Then So It Is
Melissa Ferrick Lyrics

Where am I going
I am feeling directionless and lost in life.

Trying to regain control
I am attempting to take charge of my life.

But no matter
Despite all my efforts,

How I dress it up
No matter how I try to disguise it,

I always end up alone
I always feel lonely in the end.

So why must I come here every time
Why do I keep finding myself in this same situation?

I back myself against a wall
I feel trapped and stuck in a difficult position.

And why is it still so surprising to me
I am still shocked when I fail or struggle.

When I try to conquer
When I attempt to overcome my problems.

I fall
I end up failing and losing instead.

But I want to feel like a bird
I desire to feel free and unencumbered.

Singing in an open cage
To be happy and carefree even within limitations.

And I want to be in a love
I crave a relationship

Where we are free to wonder
Where we can explore the world and ourselves without constraints.

I want to lay down with my eyes shut
I want to let go and relax.

And let the mystic take my sadness
To let go of my worries and trust in the universe.

And if this is what you call madness
If this is what people consider crazy behavior,

Then so it is
Then I am willing to be seen as such.

I drive
I push and motivate myself.

Myself crazy
To the point of exhaustion and stress.

Yeah crazy in a constant spin
Feeling restless and stuck in a cycle.

That one day soon yeah know I'm going to get my life
Believing that eventually, I will overcome my obstacles and thrive.

I'm going get my life
I will take charge and improve my situation.

Back together again
To feel whole and complete once more.

But can you see me now
Do you truly understand me and my struggles?

Can you see me now
Am I visible and recognized by others?

Can you see me standing here
Do you acknowledge my presence and vulnerability?

I'm waving a white flag to win
I am surrendering my pride and ego to overcome my problems.