Chemicals
Megan Henwood Lyrics


Jump to: Overall Meaning ↴  Line by Line Meaning ↴

I was gonna be your doctor but I could not find your heartbeat
your blood may as well be running cold...
I was gonna be your driver, taxi on your journey. I got lost on your long and winding road ...

But I never meant to hurt you Johnny.
I didn't mean to turn your yellows grey.
But the Chemicals inside my body were telling me to walk away ...
I was gonna be your painter, but I could not trace your outline, the shape your figure makes don't feel like home ...
I was gonna be your bartender, serve you sweet red wine, you're love drunk and I am stone cold sober ...

But I never meant to hurt you Johnny.
I didn't mean to turn your yellows grey.
But the Chemicals inside my body were telling me to walk away ...

They kept telling that I shouldn't stay...

I was gonna be your angel, no wings grew from my shoulders, no halo hanging over these red curls ...
Now I'm always gonna be your failure, memory growing older,
Forever be the lost and lonely girl ...

But I never meant to hurt you Johnny.
I didn't mean to turn your yellows grey.




Oh but the Chemicals inside my body were telling me to walk away ...
They kept telling me that I shouldn't stay.

Overall Meaning

In Megan Henwood's song Chemicals, she explores the idea of wanting to be there for someone but being unable to do so due to personal circumstances. In the opening verse, she talks about how she was going to be someone's doctor, but she could not find their heartbeat, indicating that the person may have been emotionally dead inside. She then goes on to say that she was going to be this person's driver, but she got lost on the journey or path they were on, which could represent the individual going through a difficult time and being unable to be helped.


The chorus of the song reveals the true reason why Megan Henwood could not be there for the person she is singing about. The chemicals inside her body were telling her to walk away, suggesting her own mental and emotional health issues were preventing her from being there for the other person fully. The second verse of the song sees her expressing similar sentiments; she was going to be someone's painter and bartender, but she could not trace their outline and felt like a stranger in their presence.


The song ends on a melancholy note as Megan Henwood talks about how she never meant to hurt the other person, but her failure to be there for them will forever be her memory, and she will always be the lost and lonely girl. Overall, the song Chemicals explores the complex emotions and struggles that come with trying to help someone when you are also dealing with your demons.


Line by Line Meaning

I was gonna be your doctor but I could not find your heartbeat
I wanted to be your savior, but I couldn't find any love left in you.


your blood may as well be running cold...
You've lost all passion and emotion.


I was gonna be your driver, taxi on your journey. I got lost on your long and winding road ...
I wanted to help guide you through life, but I got lost in your complicated path.


But I never meant to hurt you Johnny.
I never wanted to cause you pain.


I didn't mean to turn your yellows grey.
I didn't intend to extinguish your happiness and hope.


But the Chemicals inside my body were telling me to walk away ...
My instincts were telling me to leave, even though I didn't want to.


I was gonna be your painter, but I could not trace your outline, the shape your figure makes don't feel like home ...
I wanted to create beauty with you, but I couldn't connect with you on a deeper level.


I was gonna be your bartender, serve you sweet red wine, you're love drunk and I am stone cold sober ...
You were swept up in the passion of our relationship, but I remained level-headed and sober-minded.


They kept telling that I shouldn't stay...
My instincts and emotions were conflicting, telling me to leave and stay at the same time.


I was gonna be your angel, no wings grew from my shoulders, no halo hanging over these red curls ...
I wanted to be the source of your hope and inspiration, but I couldn't fulfill that role.


Now I'm always gonna be your failure, memory growing older, Forever be the lost and lonely girl ...
In your eyes, I'll always be the one who couldn't live up to expectations, and time will only make that feeling worse.




Contributed by Alexandra R. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
To comment on or correct specific content, highlight it

Genre not found
Artist not found
Album not found
Song not found
Comments from YouTube:

@familyrussell2105

Amazing song as always

@chrisdean3379

The whole family loves this album - Head Heart Hand. Also great live , saw her in Biddulph recently! Superb!

@mathewgotts7032

Superb song.

@sophieedwards5915

I love this song so much. My friend showed me this almost a year ago and it pops into my head from time to time and I have to listen to it. Its beautiful. x

@josouthwell2081

well done megan xx

@chrissyprice8810

What a lovely song, it's just the best...well done...:-) xx

@anthonyweightman9932

I love it.

@TeenyTitch26

Beautiful lyrics :)

@emmathegingerful

Wish there was a karoke for this :( xx

@casaMariaPT

Sublime

More Versions