Ian Simpson (born July 16, 1996) better known by his stage name Kevin Abstr… Read Full Bio ↴Ian Simpson (born July 16, 1996) better known by his stage name Kevin Abstract is a rapper from Corpus Christi, TX. Simpson is the creator of the boyband hip-hop collective BROCKHAMPTON. Simpson released many mixtapes as a young teenager, but he did not recieve mainstream recognition until 2014's Mtv1987.

Following the relative success of this album, Simpson embarked on his first solo headlining tour, and began to record both the Brockhampton mixtape ALL-AMERICAN TRASH, and his second solo album, American Boyfriend: A Suburban Love Story. These projects drew the attention of the television channel VICELAND, spawning the creation of their television series American Boyband. The airing of the first episode of this series coincided with the release of the Brockhampton album SATURATION, leading to a trilogy of albums which would become the group's most successful endeavor to date. Brockhampton has since released three more albums: iridescence, GINGER, and ROADRUNNER: NEW LIGHT, NEW MACHINE; they also announced one final album slated for 2022. Simpson released his third album, ARIZONA BABY, in 2019 & his fourth album, Blanket, in 2023.

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Kevin Abstract Lyrics

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15 weapons
I can change ya life in 15 seconds
I was 15 when I realized the damage
I was 16 when I moved to atlanta, metro
My view foggy still
Vomit on the ground yelling out to my mommy still
Will daddy? is daddy here ever?
Holes inside my skin don't make me feel no better

Fake leather that them niggas sold back at home in Corpus
The crib we had on Brockhampton made all us feel enormous
I feel closed in and boxed in now
No disrespect to my sister but I need to get out
Lemme light this cigarette now, watch me not put it to my mouth
Watch it die though, just like all of us
We all gon' die slow, phone home to Ohio
Is Scott here?
I think that Scott here cause he the only that seem to care about us
'Where the love at?, Where the trust at?'
Used imessage to send my main bitch that, she still ain't hit me back
I'mma pretend this gat is the place I'm supposed to lay my head at
Lemme take this nap

If you want me dead, gon' head and shoot me down
If you want me dead, gon head and kill me now

I've been dead
I've seen so many legs, arms, tear apart
How did this start?

You think it's wrong for me to die?
I've been dead my whole life
I'm still searching for what's right
But we all know I ain't right

Stay focused

You can cut it now -

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to “Save” by Kevin Abstract feat. Lontalius is a poignant and powerful expression of the artist’s journey of self-discovery, self-doubt, and self-destruction. The song encapsulates Abstract’s sense of alienation, sadness, and confusion as he navigates his way through adulthood, Micky Mouse, and the American way of life. The opening lines of “15 weapons. I can change ya life in 15 seconds” introduces a bleak and violent landscape in which Abstract finds himself grappling with life or death decisions. The fear and desperation in his voice are palpable as he wonders if he’ll die alone, unloved, and unremembered.

The reference to “fake leather that them niggas sold back at home in Corpus” speaks to the theme of deception, disillusionment, and betrayal that permeate the song. The sense of claustrophobia, confinement, and suffocation are suggested in the line “I feel closed in and boxed in now”. The lyrics underscore the sense of hopelessness and nihilism that Abstract feels as he reflects on his past, present, and future. The refrain of “If you want me dead, gon' head and shoot me down. If you want me dead, gon head and kill me now” is an expression of Abstract’s desire to escape the pain and misery of his life but also a challenge to his detractors and enemies to end his suffering once and for all.

Line by Line Meaning

15 weapons
I have access to plenty of harmful things that can easily change your life for the worse.

I can change ya life in 15 seconds
I have the power to cause significant damage to your life in a very short amount of time.

I was 15 when I realized the damage
At a young age, I became aware of the hurt and destruction present in my life and surroundings.

I was 16 when I moved to atlanta, metro
At the age of 16, I made a significant change and relocated to Atlanta's metropolitan area.

My view foggy still
Despite my movement, my perspective on life is still clouded and unclear.

Vomit on the ground yelling out to my mommy still
I am still struggling with my inner demons and emotional turmoil, and it is clear from my behavior.

Will daddy? is daddy here ever?
Looking for some parental love and support but not finding any, I wonder if my father abandoned me altogether.

Holes inside my skin don't make me feel no better
Though I may numb my pain with drugs or other destructive behavior, it does not bring me real comfort or relief.

Fake leather that them niggas sold back at home in Corpus
I come from a place where fake and cheap things are often sold, and it highlights the overall lack of genuine care or quality in my community.

The crib we had on Brockhampton made all us feel enormous
Despite the struggles, living collectively with my fellow Brockhampton members made us feel powerful, like we could take on the world.

I feel closed in and boxed in now
Though the experience of living with others once made me feel powerful, lately, I have felt trapped and stifled by my surroundings.

No disrespect to my sister but I need to get out
Though I love my sister, I must leave to find my own path and fulfill my potential.

Lemme light this cigarette now, watch me not put it to my mouth
Though I turn to smoking to calm myself down, sometimes, I avoid smoking even when I want to.

Watch it die though, just like all of us
I draw a comparison between the nature of cigarettes and human life – all of us will inevitably come to an end.

We all gon' die slow, phone home to Ohio
No matter what, all of us will eventually perish, and it is a reminder to take advantage of the time we have.

Is Scott here?
I'm looking for the one person in my life who has shown genuine care for me, Scott.

I think that Scott here cause he the only that seem to care about us
Scott is the only one who seems to genuinely care for me and those around me.

'Where the love at?, Where the trust at?'
I am questioning the presence of love and trust in my life and desperately yearning for them.

Used imessage to send my main bitch that, she still ain't hit me back
I tried contacting a significant other to seek comfort and love, but they have not responded.

I'mma pretend this gat is the place I'm supposed to lay my head at
I use a gun as a comfort object, a symbol of power and strength.

Lemme take this nap
I retreat into sleep as a way to escape and find solace.

If you want me dead, gon' head and shoot me down
I am feeling vulnerable, and it feels like anyone could end my life at any moment.

If you want me dead, gon head and kill me now
If someone is going to harm me, I would rather they do it without prolonging my suffering.

I've been dead
I am feeling incredibly low and depressed, and it feels like a part of me is already dead.

I've seen so many legs, arms, tear apart
I have been through so much emotional trauma and pain that it feels like everything around me and inside of me is tearing apart.

How did this start?
I am trying to trace back to where everything started going downhill and how I got here in the first place.

You think it's wrong for me to die?
I am questioning whether anyone would miss me if I were to die and if it would be wrong for me to go unnoticed.

I've been dead my whole life
My life has been marred with so much pain and sadness that it feels like I have been dead all along.

I'm still searching for what's right
Despite everything, I am desperately searching for what is good and right in life.

But we all know I ain't right
I am acknowledging my own shortcomings and that I have not been the best version of myself.

Stay focused
In the midst of all the chaos and pain, I remind myself to stay focused on my goals and aspirations.

You can cut it now -
The song ends with a stark message – the listener can stop listening now.

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