Fake Love
Merkules & Evil Ebenezer Lyrics

All alone in the darkness, tryin' to ignore all my problems
Feeling isolated and overwhelmed, trying to avoid facing my issues

It takes a toll on my conscience
This behavior is affecting me mentally and emotionally

That's just how it goes, I'm an artist
This is a common struggle for creative individuals

Another day, another thing to overthink
Every day brings new thoughts and anxieties to obsess over

And run away, pour another drink and over drink
Choosing to distract myself with alcohol instead of facing my problems

Mix a lil' sprite and patron, yeah, it's a good day
Finding temporary relief in substances, but it's not a long-term solution

Never been that into religion, I guess I should pray
Feeling a lack of direction or guidance, considering turning to spirituality

They say you never know what you got until it's took away
Realizing the value of something after it's gone

Baby got a beautiful booty, it's hard to look away
Distracted by physical pleasure, unable to focus on deeper connections

I feel like I'm the last one left
Feeling alone and unsupported

So much smoke in my lungs, I can't catch my breath
Feeling suffocated and overwhelmed

I'm getting fucked up, now to deal with these ups and downs
Using substances to cope with my fluctuating emotions

What do I do when all the trust runs out?
Struggling with broken trust and unsure how to move forward

I look around and see just myself
Feeling like I have no one to rely on or support me

I don't need that fake love (Fake love, fake love)
Rejecting insincere or conditional love

All these vampires out here tryna take blood (Take blood, take blood)
Avoiding people who drain my energy or resources without giving back

All these nights alone, I never gave a fuck (Gave a fuck)
Preferring to be alone instead of investing in superficial relationships

I just write these songs with pain To match the cuts (To match the cuts)
Using my art to express and process my emotional pain

This game is something I'm ashamed of (Ashamed of, ashamed of)
Feeling conflicted about the music industry and negative influences that come with it

Heart broke when I went through a breakup (Breakup, breakup)
Experiencing heartbreak and the aftermath of a failed relationship

Yeah, I don't need that fake love (Fake love, fake love)
Reaffirming my aversion to insincere or conditional love

I'm just out here tryna breathe
Striving for freedom and space to simply exist and be okay

You just out here tryna leave
Feeling a lack of support or acceptance from others

She tryna take what I've achieved
Experiencing jealousy or greed from others regarding my success

Not tryna get too deep
Avoiding getting too emotionally invested or vulnerable

I just keep on losing sleep
Struggling with chronic insomnia and anxiety

I know you're out to get me, tryna knock me off my feet
Feeling like others are actively working against me or trying to sabotage my success

But, please get off my back
Requesting space and autonomy from others' negative influence

I need some time to be alone to get myself on track
Recognizing the importance of self-care and taking time to focus on personal growth

'Cause I feel I'm losing sight of what's important in life
Feeling overwhelmed and distracted by external pressures, unsure of my priorities

You want me back in the shadows, I'm tryna reach for the light
Feeling pressured to conform or keep a low profile, but striving for visibility and success

I'm not easy to like, always settling scores
Recognizing my flaws and confrontational tendencies, which may push people away

Look down, there's pieces of me all over the floor
Feeling broken or fragmented, struggling to keep myself together

Constantly at war with people tryna ignore
Feeling frustrated by others' lack of support or understanding

The fact I'm pouring out heavy heart every time I record
Using my art as a means of emotional release and expression

So I'm locking the door to all you leaches and fakes
Cutting out toxic or insincere people from my life

All you greasy blood suckers, wiesels and snakes
Referring to those who exploit or drain others for their own gain

No more sleeping for days, feeling weak and afraid
Rejecting harmful coping mechanisms and striving for healthier habits

Nose deep in the yay when I need to escape
Using drugs as a means of escapism, but recognizing it's not a solution