The Mirror
Mike Devo Lyrics

5 AM in the morning
It's early in the morning

Came through high as fuck and my mommas snorin'
The singer is under the influence of drugs and his mother is currently sleeping

Tip toed across the floor so she not knowing
The singer is sneaking around the house so as not to wake up his mother

That her only son was smoking
The artist's mother is unaware that her son is using drugs

Back in June I got caught blowing cops pulled me over
The artist was caught smoking marijuana by the police in the past

And surprisingly enough I was sober
Despite being caught smoking before, the singer was not under the influence this time

So I said officer what you need
The singer asks the police officer what he wants

He said your car smells like weed
The police officer suspects that the artist has been smoking marijuana in his car

5 years back then I couldn't picture this
Five years ago, the artist could not have imagined being in this situation

I was 13 years old
The artist was 13 years old at some point in his life

Living in that green house off of spring mill road
The singer lived in a green house on Spring Mill Road at some point

But I couldn't call that fucking place home
Despite living there, the artist did not feel at home

Their was no love in it, just anger and fear
The singer's home was characterized by negative emotions like anger and fear

Their was nothing good here
The singer felt there was nothing positive in his home

This dude named Jeff is the reason why my life is a battle
The singer blames a person named Jeff for the difficulties he has faced in life

He used to grab me and my momma
Jeff was physically abusive towards the artist and his mother

Hit me with a paddle
Jeff used a paddle to inflict physical harm on the artist

He would verbally abuse my brother
Jeff was also verbally abusive to the singer's brother

If I had heater I would melt him like some butter
The singer would use a gun to harm Jeff if he had access to one

He was one of the reasons I was in pain
Jeff contributed to the artist's emotional and physical pain

4 years later that pain stayed inside my brain
Four years after living with Jeff, the artist still carries the pain of the abuse he suffered

If I bottled it up
If the artist did not deal with his pain

It would make me insane
He would become insane

Or blowing on 30 different strains
The artist copes with his pain by using drugs

Tip toe like a mouse
The singer moves quietly so as not to cause a disturbance

As I walk and stair at a set of stairs
The singer is looking at a flight of stairs

My phone starts to blare
His phone begins to ring loudly

It's my father
The artist's father is calling him

"Are you high son"
The artist's father asks if he is under the influence of drugs

Nah pops I smoked 3 hours ago my high high gone
The singer denies being high to his father

My high said goodbye but never said hello
The singer did not feel any positive effects from using drugs

Than he hung up the phone
His father ended the phone call

I finally made it up stairs
The artist reaches the top of the stairs

Cotton mouth taking place I was well aware
The artist's mouth was dry due to drug use

Mentally I had already lost it
The singer is already struggling mentally

I walked to the faucet
The artist goes to the sink

Turned the water on and I started drinking
He drinks water from the sink

See when I'm high that's when I do my deepest thinking
The singer thinks deeply when he is under the influence of drugs

As the cold water started pouring
The singer drinks cold water

I heard my momma stop snoring
His mother wakes up and stops snoring

Than I turned around
The artist turns to face his mother

My momma was behind me she was shocked not making a sound
His mother is surprised but doesn't say anything

She just looked at me and sighed with a frown
His mother looks at him and sighs with disapproval

Before she left I saw a tear hit the ground
His mother cries before leaving the room

She left the room as I heard the tears
The artist hears his mother crying as she leaves

I put my fist right through my fucking mirror
The artist punches his mirror in frustration

Ironically after that I couldn't have seen clearer
After breaking the mirror, the singer has a moment of clarity

I saw that I was becoming...
The artist realizes something about himself

Something that I wanted nothing to do with
He doesn't want to be associated with this thing

So I looked at my fucked up reflection
The singer examines his distorted reflection in the broken mirror

And started running... away from myself
The singer decides to distance himself from his own negative tendencies