love/hate
Matt Van Lyrics

Misery loves company
Although being alone might be preferable, people tend to seek out others who are also feeling down as a way of coping.

But I’d rather be alone
Despite wanting to surround himself with others who may understand his pain, the singer ultimately would prefer to be by himself.

My false romantic tendencies
Although the singer wants to believe in love, he knows that his past experiences have led him to have unrealistic expectations for relationships.

Have made themselves at home
These tendencies have become a part of the singer's personality and are hard for him to shake.

Like alcohol, these helpless thoughts
Just as alcohol impairs one's judgment, the singer's romantic thoughts and desires cloud his ability to view situations objectively.

Impair my mind
His thoughts about love and relationships make it difficult for the singer to think clearly.

My judgment may be gone
As he is swept up in his emotions, the singer realizes that he may be making poor decisions.

But I’m sure that I’ll be fine
Despite the confusion and pain he is going through, the singer remains confident that things will ultimately work out for him.

I’m not lost
Although he may feel directionless and uncertain at times, the singer knows that he is on the right path.

I’m just waiting
He recognizes that certain things must happen in their own time, and he is content to wait for them to occur.

I’ve been loved
The singer has experienced love in the past, which has given him hope that he will find it again in the future.

I’ve been hated
However, he has also experienced rejection, which has caused him pain and made him question the worth of love.

I’m not well
Despite trying to remain optimistic, the singer is struggling with his emotions and his state of mind.

I’m just jaded
Years of disappointment and heartache have left the singer feeling cynical and mistrustful.

I’m I love
At his core, the singer still believes in the power and importance of love.

And I hate it
However, he is conflicted, recognizing that love can also cause pain and disappointment.

Lullabies to sing at night
The singer has trouble sleeping and finds himself in need of comfort.

As the walls watch me muse
He spends time lost in thought, feeling alone and misunderstood.

Of bluer skies and butterflies
The singer dreams of happier times and more idyllic, carefree relationships.

And mindless platitudes
However, these hopes feel naive and meaningless in the face of his past disappointment.

Bitter-sweetened memories
Even though he has been hurt, the singer still looks back on past relationships with a mix of fondness and sadness.

Impair my brain
Thinking about the past and what might have been makes it hard for the singer to focus on the present.

But at least I’ve got my dreams
Despite the pain he feels, the singer is still able to hold onto his hope for the future.

To spare me pain while I’m awake
He uses these hopes and dreams as a way of shielding himself from present pain and disappointment.

I’ll be fine
Once again, the singer remains confident that his pain and confusion will eventually lift.

I’m just needy
However, he recognizes that he needs help and support from others in order to make it through this tough time.

I don’t mind
Despite his vulnerability and neediness, the singer is unfazed and unashamed.

I’m just bleeding
His emotional pain runs deep, and is something he can't just shake off easily.

Hope you’re well
Although he is in pain, the singer still wishes the best for those around him.

‘Cause I’m still healing
He realizes that he still has a long way to go before he fully recovers from his past hurt and disappointment.

Why is love
The singer is still struggling to understand why love has led him to so much pain and heartache.

So misleading
He finds it difficult to reconcile his idealized vision of love with the reality of what he has been through.