Loveless
Mia Stegner Lyrics
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My inner child is a handful, my bookshelf
It is neglected, all the stories left unread
And God I used to live so many lives
Talking to the ghosts on my walk home
To the notes in my cellphone
To myself, and I remind her that I like to be alone
What kind of friend would I even be
Am I really happy on my own
Do I really wanna throw away my phone
I wonder if it's easier for me to let myself care
When the other person doesn't really wanna be there
'Cause I get scared
I try so damn hard to make everything my fault, don't I? Don't I
I try so damn hard to make everything my fault, but I lie. Do I
Maybe it's all in my head, but the internet says
ADHD hurts couples, for bisexuals the risk of abuse doubles
My remaining instincts left with you, but am I lying through my teeth
Am I lying through my teeth
'Cause I'm haunted by my shifting approach withdrawal
Am I ever gonna really wanna fall
Am I ever gonna really wanna fall
And I'm at my happiest when I'm lonely as hell
I miss voices but my choice is to hide in the silence
It's too goddamn loud in my head when I don't leave my bed
But I need the peace and I can't take any other kinda noise
I try so damn hard to make everything my fault, don't I? Don't I
I try so damn hard to make everything my fault, but I lie. Do I
I try so damn hard to make everything my fault, don't I? Don't I
I try so damn hard to make everything my fault, but I lie. Do I
History is bound to be repeated and I'm terrified
'Cause when I said I never wanna try again I think I lied
I think I, I think I lied
I think I, I think I lie
Mia Stegner's song "Loveless" is a heart-wrenching exploration of loneliness and self-doubt. In the first verse, Stegner compares her life to a loveless marriage, stating that she feels like a "housewife" who is neglected and unfulfilled. She goes on to describe feeling disconnected from her inner child and her passions, which have been left unattended. The chorus reflects Stegner's anxiety about her ability to connect with others, questioning whether she is "happy on [her] own" or whether she should "throw away [her] phone" and risk facing the world alone.
The second verse dives deeper into Stegner's struggles with self-blame and insecurity. She wonders if it is easier for her to care when the other person does not want to be there, and whether she is lying to herself about her instincts and desires. She feels haunted by her own thoughts, but also trapped by her need for silence and solitude. The final lines of the song reveal a sense of fear and uncertainty, with Stegner admitting that she may have lied when she said she never wanted to try again.
Line by Line Meaning
I feel like a housewife in a loveless marriage with myself
I feel stuck and confined in a life that's supposed to make me happy, but I can't seem to shake off the feeling of being lonely and unfulfilled.
My inner child is a handful, my bookshelf
I have a lot of unresolved issues that I've been ignoring, and it's becoming more and more difficult to fix them.
It is neglected, all the stories left unread
I've been neglecting my own growth and potential by pushing aside important parts of my life that I know I need to revisit.
And God I used to live so many lives
There was a time when I was more adventurous and open-minded, and I wish I could recapture that sense of freedom and wonder.
Talking to the ghosts on my walk home
I often talk to myself because it's difficult to find someone else who understands what I'm going through.
To the notes in my cellphone
I have a lot of secret thoughts and feelings that I don't share with anyone, but I write them down to help me process them.
To myself, and I remind her that I like to be alone
I've become comfortable with being alone, and I remind myself of that fact whenever I feel like I'm missing out on something.
What kind of friend would I even be
I'm not sure if I'm a good friend to the people around me, and I worry that my issues are causing me to be too self-absorbed or distant.
What kind of person would I wanna meet
I don't know what kind of person I want to be with, and I worry that I might be too picky or unrealistic in my expectations.
Am I really happy on my own
I'm not sure if I'm truly happy with the life I'm leading, or if I'm just trying to convince myself that I am.
Do I really wanna throw away my phone
I sometimes feel like my phone is the only connection I have with the outside world, even though I know that's not entirely true.
I wonder if it's easier for me to let myself care
I wonder if I'm too guarded and defensive when it comes to trusting others, and if that's holding me back from forming meaningful connections.
When the other person doesn't really wanna be there
I feel like it's easier to get close to someone who's unavailable or emotionally distant, because then I can avoid the risk of getting hurt.
'Cause I get scared
I'm afraid of getting hurt, rejected or judged, so I often put up walls to protect myself.
I try so damn hard to make everything my fault, don't I? Don't I
I tend to blame myself for things that are out of my control, and I struggle to forgive myself for past mistakes.
But I lie. Do I
I sometimes tell myself that I'm okay or that everything is fine, even when I know deep down that it's not true.
Maybe it's all in my head, but the internet says
I read a lot of self-help articles and forums online, but I worry that they're all just reinforcing my own biases or anxieties.
My remaining instincts left with you, but am I lying through my teeth
I feel like I lost a part of myself when a past relationship ended, and I'm not sure if I'm still being truthful with myself about my feelings for that person.
'Cause I'm haunted by my shifting approach withdrawal
I'm afraid of getting too close to someone, because I'm scared of being vulnerable or exposing my weaknesses.
Am I ever gonna really wanna fall
I don't know if I'm ready to open my heart again and risk getting hurt, even though I know that's what I really want.
And I'm at my happiest when I'm lonely as hell
Sometimes I feel like I'm happiest when I'm alone, because it's easier to avoid the risks and stresses of relationships.
I miss voices but my choice is to hide in the silence
I crave human connection and intimacy, but I'm not sure if I'm ready or capable of handling it.
It's too goddamn loud in my head when I don't leave my bed
I struggle with anxiety and negative self-talk, and it's often worse when I'm alone or isolated.
But I need the peace and I can't take any other kinda noise
Even though I don't always like being alone, I know that it's necessary for me to find peace and solitude in my life.
History is bound to be repeated and I'm terrified
I'm afraid that I'll keep making the same mistakes over and over again, and that my issues will keep holding me back.
'Cause when I said I never wanna try again I think I lied
Even though I've been hurt in the past, I know that I still want to find love and connection with someone else.
I think I, I think I lied
I'm starting to realize that I've been lying to myself about my own feelings and desires, and that I need to be more honest and open with myself.
Lyrics © DistroKid
Written by: Mia Stegner
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@sleeplessnight216
Lyrics:
I feel like a housewife in a loveless marriage with myself
My inner child is a handful, my bookshelf
It is neglected, all the stories left unread
And God I used to live so many lives
Talking to the ghosts on my walk home
To the notes in my cellphone
To myself, and I remind her that I like to be alone
What kind of friend would I even be
What kind of person would I wanna meet
Am I really happy on my own
Do I really wanna throw away my phone
I wonder if it's easier for me to let myself care
When the other person doesn't really wanna be there
'Cause I get scared
I try so damn hard to make everything my fault, don't I? Don't I
I try so damn hard to make everything my fault, but I lie. Do I
Maybe it's all in my head, but the internet says
ADHD hurts couples, for bisexuals the risk of abuse doubles
My remaining instincts left with you, but am I lying through my teeth
Am I lying through my teeth
'Cause I'm haunted by my shifting approach withdrawal
Am I ever gonna really wanna fall
Am I ever gonna really wanna fall
And I'm at my happiest when I'm lonely as hell
I miss voices but my choice is to hide in the silence
It's too goddamn loud in my head when I don't leave my bed
But I need the peace and I can't take any other kinda noise
I try so damn hard to make everything my fault, don't I? Don't I
I try so damn hard to make everything my fault, but I lie. Do I
I try so damn hard to make everything my fault, don't I? Don't I
I try so damn hard to make everything my fault, but I lie. Do I
History is bound to be repeated and I'm terrified
'Cause when I said I never wanna try again I think I lied
I think I, I think I lied
I think I, I think I lie
@Elemental52
I will do everything I can to make sure people hear this song. A+
@garreyy2828
Oh my god, amazing. The fast-paced vocals, and layered harmoies gives it the quality of a volcanic eruption of thoughts; as though you've been talking to yourself for so long that the pressure has built up and now months of talking to yourself has concentrated into one song being sung to whomever will listen. Maby I am looking into it to much based on my own life, as the aforementioned feeling is one that is very prevelant in my life at the moment. If that was your intention (as I imagine it was) then the execution was brilliant, regardless stellar song 10/10
Also gives off Bo Burnham's 'Inside' vibes
@Tristan-M-1
This is so good!! It describes my feelings so well, but in a way that makes me want to write about them still. Like most really good songs make me feel like I can't possibly affect people like that, or add anything to the conversation because everything's already been said, but this one gives that catharsis while also inspiring me to create stuff. Which is rare and wonderful. So thank you!!
@MiaStegnerMusic
💛💛💛
@tylerlivingston8020
Never seen such perfect and beautiful ways to put the emotions I've been feeling for a long time
@NecrosAteOFim
That song sounds like it would be so fun live
@zackerynewman2627
I love this so much! Gonna listen to this on repeat for the next few days.
@MrDHCrockett
Instagram recommended this to me. I just had to come and find all your other music. I can’t stop now! Thank you for doing what you do.
@boxed_eggs
omg im so happy!!!!! i got a message on instgram that you released a new song!! its so good!!!!!! this is the perfect song to cry to lol
@avea8029
i found this from a spomsered insta post n i'm so glad i did i love this song sm ur such a good writer i love the over laying of your voice it's so pretty and it WORKS SO WELL AAAA