Moment of Silence
Lucidious Lyrics

What if I told you that I didn't feel good enough and I'm broken
I am struggling with my self-worth and feel like I am damaged

What if I said that I'm losing my faith and been struggling coping
Not only am I struggling with my self-worth, but I am also struggling with my beliefs and how to deal with life's challenges

Been stuck for a while when I look at the clock man I feel like it's frozen
I feel like time is standing still, and I am not making any progress in my life

Then again time is just flying too quick and I'm losing devotion
In contrast to feeling stuck, time is also moving too quickly, and I cannot keep up with my responsibilities and goals

Truth is I feel no emotion
I am numb and cannot feel anything

Bottle it up and all I feel is rage
I am suppressing my emotions and the only thing I feel is anger

And I would be lying if I looked at you and said I'm not afraid
I am scared about my future and what it holds

What if I never get through this shit what do I do if I can't find my way
I do not know how to deal with my problems, and I am afraid that I will never overcome them

And I know that my father has been counting on me to carry our name
My dad has high expectations of me, and I feel the pressure to live up to them

Speaking of him man I gotta be honest
I need to get something off my chest about my dad

We ain't really speaking these days
My relationship with my dad is strained, and we do not talk much

I'm just scared that I won't get to know him before the day he fades away
I am afraid that I will not have a chance to reconcile with my dad and get to know him better before it is too late

My family fought a lot when I was growing up what can I say (What can I say)
My childhood was filled with conflict and fighting within my family, and it still affects me today

What can I say by fighting there really ain't nothing to gain
I realize that fighting only causes more harm than good, and it does not solve anything

I know that the sun is out there somewhere but I been living in rain
Despite knowing that things can get better, I feel like I am stuck in a dark and gloomy place

Can we quit playing games I'm standing right here and I'm ready to change
I am tired of pretending like everything is okay and I am ready to make a change in my life

And mama I promise to give you the world if I make it to fame
I want to make something of myself and become successful so I can provide for my mom

Put you both on a stage and make it so everyone's screaming your names
I want to give my mom and dad the recognition they deserve and make them proud

It's times like this I see your face Wish you didn't leave this place Searching for the reason why So take a moment of silence Goodbye
I miss someone who has passed away and I am trying to come to terms with their loss

Give me a second I wanna say something to my little brother
I want to give advice to my younger brother

When you get older your father is not gonna be with your mother
I am warning my brother about the reality of our family situation

I'm 23 years older than you I know that it's kind of confusing
Our age gap makes our relationship complicated, but I want to be a positive influence in my brother's life

Forget all the bullies that make fun of you it's just for their amusement
My brother should not pay attention to people who put him down for their own entertainment

Let go of negatives seek out the light
I want my brother to focus on the positive things in his life instead of dwelling on the negative

Develop yourself you should journal and write
I encourage my brother to find healthy outlets for his emotions and thoughts

Speak with integrity treat women right
I want my brother to be a respectable and honorable person, especially towards women

And you don't gotta drink every typical night
I do not want my brother to fall into the trap of feeling like he needs to drink to fit in

Being popular really ain't everything nah don't give in to that hype
Contrary to what some may think, popularity does not determine one's worth or success

And it's okay to forgive the people that hurt you but don't give in twice
It is important to forgive those who have wronged you, but it is also essential to learn from past mistakes and not let people hurt you again

And to each of my sisters I know we been drifting Our parents divorced we all moved away and the family shifted
I want to address the distance between me and my sisters and acknowledge the impact of our parents' divorce on our family dynamic

Yeah we visit on Christmas, but even the holidays different Gotta make something out of this gift that God has graciously gifted
Although our family is not as close as it used to be, I want to make the most of the time we do have together and not take it for granted

Give me a second I owe an apology to a few people
I want to make amends with people I have wronged in the past

I regret a few things and I made some mistakes when I gave in to evil
I acknowledge my past mistakes and how they were influenced by negative impulses

To all of my exes I'm sorry I know I was often deceitful
I express remorse for how I treated my past romantic partners

But after Veronica cheated I gave up and didn't treat future girls equal
I admit that I let a past betrayal affect my behavior in future relationships

I'm sorry to all that I pushed away when I fell deep in depression
I apologize for how my mental health struggles caused me to distance myself from others

I never gave enough attention to people I loved so I just started ruining friendships
I recognize that I neglected important relationships in my life and allowed them to fall apart

I guess that I've taken the easy way out now by rapping confessions
I acknowledge that expressing my emotions through music can be a way of avoiding facing my issues directly

This a passion of mine and the only way that I can deal with my stresses
Even though music can be an escape, it is also a way for me to cope with my struggles in a healthy way

Man I get emotional every time I stop and think about Taylor
I become overwhelmed with emotion when I remember someone named Taylor

Still can't believe that you took your own life away just to get rid of these haters
I express grief and disbelief over the suicide of someone named Taylor and how it was influenced by online bullying

I just hope that you found some peace and serenity in your decision No one knew what you were going through then again maybe we just didn't listen
I hope that Taylor found peace through their decision, although I admit that we may not have fully understood the extent of their struggles

To my Grammy I wish that I said goodbye before the day that you left Not telling you how much I love you is something that I still regret
I express regret over not having a chance to say goodbye to my Grammy and how it affected me

But I know you're in heaven And that it's all okay One day I'll be with you and all of my fans will be screaming my name
Even though I miss my Grammy, I find comfort in the belief that she is in a better place, and I look forward to being reunited with her someday

This song is dedicated to Taylor Eller We love you And may you rest in peace
I dedicate this song to Taylor Eller, expressing love and wishing them peace in their passing