Reflection
Louis Samson Lyrics

War came early this year
I was so caught up in my own world that I didn't pay attention to the inevitable hardships of life

But I didn't notice
I was too self-absorbed to realize what was happening around me

And my friend stopped calling this year
I lost touch with someone who was once important to me

And my brother graduated a week ago
A significant event in my brother's life occurred, but I didn't even acknowledge it

But I didn't notice
I was too preoccupied with myself to recognize what was going on with those close to me

And wifey dyed her hair last night
Even something as simple as my partner's change in appearance didn't register with me

But I didn't notice
I was too lost in my own thoughts to recognize what was happening around me

I guess I spend a little too much time in front of the mirror
I am too self-absorbed and focus too much on myself at the expense of others

Tryna look inside of my mind but it don't get any clearer
I am trying to understand myself, but I am finding it difficult to do so

I'm wishing for the stars to align but they don't get any nearer
I am hoping for a change in my life, but it feels out of reach

I thought that all I needed was time but it ain't working out
I believed that given enough time, things would work out for me, but it doesn't seem to be the case

Ooh, and it's alright if you hate me now
I understand that my self-absorption may have caused others to dislike me, and that's okay

Mh, please just say you do
I would rather know the truth than have people pretend everything is okay

Mh, it's easier if you hate me now
It's easier for me to accept that people dislike me than to continue pretending everything is okay

Mh, you know I hate me too
I am aware that I am not living my life in a healthy way and I dislike myself for it

I've been such a fool
I am realizing that my behavior has been foolish and self-destructive

Tryna get my head right underneath my lamp light
I have been trying to make sense of my life in isolation

Dreaming 'bout that good life, living in a past life
I have been obsessing over a version of my life that no longer exists and may never come to fruition

Isolated lifestyle
My self-absorption has caused me to become isolated from others

I'm so sorry
I am acknowledging how my actions have hurt others and expressing regret for my behavior

Parents got divorced last year
The dissolution of my parents' marriage occurred, but I was too focused on myself to notice

And grandpa died this year
I lost someone close to me, but I didn't allow myself to properly grieve

And wifey made her way to Hollywood
My partner achieved a significant goal, but I didn't fully acknowledge or celebrate their success

And I lost my best friend last night
I experienced a profound loss, but I was too self-absorbed to fully feel or process it

Too much time in front of the mirror
My obsession with myself has caused me to miss out on important events and connections with others

It don't get any clearer
Despite my attempts to understand myself, I am struggling to gain clarity or insight

They don't get any nearer
My goals and desires feel out of reach and unattainable