If Only
Mahesa Santoso Lyrics


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Is it another fantasy in mind?
Or is it just as real as “love is blind”
Loving a stranger at first sight
Without a reason

A glimpse of hope appeared so suddenly
It dragged me out into mortal bliss
A snap of hand, and now you’re gone
Brought up this agony
The pain that haunts me

Ooohh I wished you knew
Wished you’re there
When I’ve landed all my heart on you
Every laugh you had, stares you made,
Just enough to make me feel the emptiness
Can’t go back to where we used to be

There your are just reaching for the world
And here I am with all the tears inside
Try to dim the lights that once I thought I’d had
If only I had known how things would end
If only I had told you things like
How I felt,
How I missed from loving you

I’d barely even know you all my life (all my life)
Couldn’t even stand to show my last goodbye (stand to show my last goodbye)
I guessed my love has its own way
It worked so different
Not as I expected

Ooohh I wished you knew
Wished you’re there
When I’ve landed all my heart on you
Every laugh you had, stares you made,
Hoped to feel those memories once again
Yet here we are million miles apart

There your are just reaching for the world
And here I am with all the tears inside
Try to dim the lights that once I thought I’d had
If only I had known how things would end
If only I had told you things like
How I felt,
How I missed from loving you

Can’t believe this tale has got to wind up this way
Like Freddie said you’d always taken my breath away
But now it’s running late,
An ending that I hate,
Could only look at you by the gate
(Here we are million miles apart)

There your are just reaching for the world (reaching for the world)
And here I am with all the tears inside (all the tears inside)
Try to dim the lights that once I thought I’d had (try to dim the lights I thought I’d had)
If only I had known how things would end
If only I had told you things like
How I felt,
How I missed from loving you




All the love,
And all the fear of losing you.

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Mahesa Santoso's song "If Only" tell a story of unrequited love and the pain that comes with it. The first verse sets the stage, questioning whether the intense feelings experienced are just a fantasy or if they are as real as the saying "love is blind." The singer falls in love at first sight with a stranger without any reason.


The second verse describes the sudden emergence of hope, bringing the singer into a state of bliss. However, just as quickly as it appeared, the person they fell in love with disappears, leaving behind intense agony and pain. The singer expresses their longing for this person to understand the depth of their feelings, and how they wished they were there to witness their vulnerability.


In the chorus, the singer reflects on the missed opportunities and the emptiness they feel. They long to go back to the way things were before, but the distance between them and the person they love seems insurmountable. The lyrics convey a sense of longing, and the singer wishes they had known how things would turn out, allowing them to express their true feelings.


In the third verse, the singer acknowledges their limited knowledge of the person they love, emphasizing their regret for not being able to express their emotions properly. They struggle with saying a final goodbye, feeling that their love works in a different way than they expected, causing pain instead of fulfillment.


The bridge of the song references Freddie Mercury, who famously sang about taking someone's breath away. The singer laments the timing of their love story, feeling that it's too late and hating the ending that has come. They can only catch a glimpse of the person they love through a gate, highlighting the distance and separation between them.


The final chorus emphasizes the contrasting situations of the singer and the person they love. The person is reaching for the world, seemingly focused on their own ambitions, while the singer is consumed by tears and longing. They try to dim the lights of the memories they once cherished, acknowledging that they missed their chance to express their true feelings.


Overall, "If Only" tells a tale of unrequited love, regret, and the pain of missed opportunities. The lyrics evoke a sense of longing, painting a picture of two people who are now separated by distance and unable to bridge the emotional gap between them.


Line by Line Meaning

Is it another fantasy in mind?
Is this just another imaginary idea?


Or is it just as real as “love is blind”
Or is this as genuine as the commonly believed blindness of love?


Loving a stranger at first sight
Feeling affection for an unknown person upon first seeing them


Without a reason
Without any apparent cause


A glimpse of hope appeared so suddenly
A small sign of optimism appeared unexpectedly


It dragged me out into mortal bliss
It forcefully brought me into a state of pure happiness


A snap of hand, and now you’re gone
A quick movement and now you have disappeared


Brought up this agony
Caused this intense pain


The pain that haunts me
The torment that constantly troubles me


Ooohh I wished you knew
Oh, how I wished you were aware


Wished you’re there
Wished you were present


When I’ve landed all my heart on you
When I had given you all my love


Every laugh you had, stares you made
Every time you laughed or looked at me


Just enough to make me feel the emptiness
Sufficient to make me feel the void within


Can’t go back to where we used to be
Unable to return to our previous state


There your are just reaching for the world
There you are, striving for success


And here I am with all the tears inside
While I am here, concealing my sadness


Try to dim the lights that once I thought I’d had
Attempting to fade the happiness I once believed I possessed


If only I had known how things would end
If only I had been aware of how things would conclude


If only I had told you things like
If only I had expressed things such as


How I felt
My true emotions


How I missed from loving you
How I longed for the love that I gave to you


I’d barely even know you all my life (all my life)
I had hardly known you throughout my entire existence


Couldn’t even stand to show my last goodbye (stand to show my last goodbye)
I couldn't even bear to display my final farewell


I guessed my love has its own way
I suppose that my love follows its own course


It worked so different
It operated in such a distinct manner


Not as I expected
Not as I had anticipated


Can’t believe this tale has got to wind up this way
Cannot comprehend that this story has to conclude in this manner


Like Freddie said you’d always taken my breath away
Similar to what Freddie said, you consistently left me breathless


But now it’s running late
But now it is becoming too late


An ending that I hate
A conclusion that I despise


Could only look at you by the gate
Could only observe you from the entrance


(Here we are million miles apart)
(Here we are, separated by a great distance)


There your are just reaching for the world (reaching for the world)
There you are, striving for success


And here I am with all the tears inside (all the tears inside)
And here I am, hiding all the tears within


Try to dim the lights that once I thought I’d had (try to dim the lights I thought I’d had)
Attempting to diminish the happiness I believed I once possessed


If only I had known how things would end
If only I had been aware of how things would conclude


If only I had told you things like
If only I had expressed things such as


How I felt
My true emotions


How I missed from loving you
How I longed for the love that I gave to you


All the love
All the affection


And all the fear of losing you
And all the anxiety of losing you




Lyrics © O/B/O APRA AMCOS
Written by: Mahesa Santoso Utomo, Rafi Raditya Daeng Parani

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