Numb
Marina & The Diamonds/www.2.dlera.com Lyrics

One track mind, like a goldfish
My thought process is limited and repetitive, like a goldfish swimming in its bowl.

Stuck inside my petri dish
I feel confined and restricted, like a specimen trapped in a laboratory dish for observation.

I can't breathe, and I can't smile
I am suffocating and unhappy in my current situation, unable to express joy or contentment.

This better be worth my while
I hope that whatever I am sacrificing and enduring will lead to a meaningful or rewarding outcome.

I feel numb most of the time
I am emotionally detached and indifferent, lacking the ability to experience intense feelings or sensations.

Lower I get the higher I'll climb
The more degraded and desperate I become, the more I will strive for success or achievement.

And I will wonder why I got dark only to shine
I will question why I had to go through difficult or painful experiences to reach a state of brightness or success.

Looking for the golden life, Oh, it's a reasonable sacrifice
I am searching for a prosperous and fulfilling existence, and I believe it is worth the hardships and compromises I must endure to attain it.

C-C-C-Cry
Expressing my emotions and vulnerability is a difficult and stuttering process for me.

Forggle families, foggle friends, That's how it started, and how it ends
From the beginning to the end, my relationships have been distant and superficial, with neither family nor friends offering me comfort or support when I need it most.

I can't open up and cry, 'cause I've been silent all my life
I cannot be vulnerable or honest about my emotions, as I have been conditioned to hide and suppress them my whole life.

Ooh, I get dark, Oh, and I'm in hell
My moods and thoughts can turn bleak and torturous, causing me to feel trapped and hopeless.

I need a friend, Ooh, but I can't yell
Although I crave human connection and companionship, I am unable to vocalize my needs or seek help from others.

Yeah, I'm no good, No good to anyone
I view myself as worthless and incapable of providing value or support to other people.

'Cause all I care about is being number one
My primary goal is to achieve success and recognition for myself, even if it means neglecting or hurting those around me.

Shine, Looking for the golden light, Oh, it's a reasonable sacrifice
I am striving for brilliance and excellence, viewing the struggles and hardships I must endure as a reasonable trade-off for achieving my aspirations.

And I'll light up the sky, Stars that burn the brightest, Fall so fast and pass you by, Puff like empty lighters
I will burn brightly and make a significant impact, but my brightness will be fleeting and brief, like a shooting star or a spent lighter.

Spark like empty lighters
My energy and passion will be short-lived and temporary, like the flame of a lighter that has run out of fuel.

Dum dum dum, duh dah da
This repeated and nonsensical refrain suggests a lack of meaning, purpose, or direction in life.