Twisted
Merkules & Jelly Roll Lyrics
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So Iβ²m drinking to numb it
But I don't think thisβ²ll cut it
Why do I feel so disgusting?
'Cause I don't know why I still feel like this, I feel like shit
I close my eyes and jump right off the bridge just when it hit
I know that I should stop and call it quits, Iβ²m fucking sick
They say Iβ²m fucked in the head
Mossberg pump and a trunk full of lead
Crazy white boy rolling blunts in the shed
With a knife by the pillow when I'm tucked into bed
They looking at me crazy, is it something I said?
You donβ²t wanna know me when I run outta meds
Where I'm from, we only run from the feds
β²Cause ever since a yungin' itβ²s been us versus them
So I been tryna pick up all the pieces (pieces)
But all I do is drink 'til I can't see shit (see shit)
So Iβ²ll keep pouring liquor with my demons (demons)
And if you keep talking shit youβ²ll need your teeth fixed
I been sick to my stomach
So I'm drinking to numb it
But I donβ²t think this'll cut it
Why do I feel so disgusting?
And I donβ²t know why I still feel like this, I feel like shit
I close my eyes and jump right off the bridge just when it hit
I know that I should probably call it quits, I'm fucking sick
(Yeah, Jelly Roll and Mer) and twisted
Lord forgive me β²cause you know me, so you know that I'm a sinner
My nose is still runny 'cause I been on a bender
And itβ²s been snowy like the winner, white lines like the highway
Vibrating, eyes wide, higher than the skyscraper
You know me, Iβ²m just numbing my pain
Any day I fuck around and jump in front of the train
I'm twisted and sick, shit, I need rehabilitation
I donβ²t know if I can make it, I really feel complacent
These uppers and downers just have a downside
Lord knows I fuck around and have a downslide
I can't even describe the pain, Iβ²m tryin' to cover up
I might fuck around and cut the cord before I bungee jump
I been sick to my stomach
So Iβ²m drinking to numb it
But I don't think this'll cut it
Why do I feel so disgusting?
And I donβ²t know why I still feel like this, I feel like shit
I close my eyes and jump right off the bridge just when it hit
I know that I should probably call it quits, Iβ²m fucking sick
And twisted
The lyrics of Merkules and Jelly Roll's song "Twisted" delve into the difficult emotions someone can feel when struggling with addiction and mental health issues. The song opens with the singer feeling sick to his stomach and drinking to numb the pain he is feeling. However, he questions whether this coping mechanism is enough to make him feel better. The chorus repeats the idea that the singer feels sick, disgusting, and twisted, while also touching on suicidal thoughts.
The second verse provides more insight into the singer's background and why he may be struggling. He is from a place where he feels constant opposition to authority and may turn to drug use as a way to deal with his problems. He also mentions that people look at him like he's crazy and he may even carry a knife with him for protection. The verse provides some context for the deep pain the singer is feeling and how his circumstances may have contributed to it.
The final verse is a plea to a higher power for forgiveness and a recognition that the singer may need help to recover. He mentions that he is constantly using drugs to numb his pain but knows that this is not a sustainable solution. The verse ends with a reference to bungee jumping, potentially foreshadowing the consequences of continuing down this path.
Overall, the lyrics of "Twisted" are raw and emotional, highlighting the complex emotions associated with addiction and mental health struggles. The repetition of feeling sick and twisted underscores the cyclical nature of these struggles and how difficult it can be to break free from them.
Line by Line Meaning
I been sick to my stomach
I am feeling extremely bad and nauseous
So Iβ²m drinking to numb it
I am consuming alcohol to lessen the pain
But I don't think thisβ²ll cut it
But I don't think it will be enough
Why do I feel so disgusting?
I am questioning my own feelings of disgust
'Cause I don't know why I still feel like this, I feel like shit
I genuinely do not understand why I feel this horrible
I close my eyes and jump right off the bridge just when it hit
I choose to forget my pain by numbing my senses
I know that I should stop and call it quits, Iβ²m fucking sick
I am aware that I should stop but I can't because I have issues
And twisted
My mind is in a severely deranged state
They say Iβ²m fucked in the head
People claim that I am mentally unstable
Mossberg pump and a trunk full of lead
I am well-prepared with firearms and ammunition
Crazy white boy rolling blunts in the shed
I am indulging in drugs to cope with my problems
With a knife by the pillow when I'm tucked into bed
I keep weapons within reach for my own protection
They looking at me crazy, is it something I said?
People think I am behaving erratically and are questioning me
You donβ²t wanna know me when I run outta meds
My behavior becomes unpredictable when I am not on medication
Where I'm from, we only run from the feds
Living in a dangerous neighborhood, we only fear the police
So I been tryna pick up all the pieces (pieces)
I am trying to mend the damage in my life
But all I do is drink 'til I can't see shit (see shit)
However, I end up consuming alcohol until I am too drunk
So Iβ²ll keep pouring liquor with my demons (demons)
I will keep on drinking to drown my inner demons
And if you keep talking shit you'll need your teeth fixed
If you keep provoking me, I will harm you
Lord forgive me β²cause you know me, so you know that I'm a sinner
I am asking for forgiveness because I know I have sinned
My nose is still runny 'cause I been on a bender
My nose is running because I have been excessively drinking
And it's been snowy like the winner, white lines like the highway
The environment and my drug use is similar to the snowy winter and white highways
Iβ²m just numbing my pain
I am only trying to lessen the pain in my life
Any day I fuck around and jump in front of the train
I am in a state where I might commit suicide
I need rehabilitation
I require professional help and support
I donβ²t know if I can make it, I really feel complacent
I am not sure if I can get better because I feel comfortable in this state
These uppers and downers just have a downside
These drugs that I am taking have negative consequences
Lord knows I fuck around and have a downslide
I might go downhill if I don't seek help
I might fuck around and cut the cord before I bungee jump
I might end my life before taking any chances
Writer(s): Michael Hering
Contributed by Mackenzie I. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
Young Merkules
LOVE YOU GUYS! SEE YOU EVERY MONDAY!
DoucheDidit
It says available on all streaming platforms but I canβt find it on pandora
Quijote De lamancha
Cause I really went through this chasing memos mind games
t m
I have a song for him, hit me back
Jolena
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Ronin
Keep crushing it brother! East Coast of the lower 48's BUMPIN' your audio art!
Dylan Maloney
I have dealt with addiction, depression, losing my dad to suicide. That's life....this song just smashed me in the heart. Meaningful music so many can relate to. Jelly and Merk are two of the best.
Jasmine Pecor
@Cuttykidd1970 W311970 Thankfully you're a very strong individual and and you are recovering from your pain which I can't imagine but I wouldn't wish it on anybody And I'm sorry you have to deal with that every day but I will send my love and my hope to you
Cuttykidd1970 W311970
Real talk jelly roll has help me get through some of the hardest times of my life, but now that I've moved forward, it's hard to listen to it because I can fall back into that any giving time.
living to fish
Ya dude I feel u. Most of us have a fucked up story I was a streek kid who lost my mom from drugs when I was 24, I'm 30 now and got my shit together but those street/prison dope sick days can't be closer to my daily thoughts. Stay on the right path my dude it's worth it. Ur dad sees ur struggle just like my mom sees mines. We gotta show em we are worth it