefree in my experiences
I've never quite dared
To leave myself bared
I've just been too scared I might fall
I've never been truly vulnerable or risked exposure, since I fear the consequences
I've never seen Paris
Swum naked
Been kissed
I've never quite realised
Just how much I've missed
I've never been exposed to new places or experiences, and only now realize what I've been deprived of
And what did I get
For hedging each bet?
Another regret, and that's all
All I've accomplished from being overly cautious and complacent is more disappointment and remorse
And all of the wishes unasked for
All of needs unfed
They're all that remain
Of the life I never led
My unfulfilled desires and unmet needs are all that's left of a life I chose not to live
And now...
Now that you've given me one
Little taste of it
And now...
Now that I know what I know
Well how...
How can I go on ignoring the waste of it?
After all of the years
That I've clung to my fears.
Won't you help me let go?
Help me let go!
Now that I've experienced even a glimpse of life outside my comfort zone, I cannot keep ignoring what I've missed out on. After years of being held back by my fears, I need help breaking free and embracing a new reality.
I want to be brave
I want to be strong
I want to believe
I'm where I belong
I feel the intense desire to take risks and embrace change, to believe in myself and where I'm headed
To stand up and say
"I'm seizing the day"
To not just obey, but to choose
I want to take charge of my own life and make choices on my own accord
And I may not surf
I may not see France
But I have to know
I still have the chance
And maybe I'll make
A painful mistake
It's mine though, to take or refuse
I may not have all the opportunities I desire, but I still have the ability to explore and discover a new way of life. And if I make mistakes along the way, at least they're my own to make.
And all of the doors yet to open
All of the rooms ahead
They're beaconing bright
Scary and new
But I'm standing tall
And I'm walking through
What's gone may be gone
But I won't go on
Playing dead!
The future awaits, full of promise and new beginnings. Although it's intimidating and unknown, I am confident and fearless as I step forward. What's done is done, but I won't waste another moment living without truly living.
It's time to start living
The life I never led
It's time to take ownership of my life and break free from the chains of self-doubt and complacency. It's time to truly live the life I've always wanted.
Writer(s): Glenn Evan Slater, Alan Menken
Contributed by Wyatt J. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
lovefrombilly
She really reminds me of Drew Barrymore!! I love her interpretation of sister Mary Robert🤩
Linda T
Beautiful voice
Dan Woodmason
Yeh I much prefer the upbeat ending version of this song!!!
elisabeth nerolk
lol the english version.... is so DECENT!~!
Mark U.
Do you have the reprise version as well? With Katie, not Marla.
Emerald City
what is this ending? I can’t believe they actually changed it to that.
Mark U.
This is the reprise version where she belts. Go to 3:23
Katie Rowley-Jones (the original) is the only Sister Mary Roberts who could actually hit the high notes.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y8ZgcDwz-pk
KourohsGirl
Oddly enough, I have the sheet music from what I was told is the original score, and what's written is the upbeat belting ending. So I dunno... But when I sing it for my church's Broadway themed concert, I'm going to go with what's written. It makes a more satisfying ending and lcarries through the energy better than this.
Safire
Though I think Marla's version was inspired by Beth Malone's version... still... queen!
Safire
Ugh, I know... but this is actually the 2009-10 original West End production... the broadway cast, belting end came like two years after this. Marla Mindelle, y'all. Queen!