Disappear
LIVING ROOM - Mazzy Star Lyrics


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Just because
You call my name
I cannot hear
It's not the same
You close your eyes
And knock me back
All the things that I had to have
And now you choose the thorny cave
I can't believe what I had to say
All the things you never say
I'll never be what you want me to be

Now I can't disappear

Close your eyes and look at me
I can't believe what I cannot see
Everything is like you say
Change your mind and you'll have to forgive

And I can't disappear




Now I can't
Now I can't

Overall Meaning

In the song "Disappear" by Mazzy Star, the lyrics delve into the complexities of communication and relationships. The opening lines, "Just because you call my name, I cannot hear, it's not the same," suggest a disconnect between the singer and the person addressing them. Despite the physical act of being called, the singer feels a sense of distance or inability to truly comprehend or engage with the other person. This sets the tone for a theme of miscommunication and misunderstanding that permeates the rest of the lyrics.


The lyrics also touch upon feelings of rejection and inadequacy with phrases like "You close your eyes and knock me back, all the things that I had to have." The act of shutting one's eyes can symbolize turning away or refusing to acknowledge someone or something, leading to a sense of loss or longing. The singer grapples with the realization that they may not be able to meet the expectations or desires of the other person, as expressed in lines such as, "I'll never be what you want me to be." There is a sense of resignation and acceptance of this perceived failure.


As the song progresses, there is a shift in perspective as the singer turns the focus on the other person with lines like, "Close your eyes and look at me, I can't believe what I cannot see." This highlights the idea of subjective truth and the limitations of perception in relationships. The singer struggles with understanding the other person's intentions and emotions, leading to a sense of confusion and doubt. The theme of forgiveness is also introduced, suggesting a need for understanding and acceptance in order to move forward in the relationship.


The repetition of the phrase "And I can't disappear" throughout the song underscores a sense of entrapment or inability to escape from the emotional turmoil and conflicts presented in the lyrics. This repeated declaration reflects a feeling of being stuck in a situation where resolution or catharsis seems out of reach. The closing lines, "Now I can't, now I can't," further emphasize this sense of being trapped in a cycle of misunderstandings and unfulfilled expectations. Overall, "Disappear" by Mazzy Star conveys a poignant exploration of the complexities of communication, perception, and emotional vulnerability in relationships.


Line by Line Meaning

Just because
Simply because


You call my name
You try to get my attention


I cannot hear
I am not listening


It's not the same
The situation is different now


You close your eyes
You want to avoid reality


And knock me back
Push me away


All the things that I had to have
All the things I thought were necessities


And now you choose the thorny cave
You opt for a difficult path


I can't believe what I had to say
I regret my words


All the things you never say
The things you keep to yourself


I'll never be what you want me to be
I will never meet your expectations


Now I can't disappear
Now I can't escape


Close your eyes and look at me
Avoid facing the truth and see the real me


I can't believe what I cannot see
I struggle to accept what is not visible


Everything is like you say
Everything is as per your words


Change your mind and you'll have to forgive
If you change your perspective, you will need to pardon


And I can't disappear
And I cannot vanish


Now I can't
Now I cannot




Lyrics © Wixen Music Publishing
Written by: DAVID ROBACK, HOPE SANDOVAL

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Most interesting comments from YouTube:

@greeeen_mind

LYRICS ❤
I want to hold the hand inside you
I want to take the breath that's true
I look to you, and I see nothing
I look to you to see the truth
You live your life, you go in shadows
You'll come apart, and you'll go black
Some kind of night into your darkness
Colors your eyes with what's not there
Fade into you
Strange you never knew
Fade into you
I think it's strange you never knew
A stranger's light comes on slowly
A stranger's heart without a home
You put your hands into your head
And then smiles cover your heart
Fade into you
Strange you never knew
Fade into you
I think it's strange you never knew
Fade into you
Strange you never knew
Fade into you
I think it's strange you never knew



@nichole9699

Someone wrote this about the meaning of this song and I thought it was great insight:
She thought she finally found someone true, and fell in love. The person had many walls built up, she tried to reach through them and show how much she cared. She thinks he is damaged and has a dark perception of the world. He doesn't really show himself.

She realizes she will never really get through to him, he won't let her. He can't really love her back. What she thought was inside of him really isn't there (but she loves him anyway).

She looks to him and sees "nothing" because what she originally saw in him doesn't really exist and that "nothing" has become truth to her.

The "truth" she looks to him to see, is also the depressing realization that she can't look to someone else to make her happy, he taught her this sad truth.

She doesn't normally open up to people easily either, but she offered her heart to him, to be her home. Deep in his mind, he knows, he realizes how much she loved him, but it's too late. His heart is too protected, but he smiles knowing what she has given him.

...and she fades into him, she loved him so much he became everything to her. She looked to him to make her happy, but ended up trying to be everything to make him happy and lost herself.
She begins to see the darkness in him, in herself. She is hurt and depressed and has lost hope, it's like looking in a mirror.

After everything she thinks it is strange he never knew how much she really cared and how sincere she was. She wanted to be the one to make him happy and for him to be the one to make her happy and what could have been. She loved him for what he was but he was too broken to appreciate it or just didn't feel the same way.

I think it's about disappointment, a broken heart and a damaged soul.

Maybe the darkness also becomes part of what makes him so real to her. Accepting truth in disappointment and hurt. He has damaged her, she can't trust her own perception of reality and now she has to build her own walls. She continues to love him from a distance.

Part of her believes she understood him and that he would have loved her if only he really knew and the other part of her knows the sad truth.



All comments from YouTube:

@willtinarey3674

This was the first CD my boyfriend bought me in 94. He became my husband for 23 yrs. He passed away in 2018. I will always love you Wilson Reyes Jr. You will never fade from my heart or memory my love.

@johnboy1828

I hope you find peace.......You are not alone. I lost my wife of 31 years last June. It's been a struggle.

@SirLeDoux

So sorry-prayers for you and your heart

@cantgetright4241

😢

@weluvtomk.__

Bless you. So sad for you as I read this

@Moogiesara

I am so sorry for your loss,,That is an amazing cd he bought you!! RIP Mr Reyes!!

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@Chad_Thundercock

Here's to all of us who are homesick for a place that no longer exists.

@straightouttathe7thcircle431

God, that's deeper than anything I've read in a long time.

@mikepfriender6339

WOW AND OMG That completely explains my my life as I know it today except a except everybody is gone as well on as well so there's no comfortable or or place that at feels loved loved, welcomed wanted wanted or at place I feel like the people the people that I once when I was in a happy happy place in life Thought while listening to their stories of being so alone yet to their stories of being so alone like I am now, comma my God I am so blessed and I so happy I don't a so happy I don't have to feel that pain Now everybody's gone and I am that person lost unloved confused yeast confused and just don't understand pretty much anything anymore

@DinsdaleDinsyPiranha

I have become bitter that I was too easily seduced, too naive to understand the price of attachment.

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