Jaded
Locksmith Lyrics

The basic premise of innocent dreams falling
The idea that our innocent dreams may not always come true.

Insecurities loom in this rented room that I stall in
The feeling of insecurity is heightened when you're stuck in a temporary situation.

The backlash of a back flash is the back draft
The negative aftermath of a past event has lingering consequences.

From the cold chill that I feel, whenever they call him
The chilling feeling that runs down my spine when I hear my father's name and realize his health is declining.

Exhausting, but it cost him to be season
The drain of time and effort that come with gaining experience.

The small sacrifices in vices that once teased him
The things that used to be tempting are now seen as small sacrifices if they get in the way of achieving one's goals.

The jealously of a region that's got me leaving
Feeling like you don't belong and leaving because of jealousy.

I'm caught in between my dreams and my father at home breathing
Feeling stuck with a responsibility to take care of family while also pursuing personal dreams.

Am I too diluted and loosened to notice
Questioning if one is too unfocused and unaware of their surroundings to notice important things.

That my dad is really sick, but he's lying so I can focus
Realizing that someone is hiding their illness to avoid causing stress and distractions for the family.

And foreign to foreign parents, apparently I was done
Being seen as a disappointment to parents who are immigrants.

He's rather lie to my face than to fear stress in the sun
Preferring to lie to protect someone from the harsh reality of their situation.

I know, but the suns settling to me
Acknowledging the reality of the situation and accepting it.

How do I repay the man who's done everything for me
Feeling the weight of the obligation to repay someone who has done so much for you.

How do I replay the plan without forgetting what I'm getting
Trying to stay focused on one's goals while not losing sight of the sacrifices that have been made.

I'm letting you know now, you mean everything to me
Expressing gratitude towards someone who has played a huge role in one's life.

You say what you want
Acknowledging that people have the freedom to voice their opinions.

Believe in what is told
Trusting what others say without questioning their motives.

See people come and go
Recognizing that people will enter and exit your life at different points.

So time is never froze
Emphasizing that things are always moving forward and changing.

The life I live is mine
Reaffirming that one is in control of their own life and choices.

My thoughts, my mind control
Stating that one's thoughts and mindset have a great impact on their actions.

So read the story told
Encouraging others to look at your life story and understand your experiences.

If I die a jaded soul
Acknowledging that if one reaches the end of their life feeling bitter and disillusioned, it can be considered a wasted life.

If I'm selfish then let me selfishly
Asserting that if someone is going to accuse you of being selfish, you may as well indulge in your own desires.

Learn that for myself, see what you fail to see
Recognizing that sometimes you have to learn lessons for yourself and not just rely on others' advice.

Is by you judging, you nudging me even further
Realizing that criticism can often push someone to work even harder.

Like murder in other words, you niggas are not helping me
Comparing unwanted criticism to being killed, and acknowledging that it is not constructive or helpful.

And I'm looking at your intentions
Taking a closer look at why someone might be criticizing or trying to offer advice.

If you a hater, your actions are an extension
Seeing hate as an outward manifestation of someone's inner feelings.

If I forgive you, I'm giving you interest
Forgiving someone can often send the message that their behavior is acceptable, leading to further issues down the road.

To abuse our friendship and that's only curing the symptoms
Forgiving someone might help to smooth things over in the short term, but it does not address the underlying issues that caused the problem.

So when it gets what I don't feel, then I rebuild fusades
When something doesn't feel right, it's important to reassess and rebuild in order to move forward.

Your jealously is what's telling me, somethings odd
Seeing jealousy as a sign that something is not quite right in a relationship or situation.

How do I intrust my trust with a person that's so obtuse
Questioning whether it's possible to trust someone who seems oblivious or unobservant.

They'd rather give an excuse than just admit where they flawed
Noticing that some people will make excuses rather than admit they were wrong or flawed in some way.

So I applaud you what's plausible, but integrity is key
Acknowledging that while someone's ideas or actions might seem good on the surface, it's important to have integrity and honesty underneath it all.

How do you glorify yourself, that's unsettling to me
Disliking when people seem too self-involved or narcissistic.

How do you sort a lie, but fortify the portion I supplied
Questioning how someone can manipulate the truth to make themselves look better while ignoring the parts where they were in the wrong.

I'm jaded but I survive and that's everything to me
Even though you might feel bitter and disillusioned, being able to continue on and persevere is still worthwhile and meaningful.

Now can you picture what I've painted
Asking if others understand the picture you've painted of your life struggles.

If I disclose my soul, could you sustain it
Wondering whether others are able to handle the emotional weight of your personal struggles.

If I explained that my aim is more than just fame
Stating that your goals and aspirations go beyond simply achieving fame or recognition.

Would you write me off as insane
Expressing fear that others might judge or dismiss you if they knew the full extent of your ambitions or struggles.

Or just tainted by entertainment
Acknowledging that sometimes people view one's struggles or experiences as simply a form of entertainment or spectacle rather than taking them seriously.

I'm taming my lower self
Working to control and manage one's own impulses and negative tendencies.

No one else can see the aided
Feeling like others might not understand or appreciate the hard work and progress that you have made.

I used to think that my music is saving
Believing that one's art or creative endeavors could make a difference in the world.

But I guess my inner hail is what prevails
Realizing that ultimately one's inner self and mindset have a larger impact on themselves than any outward achievements or successes.

Until I'm shaded, for now I'm just jaded
Acknowledging that you might still be bitter or jaded about certain things, but trying to push forward and continue growing.