Hurting Me
Maxine Lyrics

Guess it's my fault
Acknowledging that the situation is my responsibility

I should've seen it coming...
Realizing that I should have anticipated this outcome

'Cuz you're the last and I'm the first who's falling
Recognizing the uneven balance in our relationship

Don't wanna hit you up
Avoiding reaching out to you

Don't wanna call you
Preferring not to contact you

But I do...
Despite my intentions, I end up doing so

Leave you on read...
Ignoring your messages

That's what i should be doing
Admitting that I should be following proper etiquette

What I do instead...
Revealing my actual actions

Is only hurtful to me
Understanding that my behavior is self-destructive

Don't know the answers
Feeling unsure about the situation

But I feel like calling
Desiring to reach out to you

So I do
Acting on my impulses

Wait a minute
Taking a brief pause to collect my thoughts

I'm too obsessed
Recognizing that I am fixated on you

Honestly i'm just going crazy
Admitting to feeling overwhelmed by emotions

Going on bout the things you said
Ruminating on your words

Knowing that I might be a maybe
Understanding my uncertain position in your life

Who am I to be that upset...
Questioning the validity of my emotions

When you probably don't know who I am
Realizing that you may not reciprocate my feelings

Oh I know I should be leaving
Acknowledging that I should distance myself

'Cuz in the end it's only hurting me
Understanding that staying will only bring pain

Better wanted than needed
Realizing that I desire you more than I require you

But you're the one who makes me feel
Admitting that you have an emotional hold on me

I don't wanna lie anymore
Expressing a desire for honesty

I don't wanna fight anymore
Preferring to avoid conflict

But you're only one who did it for me
Recognizing that you have a certain impact on me

Baby I know I should be leaving
Using affectionate language to emphasize my decision

You had your love
Acknowledging your previous relationships

And I never had one like that
Comparing my experiences to yours

Beat myself up
Being hard on myself for my actions

Cuz I'm the only one that
Realizing that I am the cause of my own distress

Get so attached then..
Explaining how I become emotionally invested

We skip to the ending and I lose...
Skipping the journey and suffering the consequences

Oh yeah I do...
Acknowledging the pattern of my behavior

Oh I get by...
Managing to cope

Spending all and then wasting all my time
Investing my time and energy in something futile

Waking up with a stranger by my side
Feeling disconnected from reality

I'm fine
Claiming that I am okay

That's a lie...
Admitting that my previous statement is untrue

No, I know I should be leaving
Reiterating my awareness of the need to depart

Cuz in the end it's only hurting me
Understanding that staying will only cause pain

Better wanted than needed
Recognizing the difference between desire and necessity

But you're the one who makes me feel
Acknowledging the emotional impact you have on me

I don't wanna lie anymore
Expressing a desire for honesty in my actions

I don't wanna fight anymore
Preferring peace over conflict

But you're only one who did it for me
Recognizing your unique influence on my feelings

Baby I know I should be leaving
Affirming my decision with intimate language

Cuz in the end it's only hurting me
Understanding that remaining will only harm me