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Closer To Myself
Kendall Payne Lyrics
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I need to know who and what I am
This hunger jolts me from complacency
Rocks me, and makes me meet myself
Jacob walked a limp to remind him
of the greater gift of the greater one
When I fell, I fell to my own resources
I want to feel something sweeter than this sin
Cover me in leaves and roll me over again
Cause I've been everybody else, now I want to be
something closer to myself
Paint me in a different light
Shed me another coat of skin
Mark me with ash until I'm clean again
Cause I'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired
I know I can love you, I know that I can
I want to feel something sweeter than this sin
Cover me in leaves and roll me over again
Cause I've been everybody else, now I want to be
something closer to myself
I want to feel something sweeter than this sin
Cover me in leaves and roll me over again
Cause I've been everybody else, now I want to be
something closer to myself
And I want to feel something sweeter than this sin
Cover me in leaves and roll me over again
Cause I've been everybody else, now I want to be
something closer to myself
In "Closer To Myself," Kendall Payne expresses a deep desire to know and understand her true identity, beyond the facade she has presented to the world. She begins by acknowledging the burning feeling in her conscience, indicating her increased awareness of her need to find out "who and what" she really is. This desire to unearth her true identity has disrupted her complacency and rocked her to the core. She draws inspiration from Jacob, who walked with a limp to remind him of the greater gift of the greater one. In contrast, when she fell, she fell to her own resources and is now struggling to crawl to the truth. She recognizes that she needs to be restored and covered in leaves, marking her with ash until she is clean again.
Payne's lyrics highlight a longing to shed the layers that society has imposed on her and to reach a deeper level of authenticity. She wants to be painted in a different light, shedding an old coat of skin to represent a new beginning. She is sick and tired of being sick and tired and acknowledges her ability to love the "greater one" despite her shortcomings. Her ultimate desire is to feel "something sweeter than this sin," to be covered in leaves and rolled over again, to emerge as something closer to herself.
Overall, "Closer To Myself" is a beautiful and introspective song that encourages listeners to reflect on their own identities and to embrace their true selves.
Line by Line Meaning
Digging deep, I feel my conscience burn
I am searching within myself and grappling with my morals and values.
I need to know who and what I am
I am striving for self-discovery and clarity about my identity.
This hunger jolts me from complacency
My desire to understand myself and my place in the world motivates me to push beyond my comfort zone.
Rocks me, and makes me meet myself
My search for self-awareness can be painful, but it is necessary for my growth.
Jacob walked a limp to remind him
In the Bible, Jacob's limp was a physical reminder of his struggle and reliance on God.
of the greater gift of the greater one
Jacob recognized that he was not in control and that his strength came from a higher power.
When I fell, I fell to my own resources
When I encounter challenges, I often try to solve them on my own instead of relying on others or a higher power.
How can I carry your truths if I can't even crawl to you?
I realize that I cannot fully understand or embody spiritual truths until I am willing to humble myself and rely on something greater than myself.
I want to feel something sweeter than this sin
I am longing for a deeper sense of purpose and fulfillment than I can find in the pleasures of the world.
Cover me in leaves and roll me over again
I am asking to be cleansed and purified from my sins, like a snake shedding its skin.
Cause I've been everybody else, now I want to be
I have been trying to fit into other people's expectations and molds, but now I want to be true to myself.
something closer to myself
I want to discover who I truly am and live in alignment with my values and purpose.
Paint me in a different light
I am asking to be seen in a new way, not based on my past mistakes or shortcomings.
Shed me another coat of skin
I am asking for a deeper level of transformation, like shedding another layer of old habits and patterns.
Mark me with ash until I'm clean again
I am asking for a spiritual cleansing and purification, like the ashes used in some religious ceremonies.
Cause I'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired
I am exhausted from feeling stuck and unfulfilled in my current state.
I know I can love you, I know that I can
Despite my shortcomings and struggles, I believe that I am capable of loving and connecting with a higher power.
Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
Written by: KENDALL PAYNE, RON ANIELLO
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