Lies
Mother and Son Lyrics

It was in the march of the winter I turned seventeen
I was feeling lost and disconnected from the world.

That I bought those pills
I tried to find a solution in medication.

I thought I would need
I hoped they would help me feel better.

And I wrote a letter to my family
I wanted to say goodbye in case things went wrong.

Said it's not your fault
I did not blame them for how I felt.

And you've been good to me
My family had been supportive.

Just lately I've been feeling
My emotions had been overwhelming.

Like I don't belong
I felt like I did not fit in anywhere.

Like the ground's not mine to walk upon
I felt like I did not have control over my life.

And I've heard that music
I had heard my grandmother's struggles before.

Echo through the house
Her pain seemed to reverberate through our home.

Where my grandmother drank
She coped with alcohol.

By herself
She was alone in her suffering.

And I sat watching a flower
I saw a metaphor for my own vulnerability.

As it was withering
The flower dying represented my own sadness.

I was embarrassed by its honesty
I felt vulnerable, exposed.

So I'd prefer to be remembered as a smiling face
I did not want my struggles to define me.

Not this fucking wreck
I did not want to be seen as broken.

That's taken its place
My sadness had replaced who I used to be.

So please forgive what I have done
I hoped my loved ones would understand.

No you can't stay mad at the setting sun
Life will go on even if bad things happen.

'Cause we all get tired, I mean eventually
We all struggle eventually.

There is nothing left to do but sleep
Sometimes the best thing is to rest.

But spring came bearing sunlight
Things got better eventually.

Those persuasive rays
The hope and light of spring renewed me.

So I gave myself a few more days
I decided to keep fighting a little longer.

My salvation it came, quite suddenly
Hope arrived unexpectedly.

When Justin spoke very plainly
Someone reminded me of my value.

He said "Of course it's your decision,
He was supportive of my choices.

But just so you know,
He wanted me to understand the consequences.

If you decide to leave,
If I chose to hurt myself.

Soon I will follow"
He would be lost without me.

I wrote this for a baby
A letter to the future.

Who has yet to be born
For someone who does not yet exist.

My brother's first child
For a family member's new arrival.

I hope that womb's not too warm
I hope they will not be coddled or sheltered.

'Cause it's cold out here
The world can be harsh.

And it'll be quite a shock
Growing up can be hard.

To breathe this air
To experience the world's difficulties.

To discover loss
To experience heartbreak and tragedy.

So I'd like to make some changes
I want to make the world a better place.

Before you arrive
Before the baby is born.

So when your new eyes meet mine
So when we meet face to face.

They won't see no lies
They'll see nothing but the truth.

Just love.
Only love.

I will be pure
I will be genuine.

No, no, I know i will be pure
I am certain of my commitment to the truth.

Like snow, like gold
Pure, valuable, and precious.

Like snow, like gold
Pure, valuable, and precious.

Like snow, like snow
Pure and unique.

Like gold, like gold, like gold
Valuable and precious.