Changeling
Lila Blue Lyrics

Sometimes I feel like a changeling
Occasionally, I have a sense of being a mystical being

There's a spirit in my skin
An essence dwells within my physical being

That comes from the insides of another
Which originates from a different entity within

That I've never lived in, never lived in
That I have never experienced, never yet occupied

My tongue is dipped in shadow
My words carry a sense of darkness

Wherever I spit darkness comes
Wherever I express myself, darkness emerges

I am the opposite of a maker
I am the antithesis of a creator

I am, I am the undone
I exist as the incomplete, the unfinished

But sometimes I feel like my mother
At times, I have a resemblance to my mother

Or the mother who came before
Or even the mother preceding her existence

Sobs are racking my spine that aren't mine
I experience agonizing cries within my being that don't originate from me

That aren't yours
That don't belong to you either

I despise crying or sweating
I detest both shedding tears and perspiring

It feels too much like blood
These actions bear too much resemblance to bloodshed

I am crawling down a ladder
I am gradually descending a ladder

I don't recall crawling to the top of
I have no recollection of climbing to its peak

But I used to know a few things
Yet, I once possessed knowledge of certain matters

How to do things, how to cry
Skills, tasks, and weeping were familiar to me

But now my mind mixes up living and dying
But presently, my mind confuses the concepts of existence and death

Living and dying, living and
The intermingling of life and mortality, happening continuously

I am bleeding out a family
I am slowly losing a familial bond

Who only knows how to lie down
Who solely comprehends relaxing horizontally

When I see with disgust that our pulses match up
Upon realizing with repulsion that our heartbeats synchronize

I am met with the shrieking sound of
I confront the piercing sound of

One foot in one foot out
Being undecided, uncertain, between two situations

Skin to skin, climbing down
In close contact, descending together

We're still in, hear me out
We're still involved, listen attentively to my words

One foot in one foot
Simultaneously stepping towards and away

We will work until this body drops
We will exert ourselves until this physical form exhausts

Til the soul inside shuts up
Until the innermost essence becomes silent

We have come here to take care of
Our purpose in arriving here is to attend to

What we need to take care of
The responsibilities and duties that require our attention

And you, you, you, you are human
And you, you, you, you possess humanity

You are sleeping, you are blood
You are in slumber, you possess life force

We are the air inside your marrow
We represent the essence within your core

Shouting to wake up wake up wake up wake up wake up
Urgently calling out to awaken from slumber