Maybe I Am Dead...
Lazarus Lyrics


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That’s the world you’ve fighting all by yourself, isn’t it?
All alone
So that’s why I, oh, well I wanted to be someone who would at least be truthful to you
Lulu, I love you
That is all the announcements for today
Today will be a good day
No it won’t, you’s a liar
Why you dare put my irons in the fire?
If they strong, do you retire?
Through all this pain, I’ve been feeling so inspired
Made a pretty song but I’ve living like it’s nothing
I’ve been trynna write it down but thanks to dad and all his fussing, I’ve been full of doubt
Hard to stay so devout, I just wanna shout, uh
But my boys go me strutting
I was born out of nothing, so how could I ever be something?
I just wish that anybody would tell me that they want my loving
I’m killing all of my feelings, I’m bleeding out all of this pain, now
And everybody wanna see me fucking dead, now
Don’t care, don’t share, don’t stare, no, don’t you dare look back
Nah nah, nah nah, nah nah
Na na na na na, aye, aye
Could’ve sworn I died in that place
But I didn’t, so I guess I’m just blessed
Oh, whatever
Stay at home, much better
Writing down these letters, mind at the extrema
This is my dilemma: I’ve been feeling dead in my center
Didn’t think it’d be so quick to forget her
Everything I love I learn to sever
There’s blood on the floor and it makes me feel better
I’m a stone-cold brother, I’m a steel-made lover
I don’t want a thing to do with love
God, it’s fake, fuck that stuff, I’ve had enough, aye
Nobody wanna love me, that’s fine
But you don’t gotta rub it in my face
You don’t wanna have my love, I guess that’s fine
We can be friends... or I guess not
Never really learned to care, guess you forgot




If you ever need my help in a tough spot
I’d never come, I’d rather watch you rot

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Lazarus's song "Maybe I Am Dead" reflect the artist's emotions towards the world, love and relationships, and self-worth. The opening lines reveal that the person addressed has been fighting their battles alone, and Lazarus wanted to be someone truthful to them. With the refrain "Lulu, I love you," the artist reminds the listener of their love for someone they care about. However, the sentiment soon shifts, and the next lines show the artist's contrasting feelings. Today will not be a good day, and there is pain and doubt that make it hard to stay devout. The artist feels like they are killing their feelings and bleeding out pain, and there is a sense of betrayal from people who want them dead, which makes it hard to look back. By the end of the song, the artist has given up on love and people's feelings towards them felt like they would never care, concluding with a sarcastic offer to help someone in a tough spot that they would never come through with.


Overall, the song tells a story of a person struggling with the burden of existence, seeking love and validation in relationships, but also feeling like they were rejected and betrayed. The lyrics reflect a powerful emotional journey, with the artist expressing both love and anger, pain and numbness, and ultimately resignation to their fate.


Line by Line Meaning

That’s the world you’ve fighting all by yourself, isn’t it?
You've been fighting your battles alone, haven't you?


All alone
Without anyone by your side


So that’s why I, oh, well I wanted to be someone who would at least be truthful to you
That's why I wanted to be someone who could at least be honest with you


Lulu, I love you
I love you, Lulu


That is all the announcements for today
That's all I have to say for now


Today will be a good day
Today will be a positive day


No it won’t, you’s a liar
No, it won't be, and you're lying


Why you dare put my irons in the fire?
Why are you daring to mess with what's important to me?


If they strong, do you retire?
If they're strong, will you give up?


Through all this pain, I’ve been feeling so inspired
Despite all the pain, I feel inspired


Made a pretty song but I’ve living like it’s nothing
I created a beautiful song, but it feels like it means nothing


I’ve been trynna write it down but thanks to dad and all his fussing, I’ve been full of doubt
I've been trying to write it down, but my dad's constant nagging has filled me with doubt


Hard to stay so devout, I just wanna shout, uh
It's hard to stay focused, I just want to scream


But my boys go me strutting
But my friends have me feeling confident


I was born out of nothing, so how could I ever be something?
I came from nothing, so how can I ever become something?


I just wish that anybody would tell me that they want my loving
I just wish someone would tell me they want my love


I’m killing all of my feelings, I’m bleeding out all of this pain, now
I'm trying to numb all my emotions, I'm releasing all my pain


And everybody wanna see me fucking dead, now
Everyone seems to want me dead now


Don’t care, don’t share, don’t stare, no, don’t you dare look back
I don't care, I don't share, I don't look, and I won't look back


Nah nah, nah nah, nah nah
Nah nah, nah nah, nah nah


Na na na na na, aye, aye
Na na na na na, aye, aye


Could’ve sworn I died in that place
I thought I had died in that place


But I didn’t, so I guess I’m just blessed
But I'm still alive, so I guess I'm lucky


Oh, whatever
Oh, whatever


Stay at home, much better
Staying at home is better


Writing down these letters, mind at the extrema
Writing these letters, my mind is at its limit


This is my dilemma: I’ve been feeling dead in my center
My problem is that I feel dead inside


Didn’t think it’d be so quick to forget her
I didn't think I'd forget her so quickly


Everything I love I learn to sever
I've learned to cut off everyone and everything I love


There’s blood on the floor and it makes me feel better
There's blood on the floor and it makes me feel good


I’m a stone-cold brother, I’m a steel-made lover
I'm cold-hearted, and my love is tough as steel


I don’t want a thing to do with love
I don't want anything to do with love


God, it’s fake, fuck that stuff, I’ve had enough, aye
Love is fake, I'm sick of it


Nobody wanna love me, that’s fine
No one wants to love me, and that's okay


But you don’t gotta rub it in my face
But you don't have to make me feel worse about it


You don’t wanna have my love, I guess that’s fine
If you don't want my love, that's okay too


We can be friends... or I guess not
We can be friends... or maybe not


Never really learned to care, guess you forgot
I never really learned how to care, maybe you forgot


If you ever need my help in a tough spot
If you ever need help in a bad situation


I’d never come, I’d rather watch you rot
I wouldn't come, I'd rather watch you suffer




Lyrics © DistroKid
Written by: Bryan Romero

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@honestfacts4527

Believe it or not. Let me also share the reality of what I've gone through. In 2004, November, my father passed away. After several years of his demised, one day my mother fall seriously ill and we're helpless even with the nurses. I walk out of the house and kneel down at the ground which is a little muddy but there's only God in my mind so I pray. I seriously pray with all my heart, I cry out and beg God to heal my mother as I cannot imagine the pain of losing both my parents. After praying several minutes, I went back inside and fall asleep, before dawn when I woke up, my mother completely recovers from her sickness and till today she is healthy and alive. Thank you God and thank you Jesus our saviour.

@jennhebbert3774

Amen!! 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🤍

@shubhasree_7794

Great miracle of god all glory to god Amen🙌🙏

@josphinelouisa420

Amen Jesus praise be to God

@twisted5561

God and Jesus he forgives our sins and melts people’s hearts with joy, thank you for making our lives with your glory and our chance to be in this beloved world. Amen

@michaelsingh80

Amen

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@ezekielkashilim9108

My mom will rise up one day like Lazarus, I'll never stop praying and hoping for seeing her again. Rest in peace my lovely mom 🙏

@maximusvonce1381

My mom too...amen

@grapeape888

It's only a temporary separation! she's fine and she's proud of you!

@marrietouray3308

My Mom too🤗🙏🍒💓🌷🤗🙏I missed her much --raise again ma/
Thank you Lord!

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