Buried Alive
MikelWJ Lyrics

I found my purpose for real, to tell the world how I feel
I discovered my true calling to express my innermost emotions through music

To differentiate emotions that I tried to conceal
To distinguish between feelings that I attempted to hide from others and myself

Some call me real, and some fake, but no one knows whats at stake
I am labeled as either genuine or insincere, but nobody truly understands what is at risk for me

And I feel stuffed at the moment so don't put more on my plate
I am overwhelmed and cannot handle any more responsibilities or burdens right now

I found myself on my aunts couch at 4AM on christmas
I experienced a moment of loneliness on a special holiday, feeling isolated and disconnected

Asking when this loneliness had been put on my wish list
Questioning why I am experiencing loneliness when it was not something I desired

In fact, that's when Outcast was penned to the page
During that time, I wrote the song Outcast to express my feelings and cope with my emotions

To deconstruct emotions and to save me from rage
The song helped me analyze my feelings and prevent myself from becoming excessively angry

Now if you take a second to look at it all from my perspective
If you try to understand things from my point of view

You'll see I'm dealing with a lot more than I first expected
There are more challenges and difficulties in my life than I initially anticipated

You'll see I lost most of the people that I first protected
People who were once important to me are no longer in my life

And lost a lot of the faith in the ones I first respected
I have also become disillusioned with individuals whom I once admired

Don't say that I'm changing, since I'm aware it's the truth
Please don't accuse me of changing, as I acknowledge that I am evolving as a person

I've been looking for change, and lately it's all that I do
I have been actively seeking change and self-improvement in my life

So if you live in the shadows, come join the youth in the limelight
If you feel unnoticed and invisible, come be a part of the younger generation in the spotlight

And realize you'll be happier when looking in hindsight
Understand that you will be more content when you reflect on your life in the future

These words don't mean shit until you give them a meaning
My lyrics are meaningless unless you interpret them and give them a significance

Since I just rap what I'm writing and I just write what I'm seeing
I rap about what I am experiencing and witnessing in my life

So if my world seems dark, you'll see darkness repeating
If my life appears to be bleak, you will see similar darkness appear in my music repeatedly

And when I start breathing easy you'll see darkness retreating
When I start to feel more comfortable and relaxed, my negative emotions will start to fade away

But please don't paint me as an angel, or with eloquent lights
Please do not portray me as a perfect person, as I have my own flaws and struggles

Please don't always think I'm down because the music I write
Do not assume that I am unhappy because of the themes and content in my music

I love the fans that I get, and I do my best to be nice
I appreciate my fans and try my best to be kind and considerate towards them

But there's a difference from my music and my personal life
There is a distinction between the content of my songs and my actual life

There are things about my life some people say isn't right
There are aspects of my life that some people perceive as incorrect or immoral

And if I wrote all my thoughts, there'd be some shit you don't like
If I were to express all of my unfiltered thoughts, there would be some things that you would not approve of

But now I'm just being honest, just like I promised you all
Now I am being truthful and candid with my audience, as I had previously vowed to do

So here's a simple little question, why'd you all let me fall?
I pose a straightforward inquiry: why did my fans allow me to experience failure?

I put in weeks worth of work just making sure it was perfect
I devoted significant time and effort to ensuring that my music was flawless

But when the record released, it seems my efforts were worthless
Despite my dedication, the outcome of my released music felt as though it was for naught

Now I'm feeling worthless, fuck this feeling the earth gives
Currently, I feel without value, and detest the sensation that arises from it

Everything went unnoticed so now I'm rolling with new kids
My hard work and effort were not recognized, so I am now associating with a different crowd of people

I am not the type to follow footsteps, that I know won't lead the way
I do not wish to emulate those who have not found success or fulfillment in their actions

I am not the type to meet my heroes, God I know I'd rue the day
Despite admiration for certain individuals, I do not wish to meet them in case they do not live up to my expectations