Then & Now
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When I first saw you, baby,
Yeah, you were gone,
So far gone.
The scene was set for Armageddon
And your grip on me was strong.

If you saw me yesterday
You wouldn't recognize my face
If you saw me yesterday
Yeah, you might have ran away

Sister Uptown, you're a metaphor
For all life's grief and pain
Brother Downtown, such a devil
Make a snake out of any man

If you saw me yesterday
You wouldn't recognize my face
If you saw me yesterday

Don't feel like crawling out of my cage (I used to say)
Some other lame song and dance
About a thing from my past (I hope is not boring you)
In the end I lost a few friends
So I got up, I got up and I ran away

Drugs, party in 526
Is where I got my kicks
But where are they today?
Dead and gone the damage is done
I got nothing else to say.

If you saw me yesterday
You wouldn't recognize my face
If you saw me yesterday
Yeah, you might have ran away




If you saw me yesterday
Yeah, you might have ran away

Overall Meaning

Loaded's song "Then & Now" is a reflection on the consequential life that they have lived, contrasting their past self to their present self. The lyrics suggest that the singer is experiencing a transformative moment in their life, one that has the power to make or break them: "When I first saw you, baby / Yeah, you were gone, / So far gone. / The scene was set for Armageddon / And your grip on me was strong." The first verse captures the electricity of meeting someone who would change their life forever, even though it may not have been in the best way. By being exposed to such forced realities, they come to a clear understanding of the self-destructive nature of hedonistic living.


The second verse reveals how much the past haunted the current version of themselves: "If you saw me yesterday / You wouldn't recognize my face / If you saw me yesterday / Yeah, you might have run away." The singer has had to confront the stark reality of their circumstances and lives joyously in the moments, trying to be a better version of themselves. The chorus mentions two people, Sister Uptown and Brother Downtown, who serve as a metaphor for life's grief and pain. Sister Uptown symbolizes the emotional and mental suffering brought upon the singer due to their past. Brother Downtown, on the other hand, is someone who turns people into snakes, symbolizing how deep and extensive the moral degradation of a hedonistic lifestyle can be.


Loaded's "Then & Now" is a chilling reminder of the impact that our choices have on our lives, and how, with time and awareness, one can take charge and chooses a different path. The song does not shy away from the harm that was done in the past; it recognizes that their past self is part of their present version, and the life they lived is a culmination of all those moments.


Line by Line Meaning

When I first saw you, baby, Yeah, you were gone, So far gone. The scene was set for Armageddon And your grip on me was strong.
When I first met you, you were already in a bad place in your life. It was like the world was about to end and you were holding me tightly.


Sister Uptown, you're a metaphor For all life's grief and pain Brother Downtown, such a devil Make a snake out of any man
Sister Uptown, you represent all the sadness and sorrow in life. Brother Downtown, you're like a demon who can turn anyone into a bad person.


Don't feel like crawling out of my cage (I used to say) Some other lame song and dance About a thing from my past (I hope is not boring you) In the end I lost a few friends So I got up, I got up and I ran away
I used to feel trapped and not want to do anything. I would talk about the same old things from my past, hoping not to bore anyone. But in the end I lost some friends and so I decided to leave and start fresh.


Drugs, party in 526 Is where I got my kicks But where are they today? Dead and gone the damage is done I got nothing else to say.
I used to enjoy doing drugs and partying, but now I realize that it only caused harm. Those people I partied with are now gone and nothing good came out of it.


If you saw me yesterday You wouldn't recognize my face If you saw me yesterday Yeah, you might have ran away
I've changed a lot since yesterday and you wouldn't even recognize me. You might even be scared of who I am now.




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