Harden
Lil Wayne Lyrics

No cap
No lies

She love me or leave me
She must choose to either love me or walk away

I gave her a reason
I provided her with a justification

She don't want a reason, she don't wanna see me
She doesn't desire an explanation, she doesn't want to be around me

She don't wan' believe me
She refuses to believe what I say

I tell her that's cold, I'm already freezin'
I tell her that her behavior is harsh, and I am already feeling cold emotionally

My heart ain't even beatin'
I am emotionally numb

Just talked to the Reaper, he put me on speaker
I recently had a conversation with death, and he allowed others to hear

He told me to keep you
Death advised me to hold onto you

I know I ain't perfect, I shouldn't need to work on it
I acknowledge my flaws, but I feel like I shouldn't have to improve

A nigga been workin', I know you uncertain
I have been putting in effort, but I understand you have doubts

You ride for me and I drive you crazy
You support me, but my actions overwhelm you

I know I've been swervin', I know you've been nervous
I am aware I have been behaving erratically, causing you anxiety

I know I've been reckless, now you all heartless
I acknowledge my irresponsible behavior, and now you seem devoid of compassion

And I was all worthless, I don't deserve it
I felt completely inadequate, and I don't deserve your love

You don't deserve this, I turned a blessin' into a burden
You don't merit this pain, I transformed something good into something burdensome

I'm really sorry, I know it don't fix it
I am genuinely apologetic, although I understand it doesn't rectify the situation

A nigga been wishin', that I could reverse it
I have been yearning for the ability to turn back time

I know it don't help it, I know I look selfish
I realize it doesn't alleviate the pain, and I am aware I come across as self-centered

And looks are deceiving, but you lookin' further
Appearances can be misleading, but you are seeing beyond the surface

And you lookin' past me, I'm just a has been
You are disregarding me, as I am now irrelevant

How did this happen? What is the current?
How did our relationship deteriorate? What is our present state?

Where's your endurance?
Where is your resilience?

You actin' like you've never been in love, like you just a tourist
You are behaving as if you have never experienced love before, like someone exploring a new place

Shit was the purest, 'til you got curious
Our love was genuine and untainted until your curiosity led to complications

You know that love don't come with insurance
You are aware that love doesn't guarantee security

I blame the juries who put me on trial
I hold the judges responsible for putting me through a trial

They was sick of your smile, now we just cured 'em
They were tired of seeing you happy, but now we have gotten rid of their annoyance

That got me furious, people that knew of us
That made me extremely angry, the people who were aware of our relationship

Tell me 'They sorry', I said 'That made two of us'
People apologize to me, and I respond by saying that I am also sorry

Wonder what ruined 'em
I wonder what caused their downfall

Wonder how beautiful you look at your wedding when I'm at my funeral
I wonder how stunning you will appear on your wedding day, while I may already be dead

Goddamn
Exclamation expressing frustration or annoyance

She love me or leave me
She must choose to either love me or walk away

I gave her a reason
I provided her with a justification

She don't want a reason, she don't wanna see me
She doesn't desire an explanation, she doesn't want to be around me

She don't wan' believe me
She refuses to believe what I say

I tell her that's cold, I'm already freezin'
I tell her that her behavior is harsh, and I am already feeling cold emotionally

My heart ain't even beatin'
I am emotionally numb

Just talked to the Reaper, he put me on speaker
I recently had a conversation with death, and he allowed others to hear

He told me to keep you
Death advised me to hold onto you

I tried to call, but I couldn't reach you
I attempted to contact you, but I was unsuccessful

You blocked my number
You prevented me from contacting you by blocking my number

I feel like James Harden, you block my jumper, goddamn
I perceive myself as James Harden, a basketball player whose shots are being blocked, expressing frustration

Who you lovin', who you wanna be fuckin'?
Who are you in love with, who do you desire to have sexual relations with?

Since it ain't me, just tell that homie he lucky
Since it isn't me, inform that individual that he is fortunate

I'm lonely for nothing', I'm starin' at the phone and the button
I feel isolated, without any reason, as I look at the phone and the button to call someone

To call em' to come in
To call them and request their presence

I'm starin' at the walls I been punchin' these walls, did me nothin'
I am fixating on the walls I have been punching, only causing harm to myself

I'm thinkin' 'bout the ball I've been fumblin'
I am contemplating the mistakes I have made

When stars were abundant
When success and fame were plentiful

This shit happened and all of the sudden
This unfortunate event occurred, and it happened unexpectedly

The toilet start flushin'
The sound of the toilet flushing symbolizes the deterioration of everything

Try to avoid the confrontin', the joy, the consumption
I attempt to evade facing the truth, the happiness, and the enjoyment

Where outside noises seduction, it's harder to function
With external distractions luring me in, it becomes more difficult to function

Look up at the angels, they hoverin', they show me the light
I gaze up at the angels, watching over me, as they guide me towards enlightenment

They told me that I know that I'm wrong, but I don't know what's right
They remind me that I am aware of my mistakes, but I am uncertain about the correct path

Goddamn
Exclamation expressing frustration or annoyance

Love me or leave me
She must choose to either love me or walk away

Let me go my own way
Allow me to pursue my own path

She love me or leave me
She must choose to either love me or walk away

I gave her a reason
I provided her with a justification

She don't want a reason, she don't wanna see me
She doesn't desire an explanation, she doesn't want to be around me

She don't wan' believe me
She refuses to believe what I say

I tell her that's cold, I'm already freezin'
I tell her that her behavior is harsh, and I am already feeling cold emotionally

My heart ain't even beatin'
I am emotionally numb

Just talked to the Reaper, he put me on speaker
I recently had a conversation with death, and he allowed others to hear

He told me to keep you
Death advised me to hold onto you

I tried to call, but I couldn't reach ya
I attempted to contact you, but I was unsuccessful

You blocked my number
You prevented me from contacting you by blocking my number

I feel like James Harden, you block my jumper, goddamn
I perceive myself as James Harden, a basketball player whose shots are being blocked, expressing frustration

Funeral
Referring to the end of a relationship or love