Golden Girls
M.RUX Lyrics

She speaks to me in Persian
He is talking about the effect heroin has on his life, personifying it as a woman who whispers to him in a language he doesn't understand, yet he is pulled in by her allure.

Tells me that she loves me
Heroin is a drug that offers a false sense of love and euphoria, even though it can be all-consuming and dangerous.

The girl with golden eyes
The 'girl with golden eyes' is a metaphor for heroin and how it can be captivating at first but ultimately ruinous.

And though I hardly know her
He is acknowledging how little he knows about heroin's true nature and the dangers it poses to his life.

I let her in my veins
He has fallen victim to heroin and has allowed it to take control of his life by injecting it into his veins.

And trust her with my life
His addiction to heroin has reached a point where he is willing to risk his life for it without concern for the long-term consequences.

I wish I had never kissed her
He regrets ever trying heroin in the first place, as it has brought nothing but misery and destruction to his life.

'Cause I just can't resist her
Despite knowing the dangers of heroin, he feels powerless to resist it and remains addicted to the drug.

Every time she whispers
Heroin's effects come and go like a whisper in his ear, reminding him of its power over his life.

'Take me in your arms
Heroin encourages him to embrace it again and again, despite how toxic it is for him both physically and emotionally.

The way you did last night.'
He is reliving a moment of using heroin, romanticizing it as something positive, even though it is ultimately harmful to him.

Everything will be okay
He is clinging to the hope that he can overcome his addiction and find a way to live a better life without heroin.

If I can get away from her
He understands that the only way to escape heroin's grasp is to remove himself completely from it and its influence.

And save my worthless life.
He acknowledges that his addiction has led him to a place where his life feels 'worthless' and that he needs to find a way to move on from it.

Day one. Dope free. I went to the clinic today and got the first dose of methadone.
He has taken the first step towards recovery by seeking out help and medication to deal with the withdrawal symptoms he is experiencing.

I'm out of dope so I threw away all my rigs.
He is disposing of his drug paraphernalia, a positive sign that he is breaking away from his addiction.

Day two. I can't believe it's been two days without junk.
He is feeling proud of himself for making progress and getting through the first few days of getting clean from heroin.

F***ing smack, it just ruins peoples' lives.
He is being blunt about heroin's devastating effects on people and how it can destroy everything good in their lives.

At first it seems so sweet, then you wake up next to a monster.
He is reflecting on how heroin can seem enticing and pleasurable at first, but quickly becomes destructive and harmful.

Day three. I haven't had anything for three days now.
He is still clean from heroin and is beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel. However, he is still experiencing difficulties with withdrawal symptoms.

This withdrawal is killing me. It's like shock therapy to my guts.
He is struggling with the physical and emotional pain of withdrawal symptoms, which can be incredibly difficult and stressful to endure.

Day four. Last visit to the clinic. My whole body feels like it's cracking into pieces.
He is nearly done with the initial treatment process of getting off heroin, but is still in physical distress as he experiences withdrawal symptoms.

Fragile doesn't even come close to describing how I feel.
The physical and emotional pain of recovery is ongoing and challenging, leaving him feeling vulnerable and fragile.

Day five, I'm sick as a dog, but this handful of painkillers
He is relying on medication to deal with the symptoms of withdrawal, highlighting the importance of professional medical care during the recovery process.

and a lotta whiskey's gonna get me through.
He is leaning on unhealthy coping mechanisms to help him deal with the pain of recovery, which can be a long and arduous process.

Day six, when I'm left to my own devices I go fucking insane.
He is still struggling with the emotional weight of getting clean, and is having trouble staying on track when left to his own thoughts and actions.

I'll never use heroin again.
He is resolute about never falling back into addiction and relapsing into using heroin again, acknowledging the danger it poses to his life and well-being.

Day seven, I can't believe I'm clean!
He is feeling proud of himself for reaching a point in his recovery where he is free of his addiction to heroin.

Day eight, everyone says I look better
He is beginning to see and feel the positive effects of his recovery, and is getting positive feedback from those around him.

Day nine, the parasites are panicking
He is using poetic language to describe the 'parasites' of addiction that are still present in his life, but are clearly losing their grip on him as he becomes stronger in his recovery.

Day ten, they seem amazed that I'm alive!
He is reflecting on the progress he has made in a short period of time, marveling at the fact that he has overcome such a serious addiction to heroin.

Everything will be okay
He reiterates that he is holding onto hope and optimism that he will continue to make positive changes in his life moving forward.

If I can get away from her
He acknowledges that, despite the difficulties of recovery, the only way to continue to move forward in a positive way is to distance himself from the negative influence of heroin.

And save my worthless life.
He reinforces his commitment to moving on from his addiction and creating a better life for himself, one that is free of the harmful effects of heroin.

Everything will be okay
He concludes by emphasizing that, while the journey to recovery isn't easy, there is hope for a better future and life free of addiction.

Everything will be alright
He repeats the idea that, despite past struggles and ongoing challenges, there is always hope for a brighter future and the possibility of a better life.

If I can get away from her
He is clear that the only way forward is to remove himself from the negative influence of heroin and its devastating effects on his life.

And save my worthless life.
He is committed to taking responsibility for his own life and making the necessary changes to overcome addiction and build a future for himself that is positive and fulfilling.