Dole
Marcelo Lyrics

Draga kevo - džaba bes tvoj, ovde vazda′ lepo!
Dear mom - your concerns are in vain, it's always beautiful here!

Časna reč, to što misliš da mi teško - skroz je pogrešno!
Honestly, you're completely wrong thinking that I'm struggling!

Caka je vrlo slična onome što kažu za zatvor.
The trick is very similar to what they say about prison.

Zavisi na koju kartu igraš u startu.
It depends on which card you play from the start.

I zato sam još prvog dana liku odgrizao pola nosa.
And that's why on the first day, I bit off half of a guy's nose.

Bio je velik, slinav, zaboden u moja posla.
He was big, drooling, and meddling into my business.

Beli mantil reče 'no-no!′ i počeška me elektro-šokom,
The white coat said 'no-no!' and shocked me with electricity.

Tad sam rešio da mu zabodem penkalo u oko... što sam i pokušao u menzi,
So I decided to stick my pen in his eye... which I also tried to do in the cafeteria,

Al' je neka žena počela vrišti...
But some woman started screaming...

Reko', zajebi - nešto još gore ima da smislim.
I said, screw it - I'll come up with something even worse.

A onda su dani, ne znam, počeli da teku,
And then the days, I don't know, began to flow,

Počeo sam da tupim, da se više ne opirem leku.
I started to dull, to no longer resist the medication.

Drugi su počeli da zaziru od mene, što je super.
Others started to be wary of me, which is great.

Niko iz grupe mi nije prišao posle slučaja ruke...
No one from the group approached me after the incident with my hand...

To je bilo kad je jedna prazna žena, mirna i tiha,
That was when one empty woman, calm and quiet,

Rekla da imam blage oči, rukom mom obrazu prišla...
Said that I have gentle eyes, and touched my cheek with her hand...

Imala je čudan pogled - kao majka, kao žena,
She had a strange look - like a mother, like a woman,

Kao slomljena sreća koja želi da deli bezdan.
Like shattered happiness longing to share the abyss.

Zgrabio sam joj ruku, vrisnuo da me ne zna,
I grabbed her hand, screamed for her not to know me,

Da me više nikad ne takne, da se tera u kuraca dvesta,
To never touch me again, to go to hell two hundred times,

Da nije svesna kol′ko mrzim ljude, dodire i opšta mesta,
To not be aware of how much I hate people, touches, and general places,

Da mi nije stalo nimalo ako me mrze svi oni odreda.
To not care at all if everyone hates me uniformly.

Što je i bilo... ha, da li mržnja, da li strah,
Which it was... ha, whether hate, whether fear,

Da li iščašeno saosećanje za mrak. Šta ti ja znam.
Whether twisted empathy for darkness. What do I know.

A kao, supice - kao, pilav, musaka - kao, lepo nas hrane
And like, soups - like, pilaf, moussaka - like, they feed us well

Kao, brižni u vražju mater, shvataju nas jadne...
Like caring in damnation, understanding us poor souls...

Šarade li gadne. Maske ne umeju da shvate.
Such nasty charades. The masks don't understand.

Vidim životinjske osmehe kad im se naredi da mlate.
I see animalistic smiles when they're ordered to beat.

Znam da i Viklera drže, tu... u nekoj sobi.
I know they also keep Vikler, there... in some room.

Ne daju mi da ga vidim, jer smatraju da će da škodi.
They don't let me see him, because they think he'll cause harm.

A ovo pismo, usput da znaš, uopšte i ne postoji.
And this letter, just so you know, doesn't even exist.

Ruke su mi vezane, sedim solo u beloj sobi.
My hands are tied, I sit alone in a white room.

Dole - gde su sužnji, raspadi i drolje...
Down there - where there are slaves, breakdowns, and sluts...

Više ne ištem bolje, ovde našao sam svoje.
I no longer demand better, I've found my place here.

Ovde dole - gde su maske spržene, obrazi goli,
Down here - where the masks are burnt, cheeks are bare,

Odraz ne boli otkad sve stoji, tu je moj mir.
The reflection doesn't hurt since everything is still, my peace is here.

Dole - gde su bedni zaborava žedni, skroz.
Down there - where the wretched are thirsty for oblivion, completely.

Lako sanjam bezbrižno, sav opijen prezirom.
I easily dream carefree, completely intoxicated with contempt.

Tu dole, dole gde napokon pripadam... uz prazna lica,
There, down there, where I finally belong... alongside empty faces,

Lekove, bele mantile i par tikova.
Medications, white coats, and a few tics.

Učinio sam da draga teta doktorka popizdi,
I made the dear doctor lady go crazy,

Da me sve češće posećuje da mi objasni da šizim,
So that she visits me more often to explain that I'm crazy,

Da je manični depresivac postao sado-agresivac,
That the manic depressive became a sadomasochist,

Da bi bilo puno bolje kada bih najzad počeo da pričam,
That it would be much better if I finally started to speak,

Da je tu da pomogne, da treba da mi bude bliska.
That she's here to help, that she should be close to me.

Pitala je šta da učini - meni se dopala ta igra.
She asked what she should do - I liked that game.

Bližio se tada 22. januar...
The 22nd of January was approaching then...

E, reko′, imam čudnu želju al' bez toga neću da pričam.
Well, I said, I have a strange desire but I won't speak without it.

Hoću rođendansku tortu, veliku i lepu,
I want a birthday cake, big and beautiful,

I u nju pobodenu onu grobarsku sveću, onu najveću, i šta sad?
And stuck in it that undertaker's candle, the biggest one, so what now?

Jeste, psiho sam, prs′o sam, zato sam i tu,
Yes, I'm a psycho, I've lost it, that's why I'm here,

Koj' kurac gledaš k′o da sam duh, ti prva misliš da sam lud!
Why the fuck are you looking at me like I'm a ghost, you're the first one to think I'm crazy!

Malo je srala, al' nije imala kud,
She talked shit a bit, but she had no choice,

Bila je radoznala da mi pročačka um - ola la...
She was curious to dig into my mind - oh la la...

Tako te volim, nego šta - i, eto, dođe taj dan.
That's how much I love you, what else - and so, that day came.

Košulja je žuljala, al′ ono, jbg, šta sad...
The shirt was bothering, but, well, what can you do...

Reče mi da je to nužno, premda je jako ružno.
She told me it's necessary, although it's very unpleasant.

Boli me 'rac, nisam ni osećao ruke, vezane su već dugo.
I don't give a damn, I didn't even feel my hands, they've been tied for a long time.

Tražio sam da ona i ja budemo sami tad,
I asked for her and I to be alone then,

Majmuni su čekali ispred, za slučaj pičvajza.
Monkeys were waiting outside, just in case of a mess.

Rekoh da mi zapali sveću, da neću da čujem 'neću′,
I said for her to light the candle, that I don't want to hear 'no',

Sve kul, da lepo dunem i pre toga zamislim želju.
All cool, that I'll blow it nicely and think of a wish before that.

Video sam da je zgađena.
I saw that she was disgusted.

Vreme je za štos.
It's time for a joke.

Radoznalost ubija mačku", počinje šou.
"Curiosity kills the cat", the show begins.

Ona zapali sveću. Sekunde su se smrzle.
She lit the candle. Seconds froze.

Sekunde su mi dovoljne, skočih da ih uzmem.
Seconds are enough for me, I jumped to take them.

Zgrabih zubima sveću, brže od vriska, brže od pogleda,
I grabbed the candle with my teeth, faster than a scream, faster than a glance,

Poljubih joj plamenom kosu i ona planu pre mog osmeha.
I kissed her hair with the flame and she ignited before my smile.

Ovi utrčavaju, mene o patos, al′ kurac, već se desila žurka,
These guys rush in, knocking me down, but fuck it, the party already happened,

Glavna zvezda je garava cura!
The main star is the unkempt girl!

Batine, šokovi, pretnja famoznom sobom broj tri,
Beatings, shocks, the threat of the famous room number three,

A ja se nikad nisam tako smejao, nikad, tebe mi!
And I've never laughed like that, never, I swear!

I nikad ne bi shvatili, nikad, uzrok te farse...
And they would never understand, never, the cause of this farce...

Da joj spržim masku, da vidi život bez maske.
To burn her mask, to see life without a mask.

Dole - gde me vaša površnost ne proganja,
Down there - where your shallowness doesn't haunt me,

Daleko od vas, trulog sveta koji propada!
Far away from you, the rotten world that's crumbling!

Duh iz flaše, Crni Čovek s Mačem i sve njuške obične
The spirit from a bottle, Black Man with a Sword, and all the ordinary snouts

Sad su tamo gde pogled ne dopire. Jer, ja sam Dole!
Now they're where the gaze doesn't reach. Because, I am Down there!

A u isto vreme, previsoko za njih.
And at the same time, too high for them.

Čovek sa mojim imenom odavno nije živ,
The man with my name hasn't been alive for a long time,

Ali je srećan i čist, svestan gde pakao je.
But he is happy and pure, aware of where hell is.

Kad reše da me ubiju, pustiće me napolje.
When they decide to kill me, they'll let me out.

Među njih.