Lead You On
MGK Lyrics

Twice i turned my back on you
I abandoned my sobriety and went back to the addiction of drugs twice

I fell flat on my face but didn't lose
Although my relapses caused me to lose progress in my recovery, I didn't give up

Was it the blue light
Was it the drugs that created a blue hue in my vision?

Gone fragile
My state of mind is vulnerable and easily breakable

Was it above the man?
Did my addiction control me and make me powerless?

In wonder, steady going under
Although I'm aware that my addiction is destroying me, I can't help but continue to go down that path

Tell them drain the pool i'm sinking fast
I need help quickly because I feel like I'm drowning in my addiction

Come and save my life before it pass
I'm pleading for someone to intervene and help me before it's too late

Scratching at the surface but the bottom's where i'm at
I may seem like I'm functioning on the surface, but in reality, I'm stuck in the depths of my addiction

Only place my addiction will tell me that i'm free at last
The only time I feel free is when I'm high, but in reality, I'm a slave to my addiction

So why the fuck you playing with my head, i said i'm done
I'm angry at myself and the addiction for still having a hold on me even after trying to quit

Any and everything i had is gone i said you won
My addiction has taken everything from me and I feel defeated

You promised that we'd only be together for a minute then we finish
Initially, I thought I could control my drug use and stop after a short time but it has consumed me

But my life is passed another year why the fuck is you in it
I'm frustrated that my addiction has taken up another year of my life and I can't seem to escape it

Bitch i gave up everything for you even my house
I've sacrificed my livelihood for my addiction to drugs

Now i'm begging on a nightly basis to sleep on the couch
I have lost everything and even have to beg for a place to sleep each night

My counselor said i need to find a way to block the pain
My therapist advises me to find healthy coping mechanisms to deal with my pain and addiction

I told him it was already too late she is in my veins and he said
I'm hopeless and believe that there is no way to beat my addiction

Tell me what led you on, i'd love to know
I want to understand how my addiction took over my life

Well, it's just that, when i felt her the first time i flew
The euphoric feeling from drugs was the beginning of my addiction

Nobody gives me the high that she do
The addiction gives me a feeling of euphoria that I can't find anywhere else

See, we fight all the time and she leaves bruises on my arms
The addiction may seem like a positive experience, but it also has negative physical consequences

But the way she makes me feel inside that girl can do no wrong
Despite the negative consequences, I'm still drawn to the positive feelings the addiction brings

Now all my family hates me since i started fuckin with her
My addiction has caused a rift between me and my family

And all my friends done left me cause they jealous that i'm wit her
My addiction has caused me to push away even my closest friends

I try to break it off but she gets me back with the feel
Every time I try to quit, the addiction reels me back in with its positive effects

After everything she did why the fuck do i love that needle?
Despite the negative consequences and harm, I'm still drawn to my addiction

Please help me
I'm desperate for someone to help me break free from my addiction

Look, this love's killing me, literally
My addiction is slowly but surely killing me

Every time i start to pick you up, you finish me
My addiction has a hold on me, and just when I think I'm getting better, it worsens

Used to love waking up in the mornings and feeling you
I used to enjoy waking up and indulging in my addiction

Now i'm just ashamed wearin long sleeves concealing you
My addiction has led me to feel ashamed of my body and try to hide my use

Bitch you wasn't shit, how the fuck could you do this?
I'm angry at my addiction for ruining my life

Now my fucking life is ruined, i'ma kill you bitch i'll do it so i
I'm so consumed by my addiction that I'm willing to die for it

Tie it up, stick that shit up in my skin and overdose on your love
I'm contemplating suicide by overdosing on drugs

So i can't have it again.
I want to end my life to escape my addiction and avoid going back to it