In My Heart
Merkules Lyrics

I can feel you in my heart, you in my heart
The singer feels his love interest's presence within him and longs for her.

I can see you, I can feel you, I can smell it
The singer perceives his love interest's existence through his senses and mental state.

But just the thought of you could fucking make me jealous
Even the mere thought of his love interest drives the singer to feel envy.

I'm not normal when I'm not with you
The artist feels abnormal when he's not with his love interest as she's a significant aspect of his life.

I'm so depressed that I could cut right through this scar tissue
The artist is feeling so low that he could self-harm but has previously recovered from similar emotional wounds.

That's 'cause we've been here before
The singer has faced similar emotional incidents with his love interest before.

That's 'cause you love me
The singer recognizes that his love interest loves him but her actions cause confusion and heartbreak.

Then you leave me
The artist feels abandoned by his love interest after receiving her love and attention.

Then you give me withdrawals
The artist experiences a sense of dependence on his love interest even after she's left him.

Why the fuck are you so heartless?
The artist questions why his love interest is so uncaring and heartless towards him.

You help me at my lowest then you left me in the darkness
The singer's love interest supported him in his dark times but then abandoned him in more trying times.

Trying to deal with all these hardships but I feel like fucking garbage
Despite facing several challenges, the artist continues to feel like a worthless individual.

I can feel you in my heart but it's just me in this apartment
The singer senses his love interest's presence but knows he's alone in his apartment.

But sometimes you'll come and visit
Although rare, the singer's love interest still visits him occasionally.

And make me feel like our love is unconditioned
The singer cherishes their love as it's free from any condition or restriction.

Nobody understood us quite enough to fuckin' get it
No one quite understands or comprehends the love shared by the artist and his love interest.

It's hard to come to grips with you and I it's something different
The artist finds it difficult to fathom that the relationship he shares with his love interest is unique and different.

And you know I got this void to fill inside
The singer acknowledges the emptiness he feels which his love interest fills.

You always warned me if we ever got too close that I could die
The singer's love interest warned him that getting too close to her could cause him harm or pain.

But still I'd rather that than feel hopeless every night
The artist would rather face the risk of eventual heartbreak and loss than confront hopelessness every day.

They all tell me not to talk to you, and focus on my life
Those around the artist discourage his interactions with his love interest and advise him to focus on his life instead.

I'm free tonight so please come over we can talk
The artist sends an invitation to his love interest to come and discuss their issues.

Once I get a taste of you I don't think that I can stop
The singer knows he'll find it challenging to stop his interaction with his love interest once it starts.

They don't understand that I'm addicted to your presence
The artist's surrounding individuals are unaware that he's addicted to his love interest's presence.

You let me down so much by now you'd think I learn my lesson
The singer has experienced multiple instances of heartbreak from his love interest but still hasn't learned his lesson.

You make me feel upset but I forgive you in a second
The singer experiences anguish and discomfort but swiftly forgives his love interest.

'Cause I don't know what I would ever do without my secret weapon
The singer perceives his love interest as his secret weapon which keeps him going and motivated in life.

'Cause no matter what I always let you get the upper hand
The artist always ends up succumbing to his love interest's wishes or desires regardless of the situation.

I try to be a better man and give you space but I just can't
The artist attempts to improve and become a better individual by giving his love interest space but ends up failing.

Bitch I'll be there by your side until the point that I collapse
The singer pledges to support his love interest unwaveringly until he breaks down.

I'd rather pick you up than put you down
The singer chooses to uplift and support his love interest rather than break her down.

'Cause every time I'm feeling down you make me feel like someone else
The artist's love interest uplifts him during his low times and makes him feel like a different person.

I'm counting every single second 'til next time you come around
The artist eagerly awaits his love interest's return and counts every second until their next interaction.

'Cause your love is like a drug I know it's never running out
The artist's love interest's love and support are indomitable like a never-ending drug.

I'm riding shotty, no seat-belt in the fast lane
The singer is riding in the passenger seat of a vehicle and is seated without a seat-belt in the fast lane.

All I'm thinkin' 'bout is how she helps on my bad days
The artist's thoughts are preoccupied with how his love interest supports him during his bad days.

Or how you always make my problems seem smaller
The singer's love interest has a profound impact on the way he perceives his issues and makes them seem insignificant.

All my thoughts are all smarter, and my confidence stronger
The singer's thoughts become more intelligent and insightful, and his self-assurance gets more robust in the presence of his love interest.

Then I forget about this rap career shit, fuckin' issue
The singer loses his focus and forgets about rapping when he's indulged in his love interest's company.

When I'm with you I just cannot feel shit, real shit
The artist entirely loses his sense of reality when interacting with his love interest.

I go numb like there's nothing to deal with, it's pure bliss
The artist experiences sheer joy and contentment and feels numb as if there's nothing else in life to confront.

'Til you leave me alone and I feel sick
After his love interest leaves him alone, the singer feels depressed and nauseous.

Lately I've been mentally confused
The singer has been facing mental confusion and disorder lately.

You used to get me in the mood then my obsession for you grew
Originally, the artist's love interest aroused him, but over time his infatuation for her grew.

But lately it's like I can't even tell if it's still you, it feels different
The artist finds it challenging to recognize or discern his love interest's current form and experiences a sense of aloofness.

And I swear there's nothing left for me to do
The artist believes he's tried everything regarding his love interest, and there's no other option for him.

Was I really in love with you? Or the idea of it
The singer questions whether he genuinely loved his love interest or was merely in love with the concept of love.

'Cause now when you get me high I notice I still plummet
The artist realizes that even when his love interest uplifts him, he still experiences an eventual decline.

Then I feel sluggish
Following his high, the singer feels fatigued and lethargic.

It hurts to think that I still love you and I'd kill for you
The singer recognizes his undying love for his love interest even though he's been hurt before.

But I don't think that you're so loyal
The singer questions his love interest's loyalty and devotion towards him.

I never would've thought that this could happen
The artist never expected or predicted his current predicament with his love interest.

It caused a chain reaction of emotion mixed with sadness
The artist's situation triggered a series of complex emotions inundated with grief.

Which is wack cause life without you I don't think that I could manage
Despite the ongoing emotional turmoil, the singer cannot fathom leading a life without his love interest.

It's been damage, now I wonder if I'll even hit you back and I just panic
The singer has been hurt due to his love interest's actions, and he now hesitates to respond to her appropriately as he panics.

Back then I'd try to fix it with a bandage
In the past, the artist would try to patch up their relationship superficially.

Been attached for so long I got the weirdest disadvantage
The artist's attachment with his love interest has gone on for so long that he now perceives it as detrimental.

I know I never did you any wrong
The artist believes he hasn't done any wrong to his love interest.

But the truth is I've been writing about liquor all along
The singer has been writing about liquor as a metaphor for his love interest all along.

Back then I thought that I could really tell that you were modest
The artist earlier thought that his love interest was humble and unassuming.

You were always there for me and it felt like you were honest
The singer always perceived his love interest's sincerity and loyalty in his interactions with her.

But your dwelling on my conscience, never helping with my problems
The singer's love interest's presence is always on his mind, but she doesn't assist him in resolving his issues.

Fuck a message in a bottle this a message to my bottle
Rather than sending a conventional message in a bottle, the singer records his feelings in a bottle, which represents his love interest and symbolizes his suppressed emotions.