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Keiji Haino & K.K. Null Lyrics
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Guess I'm just tired of waiting
On those who say that they got me
Lately my circle been vacant
And all these thoughts in my head
Just got me back and forth pacing
Its like my heart just keep racing
I'm in the mirror I'm facing myself
Am I really seeing myself
Or just somebody else
My reflection is stealth
I think I might need some help
Nah fuck that shit dog I'm Gucci
I'll just go poke on some couchi
And then I'll smoke me a doobie
While in the back of my hooptey
Might go just flip me a grip
That's when reality flips
And I slip back in the darkness
My thoughts go black in the darkness
It ain't no help dog regardless
Of any remedies or sympathy
From those who claim they kin to Me
Aye yeah I tried that shit
You can't relate to this darkness
So I continue my cycle
Of getting high as the sky go
Hoping I find me a savior
Wonder when death come will i go
Say bro you gon have a daughter
Be happy yo Bill's is caught up
Some ain't protected by shelter
At least yours gon have a father
At least yours know that you working
Ain't on the block getting caught up
At least yours know that you worth It
How many exs get brought up
Considering what you been through You'll be a hell of a father
Ok but listen this sorrow
Make me feel like time is borrowed
Like if I go fall asleep
I might night wake up tomorrow
That's why I live in the moment
Like every day is my last
Why not go live for the future 3 Steps ahead of yo past
Then all that darkness you speak of Won't get ahold of ass
How bout you go start investing instead of blowing yo cash
How bout you shut the fuck up
You ain't no better than bad
You looking just like yo father
Boy you ain't no better than dad
You keep yo doobies rolled fat
And crown and coke just like I do
That's why I'm ending this cycle
The lyrics of this song reflect the inner turmoil and restlessness of the singer who is tired of waiting for people who he believes have let him down. He feels like he is losing patience and that his thoughts are racing, causing him to question his own reflection and identity. Even though he knows that he might need help, he is hesitant to seek it and instead turns to substances to cope with his problems. However, he realizes that this cycle of darkness and despair is not sustainable, and that he needs to start taking steps towards a brighter future. The song ends on a note of self-reflection and a determination to break free from this cycle of darkness and substance abuse.
Line by Line Meaning
Well I feel like I'm loosing patience
I'm getting frustrated with waiting for people who claim to support me
Guess I'm just tired of waiting
I'm fed up with waiting for people who promise to help me
On those who say that they got me
I'm losing faith in those who claim to have my back
Lately my circle been vacant
My friends have been absent lately
And all these thoughts in my head
I'm struggling with my thoughts and feelings
Just got me back and forth pacing
I'm anxious and can't sit still
Its like my heart just keep racing
I'm experiencing heart palpitations due to stress
I'm in the mirror I'm facing myself
I'm looking at myself in the mirror
But I just keep asking myself
I keep questioning my own identity
Am I really seeing myself
I wonder if I know who I truly am
Or just somebody else
Perhaps I'm not being true to myself
My reflection is stealth
I'm not sure if my reflection represents who I am
I think I might need some help
I feel like I need support from others
Nah fuck that shit dog I'm Gucci
I don't need anyone's help, I'm fine on my own
I'll just go poke on some couchi
I'm going to hang out with some girls
And then I'll smoke me a doobie
I'm going to smoke some marijuana
Might go just flip me a grip
I might make some money
That's when reality flips
My perception of reality changes
And I slip back in the darkness
I fall back into my dark thoughts
My thoughts go black in the darkness
My thoughts become negative when I'm in a bad place
It ain't no help dog regardless
No one can help me no matter how hard they try
Of any remedies or sympathy
I don't need any solutions or pity from others
From those who claim they kin to Me
Even those who claim to be close to me can't help
Aye yeah I tried that shit
I've already tried to seek help
You can't relate to this darkness
Others can't understand what I'm going through
So I continue my cycle
I keep repeating the same negative patterns
Of getting high as the sky go
I use drugs to cope with my problems
Hoping I find me a savior
I wish someone could save me from my own misery
Wonder when death come will i go
I wonder if I'll die before I find a way to escape my problems
Say bro you gon have a daughter
Someone is trying to comfort me by reminding me that I'll have a child
Be happy yo Bill's is caught up
They're also trying to make me feel better by reminding me that my bills are paid
Some ain't protected by shelter
Others don't have a roof over their heads
At least yours gon have a father
I should be grateful that I'll have a child and can provide for them
At least yours know that you working
My child will know that I'm providing for them through my work
Ain't on the block getting caught up
I'm not out committing crimes or getting into trouble
At least yours know that you worth It
I should feel good about myself because I know I'm valuable
How many exs get brought up
Someone is reminding me of my past relationships
Considering what you been through You'll be a hell of a father
Because of my struggles, I'll be a great father
Ok but listen this sorrow
I'm still struggling with my emotions and problems
Make me feel like time is borrowed
It feels like my time is running out
Like if I go fall asleep
I worry that I won't wake up
I might night wake up tomorrow
I'm afraid that I won't wake up the next day
That's why I live in the moment
I try to focus on the present instead of worrying about the future
Like every day is my last
I try to appreciate every day as if it were my last
Why not go live for the future 3 Steps ahead of yo past
I'm trying to find motivation to plan for the future and move forward
Then all that darkness you speak of Won't get ahold of ass
If I focus on the future, I won't be consumed by my dark thoughts
How bout you go start investing instead of blowing yo cash
Someone is trying to motivate me to invest my money wisely
How bout you shut the fuck up
I'm getting fed up with someone trying to give me advice
You ain't no better than bad
They're also reminding me that they're not perfect either
You looking just like yo father
They point out that I'm becoming like my dad
Boy you ain't no better than dad
They're trying to make me see that I need to change my ways
You keep yo doobies rolled fat
They're also pointing out that I keep smoking marijuana
And crown and coke just like I do
They have the same habits as me
That's why I'm ending this cycle
I'm trying to end my negative patterns and move forward
Lyrics © DistroKid
Written by: Anthony Reynolds
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
@teheeph
wait!!! what?? I'm a bit flabbergasted, though it is definitely something to behold. I'd like to know the story behind this and after thoughts from Howling as well...
@JesusIsKingAndSavior
Tihis Prefcet,
@nomdeplore7604
I.
Oh.
Hmm.
Cool.