The Abandoned
Memphis May Fire Lyrics

Staring at the wall,
Faced with a difficult situation, I am lost and unsure of how to proceed.

I never thought this would be so hard.
I didn't anticipate the emotional toll that this experience is taking on me.

How could have I been so close and never known you?
Despite being related to you, there is a significant lack of familiarity between us.

I never knew, I never knew you at all!
I feel like there was so much about you that I never learned or understood.

You will always be my father but I hope you know,
Although I cannot change our biological relationship, I am resentful towards you.

It's your fault and I'll never know what that means.
You are responsible for causing pain in my life, but I cannot begin to comprehend why you did what you did.

You left a void that never could be replaced.
Your absence has created a permanent hole in my life that cannot be filled.

I am dying inside but you will never see!
Even though I am struggling, you are not aware of my pain or suffering.

I always had hoped that you did not want it this way,
I have held onto the belief that your choices were not intentional or malicious.

But no matter how hard I try you always pushed away.
Despite my efforts to bridge the gap between us, you consistently rejected my attempts to connect.

You said you loved me but
Your words of love do not reflect your actions or behavior towards me.

How was I supposed to know
I couldn't have known.

(How was I supposed to know)
There were no indications or clues that would have alerted me to the truth.

When you left here,
When you abandoned me.

You left me here alone?
You disappeared from my life and left me to pick up the pieces on my own.

Do I ever even cross your mind,
I wonder if you ever think about me or my well-being.

Just for second?
Even a brief moment of concern or consideration would mean a lot to me.

Do you know I'm alive?
I am here and I exist, but it seems like you've forgotten that.

You know I would let you in but you threw everything away.
Despite your actions, I was still willing to have a relationship with you but you ruined that opportunity.

So tell me what did you get from all of these years of pain?
I am curious about your motives and what you thought you stood to gain from hurting me.

You have no clue what I've been through,
There is a complete lack of understanding or empathy on your part for the struggles I have faced as a result of your absence.

But I guess that you wanted it that way!
I can only conclude that your decision to leave was deliberate and intentional.

If you would've been there,
If you had been present in my life.

If you would've stuck around.
If you had not abandoned me.

If you would've been there when I needed you,
If you had been a source of support during my times of need.

You would've been,
You could have become.

You would've been so proud!
I believe that if you had been there, you would have been proud of me and who I have become.