Insecure
Michael Van Wagoner Lyrics
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I'm too ashamed to show it
But I feel like I'm never enough
And I fear I'll mess everything up
I'm haunted by the notion
That all our doors are closing
Do you lie awake thinking of us
Or were we made just to crumble to dust?
But you leave me questioning
If I'll bleed out on the floor
Oh
Self-doubts relentless
Leaving me defenseless
All my demons take control
What if I told you
All of my flaws that I can't ignore
Would you laugh in my face, would you slam the door
What if I told you
It's not supposed to
But it kills me to think that you call me yours
When I know deep down you deserve much more
Oh I'm so insecure
I'm holding out, but hopeless
A deep sea of emotions
I break down cause I bottle it up
But I'm learning to learn how to trust
My heart bleeds heaven
But you leave me questioning
If I'll bleed out on the floor
Oh
My head feels restless
From the constant pressure
Check my feelings at the door
What if I told you
All of my flaws that I can't ignore
Would you laugh in my face, love like before
What if I told you
It's not supposed to
But it kills me to think that you call me yours
When I know deep down you deserve much more
Oh I'm so insecure
What if I told you
All of my flaws that I can't ignore
Would you laugh in my face, would you slam the door
What if I told you
It's not supposed to
But it kills me to think that you call me yours
When I know deep down you deserve much more
Oh I'm so insecure
The lyrics to Michael Van Wagoner's song "Insecure" delve into the singer's deep-seated feelings of inadequacy and self-doubt within a relationship. The opening lines reveal a hidden aspect of the singer's personality that they are ashamed to show, highlighting their vulnerability. They express a constant fear of not being enough and the underlying belief that they will inevitably ruin everything.
The singer feels haunted by the idea that all opportunities and chances within the relationship are slowly closing off. They question whether their partner thinks about them in the same way, or if their connection is destined to crumble into nothingness. The line "My heart bleeds heaven, but you leave me questioning if I'll bleed out on the floor" signifies the pain and confusion the singer experiences as they fight to hold on but are unsure if they can keep going.
The chorus reflects the internal struggle of the singer, as they contemplate whether they should reveal their flaws and insecurities to their partner. They fear being ridiculed or rejected if they open up, wondering if their partner would laugh in their face or slam the door, essentially closing them out of their lives. The singer's realization that their insecurities are not supposed to affect them so deeply highlights their awareness of their own issues and the strain it places on their relationship.
Throughout the song, the singer's emotions and thoughts become overwhelming, leaving them feeling defenseless and restless. The constant pressure and internal turmoil they experience cause them to suppress their feelings, checking them at the door. The repetition of the chorus emphasizes the singer's ongoing struggle with their insecurities.
Overall, "Insecure" explores the intense emotions and doubts that arise from personal insecurities within a relationship. The lyrics paint a picture of someone who is desperate to be accepted as they are, yet constantly questioning their worthiness and their place in the relationship.
Line by Line Meaning
There's something I still hold in
There's a secret or something I keep to myself
I'm too ashamed to show it
I feel embarrassed about revealing it
But I feel like I'm never enough
I have a constant sense of inadequacy
And I fear I'll mess everything up
I have a fear of causing problems or failures
I'm haunted by the notion
I constantly feel bothered by the idea
That all our doors are closing
That we're running out of opportunities or chances
Do you lie awake thinking of us
Do you ever spend sleepless nights thinking about our relationship
Or were we made just to crumble to dust?
Or were we destined to fall apart and be forgotten?
My heart bleeds heaven
I feel a deep emotional connection
But you leave me questioning
But you make me doubt or wonder
If I'll bleed out on the floor
If I'll end up broken and hurt
Oh
Expression of emotion or realization
Self-doubts relentless
My lack of confidence is relentless and persistent
Leaving me defenseless
Leaving me vulnerable and unprotected
All my demons take control
All my inner struggles and fears dominate my thoughts
What if I told you
What if I revealed to you
All of my flaws that I can't ignore
All of my imperfections that I can't overlook
Would you laugh in my face, would you slam the door
Would you mock me or reject me
What if I told you
What if I confessed to you
It's not supposed to
It's not meant to be
But it kills me to think that you call me yours
But it hurts me deeply to think that you consider me yours
When I know deep down you deserve much more
When I know deep inside that you deserve better
Oh I'm so insecure
Oh, I have so many doubts and lack confidence
I'm holding out, but hopeless
I'm trying to persevere, but feeling hopeless
A deep sea of emotions
A vast ocean of feelings
I break down cause I bottle it up
I have emotional breakdowns because I suppress my emotions
But I'm learning to learn how to trust
But I'm in the process of learning to trust
My head feels restless
My mind feels constantly uneasy
From the constant pressure
Because of the continuous stress or demands
Check my feelings at the door
Suppress or ignore my emotions
What if I told you
What if I revealed to you
All of my flaws that I can't ignore
All of my imperfections that I can't overlook
Would you laugh in my face, love like before
Would you mock me or reject me, as you did in the past
What if I told you
What if I confessed to you
It's not supposed to
It's not meant to be
But it kills me to think that you call me yours
But it hurts me deeply to think that you consider me yours
When I know deep down you deserve much more
When I know deep inside that you deserve better
Oh I'm so insecure
Oh, I have so many doubts and lack confidence
What if I told you
What if I revealed to you
All of my flaws that I can't ignore
All of my imperfections that I can't overlook
Would you laugh in my face, would you slam the door
Would you mock me or reject me
What if I told you
What if I confessed to you
It's not supposed to
It's not meant to be
But it kills me to think that you call me yours
But it hurts me deeply to think that you consider me yours
When I know deep down you deserve much more
When I know deep inside that you deserve better
Oh I'm so insecure
Oh, I have so many doubts and lack confidence
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Written by: Michael Van Wagoner, Rylan Hair
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