Devotion
Mary Scholz Lyrics
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And I don't know if it's intuition
Or if I called it forth
That's not to say that I'm the one who moves all of creation
Know my place, know my power
I'm lost like everyone
So which is it
Know your worth
But don't let it show
I am tired of mixed emotions
And I refuse to be the product of devotion
Well I grew up inside a church with prayer that had its place
I learned of love for everyone
And love that brought disgrace
And as a child, I looked around and saw a vacancy
A swinging back and forth between the things that we believed
So which is it
Where do we go
Know your worth
But don't let it show
I am tired of mixed emotions
And I refuse to be the product of devotion
Well you can't change who you are
Where you're born, how your raised
From whom you get your scars
But you can change what you see
When you look inside yourself
It's okay to like who you've grown to be
Cause this is it
Where do we go
Know your worth
But don't let it show
I am tired of mixed emotions
And I refuse to be the product of devotion
Maybe I'm a hypocrite myself
I still believe in god and what's behind the lies we tell ourselves
Oh and I can feel the energy in every room
Just like I feel the Love connecting me to you
Know your worth
Don't let it go
I am tired of mixed emotions
And I refuse to be the product of devotion
Oh devotion
In these lyrics, Mary Scholz explores themes of self-discovery, personal beliefs, and the complexities of devotion. She begins by reflecting on her ability to sense the energy of certain things around her. She questions whether this is her intuition or if she somehow summoned it. This introspective thought speaks to the uncertainty and lack of control we sometimes feel in our lives. Scholz acknowledges that she does not have the power to move all of creation and recognizes her place and limitations. Despite this, she feels lost, just like everyone else.
Scholz then delves into her experience growing up in a church environment where prayers had a designated place. She learned about love for everyone but also witnessed love that resulted in disgrace. As a child, she observed a vacillation between conflicting beliefs and values. This could represent the inherent contradictions and inconsistencies in religious teachings and the confusion it can create.
The chorus emphasizes the confusion and frustration Scholz feels regarding mixed emotions and the pressure to conform to societal expectations. She yearns for clarity and authenticity in her emotions and refuses to be defined solely by devotion or unwavering commitment to something or someone. She implores listeners to question their purpose and worth but warns against letting it become an external show, emphasizing the importance of staying true to oneself.
The next verse acknowledges that certain aspects of a person's identity, such as where they are born and how they are raised, cannot be changed. However, Scholz suggests that one can change their perspective and how they perceive themselves. She encourages self-acceptance and reminds listeners that it is perfectly okay to like and embrace the person they have become.
In the final verse, Scholz opens up about her own hypocrisy and inner conflict. Despite her doubts and criticisms, she admits to still holding beliefs in god and the truths that transcend the lies we tell ourselves. She acknowledges her ability to sense energy in every room and the love that connects her to others. These experiences and feelings reinforce the importance of knowing one's worth and not letting it slip away. Scholz ultimately affirms her refusal to be defined solely by devotion, highlighting her desire for authenticity and self-determination in the face of mixed emotions.
Line by Line Meaning
Sometimes I feel the energy of certain things around me
There are times when I sense the vibrant force within certain elements in my surroundings
And I don't know if it's intuition
Yet, I am uncertain whether this feeling arises from my intuition
Or if I called it forth
Or perhaps I somehow summoned and invoked this energy
That's not to say that I'm the one who moves all of creation
Nevertheless, it doesn't imply that I wield the power to manipulate the entirety of existence
Know my place, know my power
I recognize the boundaries of my influence and comprehend my capabilities
I'm lost like everyone
Similar to everyone else, I too experience a sense of disorientation and confusion
So which is it
Therefore, I wonder which of these possibilities holds true
Where do we go
Where should we direct our path or seek guidance
Know your worth
Understand and acknowledge your value
But don't let it show
However, avoid displaying it openly
I am tired of mixed emotions
I am weary of experiencing conflicting feelings
And I refuse to be the product of devotion
I firmly reject the notion of becoming a mere result of blind dedication
Well I grew up inside a church with prayer that had its place
During my upbringing, I resided within the environment of a church where prayer held significance
I learned of love for everyone
In that context, I learned about love encompassing all individuals
And love that brought disgrace
Yet, there were instances where such love caused shame or disgrace
And as a child, I looked around and saw a vacancy
Observing my surroundings as a child, I perceived a sense of emptiness
A swinging back and forth between the things that we believed
A constant oscillation between differing beliefs was prevalent
Well you can't change who you are
It is impossible to alter the core of your identity
Where you're born, how your raised
The circumstances of your birth and upbringing shape you
From whom you get your scars
The sources from which you acquire your emotional wounds
But you can change what you see
However, you possess the ability to alter your perspective
When you look inside yourself
When you introspect and examine your inner being
It's okay to like who you've grown to be
It is acceptable to embrace the person you have evolved into
Cause this is it
Because this is the present moment or current reality
Know your worth
Be aware of your value and significance
Don't let it go
Do not allow it to slip away or be disregarded
I am tired of mixed emotions
I am fatigued by the confusion and conflicting sentiments
And I refuse to be the product of devotion
I wholeheartedly reject the idea of becoming the outcome of blind commitment
Maybe I'm a hypocrite myself
Perhaps I too am contradictory in my own beliefs
I still believe in god and what's behind the lies we tell ourselves
Nevertheless, I maintain my faith in a higher power and the hidden truths we deceive ourselves with
Oh and I can feel the energy in every room
Oh, I possess an ability to sense the vibrancy within every space
Just like I feel the Love connecting me to you
Similar to how I perceive the profound love that unites me with you
Know your worth
Recognize your value and self-worth
Don't let it go
Do not allow it to slip away or fade
I am tired of mixed emotions
I am weary of conflicting feelings
And I refuse to be the product of devotion
I firmly reject the notion of becoming a mere result of blind dedication
Oh devotion
Ah, the act of unwavering commitment or dedication
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Written by: Mary Scholz
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