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LSP Lyrics
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Dear Lord, I got questions and I need answers
Trying to understand your vision on my life but all I’m seeing is damage
Maybe I can pick up a pen and rap about all the pain in my life
I’m half OK, but I'm also half not
I can’t talk about anything or it will be causing some pain
I can't write about the time that my mother had a baby
Coming, and then it died
Well, now I've got a little mother who thinks it's her fault
It's never your fault, even if you're in a cult
You may be doing your life away, but you're doing it for a reason
No, it's never just for a reason
It's just for a treason
This season, we have lost so much people to death
I can't think of all the bad things in my mind
I'm an arsehole for not going to your funeral
Maybe now, I'll just have to tie a rope around my neck and jump it 'til it pulls me to death
I'm half OK, but I'm also half not
I got these scars and pain
My life has gone down the drain
I'm half OK, but I'm also half not
It’s a cunt of a life
I'm half OK, but I'm also half not
I got these scars and pain
My life has gone down the drain
I'm half OK, but I'm also half not
It’s a cunt of a life
(Maybe I'll find a way to avoid all the pain)
I've lost a little brother
But I also gained another
Just for him to die before I got to meet 'im
I'm always rappin' 'bout the shit that doesn't affect me
And I'll take a seat, let me tell you the story of how my rapping came to be
I was bullied, belted, tormented
And picked on at school
Until I turned to rap just to feel safe
And now, I don't care if I can never find a date
Because rap is enough for me
I'll show you why I am LSP1
It's because I'm not OK, and in the end, it doesn't even matter
Those were the words of Chester Bennington years before his death
I looked him in the eyes, and now, I can't take anything back
I'm half OK, but I'm also half not
I got these scars and pain
My life has gone down the drain
I'm half OK, but I'm also half not
It’s a cunt of a life
I watched all my idols die right in front of my eyes
It's surprising I'm not gonna be next to die
I can't get anything right
No wonder why people call me a mumble rapper
No wonder why people call me a fuckin' clapper
I don't think you know what the shit I go through
Behind the scenes, my dad and Step Brother would fuckin' torment me
Poke fun at me, just because I wanted to rap
I just wanna put my town on the map
Sit my future kids and my wife on my laps
But now, I can't do that ever again, now, thanks to you guys
And it's always gonna be your fault
Maybe I can find a way to avoid all the pain
I'm half OK, but I'm also half not
I got these scars and pain
My life has gone down the drain
I'm half OK, but I'm also half not
It’s a cunt of a life
I’m Living in an episode of my life that I'm forgetting to close
I just wanna be able to rest without people judging me for being a
13-year-old rapper who wants to rap
I don't wanna have to diss a clapper
But I had to end you like a Turkish person ends Turkish delight
My brother is like an executioner
That's not a diss, I just wanted to miss and now
How about I kiss this rap scene goodnight?
And now it goes without saying, this is my last recording
'Cause if you're hearing this now, it means I must've done it
First off, I really need to tell you just how much I'm sorry
I know the news of my death is gruesome and hard to stomach
I'm sorry too, for those who end up in the bathroom
Scrubbin' up the mess, I guess I was clumsy
The shit was far too bloody
Plus, the blade, it was blunt and it couldn't cut in properly
I was such in a hurry, as close, I can't out run it
I'm not gonna be able to help you when you need me
I just wanna be able to live life
Without being hated all the time, I just wanna love life
And now I'm gonna charge at the world to save myself
And if I can't, then I'm not OK
I'm half OK, but I'm also half not
I got these scars and pain
My life has gone down the drain
I'm half OK, but I'm also half not
(It’s a cunt of a life)
I'm never gonna be able to let go of anything
Ever since I was a kid I’ve felt felt this way
The black sheep, I can never rid myself of any hate
Some say It’s a mental disease
Well, I just pray that I can make it to the end of the week
It's like I only find happiness when dead or asleep
Maybe in time, it'll get better for me
But it forever repeats
It's like I'm on a search to find my inner peace
And the fact, I know it's never there, it's killin' me
And now, I know I'm gonna have to fight to survive
But I'm not ever gonna believe you
I may be half OK, half not, but I'm 100% there for you
(Yeah)
(I'm back)
(This time, I'm not gonna fuck off, I'm not gonna fuck up)
(I'm a different person, and I'm not just saying that)
(I'm loving life though, and you should save yourself before it's too late)
(Go do yourself and someone else a favor)
(Go help 'em out, if they struggling)
(Half OK, half not)
(Sounds like a false fact ay)
(We out)
The lyrics to LSP's song "OK" delve into themes of pain, trauma, and inner turmoil. The artist expresses the struggle of trying to rap and share his experiences through music, but feeling damaged and unable to fully express himself. He seeks answers from a higher power, questioning the purpose and vision for his life when all he sees is pain and damage.
The lyrics also touch on personal tragedies, such as the loss of a younger brother and the blame and guilt associated with it. LSP reflects on the weight of his own life, feeling "half OK, but also half not" and dealing with scars, pain, and a sense of life going down the drain. He addresses the pressure of living up to expectations in the rap scene and the challenges he faces, including bullying, torment, and familial ridicule.
Line by Line Meaning
Everytime I try to rap, it comes out damaged
Whenever I attempt to express myself through rap, it reflects the pain and brokenness I feel inside.
Dear Lord, I got questions and I need answers
I have deep inquiries and seek understanding regarding my purpose and the challenges I face.
Trying to understand your vision on my life but all I’m seeing is damage
I'm attempting to comprehend what path you have designed for my life, but all I perceive is destruction and pain.
Maybe I can pick up a pen and rap about all the pain in my life
Perhaps I can find solace in writing lyrics that depict the agony and hardships I've endured.
I’m half OK, but I'm also half not
I experience a conflicting mix of emotions where I am partially fine but also partially struggling.
I can’t talk about anything or it will be causing some pain
I'm hesitant to discuss my thoughts or experiences because it often leads to emotional distress.
I can't write about the time that my mother had a baby
I am unable to express the pain associated with my mother's loss of a child.
Coming, and then it died
The baby was expected to arrive, but tragically passed away.
I lost a little brother
I experienced the loss of a younger sibling.
Well, now I've got a little mother who thinks it's her fault
Now I have a mother who blames herself for the loss of the child.
It's never your fault, even if you're in a cult
I want my mother to understand that she should not blame herself, regardless of the circumstances or guilt she may feel.
You may be doing your life away, but you're doing it for a reason
Though you may be living a life filled with struggles, there is a purpose behind it all.
No, it's never just for a reason
The reasons behind our hardships are often more complex and intricate than we may initially perceive.
It's just for a treason
Sometimes, the pain and difficulties we face can feel like a betrayal or an act of treachery.
This season, we have lost so much people to death
In recent times, we have encountered numerous deaths, causing immense grief and sorrow.
I can't think of all the bad things in my mind
The negative thoughts and memories swirling in my mind overwhelm me and paralyze my ability to process them all.
I'm an arsehole for not going to your funeral
I deeply regret not attending your funeral and showing my respects, as it reflects poorly on my character.
Maybe now, I'll just have to tie a rope around my neck and jump it 'til it pulls me to death
I'm expressing thoughts of suicide, considering hanging myself as a means to escape the pain.
I'm never gonna be able to let go of anything
I constantly struggle with releasing and moving on from past events or emotions.
Ever since I was a kid I’ve felt felt this way
These feelings of being unable to let go have plagued me since childhood.
The black sheep, I can never rid myself of any hate
As the outcast or odd one out, I continue to be subjected to hatred and judgment.
Some say It’s a mental disease
There are those who believe these struggles stem from a mental illness.
Well, I just pray that I can make it to the end of the week
I simply hope to survive and make it through each passing week.
It's like I only find happiness when dead or asleep
I no longer experience joy or contentment unless I am either dead or in a state of sleep.
Maybe in time, it'll get better for me
There is a glimmer of hope that with the passage of time, my circumstances will improve.
But it forever repeats
Unfortunately, this cycle of pain and struggle seems to repeat endlessly.
It's like I'm on a search to find my inner peace
I am constantly seeking to discover a sense of tranquility and harmony within myself.
And the fact, I know it's never there, it's killin' me
The realization that inner peace may always elude me is extremely distressing and takes a toll on my well-being.
And now, I know I'm gonna have to fight to survive
I am aware that I will need to gather strength and resilience in order to endure and overcome my struggles.
But I'm not ever gonna believe you
Despite the challenges I face, I refuse to let go of my own beliefs and convictions.
I may be half OK, half not, but I'm 100% there for you
While I may be personally struggling, I am fully committed to being present and supportive for those who need me.
Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid, Lucas Scott Porteous
Written by: Lucas Porteous
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
zeepy ink
Даже в 2023 году это звучит достойно...
Ura Danilk
Бро , это не то что достойно .... это легендарный трек для меня так точно
Z1nger So2
Я слушал ее в 10
Nya-Nya-Nya
@Z1nger So2 +
Морион
Это факт
адполукж
@Z1nger So2 +
Egor Dolgov
5 лет клипу...
Он до сих пор идеален...
До сих пор режиссер сценарист и музыкант этого клипа - Рома Англичанин...
Рома, спасибо за клип.
Родин Егор
XEELL я вот думаю, а если челик увидит реально хороший клип, у него будет инсульт или понос?
C E L L A R I U M
@Родин Егор а что по вашему хороший клип? Приведите примеры и докажите почему они лучше этого
Людмила Макарова
Х.ета !