Post Mortem
Mr. Lif feat. El‐P Jean Grae & Akrobatik Lyrics

Vision is blurred yo
I can't see clearly

This is the last chapter
The end is here

Bombs hit who? Crushed what?
What was destroyed in the bombing?

Over there? Oh my god, oh dear
I can't believe what I see over there

I was hmm.. I think I was *h* movin somewhere
I was traveling somewhere, but I'm not sure

About to paint my fear bright glare not quite clear
I'm scared and uncertain about what's happening

Stay blinded to the light of possibilities
I'm not able to see potential outcomes or options

Think I heard the screams of those in my proximity
I might have heard people screaming nearby

On how they started thinking wishfully
I heard people hoping for a better future

Guided by fear I'm suddenly aware
I'm realizing that fear has been controlling me

Please, is anybody out there?
I'm looking for anyone who might still be alive

It was a gentle fission kiss on my block
The bomb that hit my neighborhood was quiet at first

And hot light like a baby breathing sigh a terrain
The explosion was intense but peaceful

And now my name is merely left
I feel like nothing is left of me

Suckin on brain exist before the final flash
My existence feels meaningless before the end

The emotion of pretty details of a life I had passed
I'm remembering the good times from my past

Now my warm night in Brooklyn is ash
My hometown is destroyed

Falling from the snot of loosies that I choked
I could barely breathe due to the smoke and debris

Around the corner from class
This used to be where I went to school

Before the moments when the moon can move fast
Before everything changed so quickly

Another summer slowly growing with the friendships
I had relationships and friends I cherished

That would end with a blast
Everything ended with the explosion

Or how the hours could so blissfully lag
I remember the time when things were peaceful

She slid her tongue between my lips and I gasped
I have memories of intimate moments

Told my dawgs and they laughed
I shared these experiences with my friends

Now we're combining our cash at last
We're pooling our resources to survive

A pack of smokes and a flask
We're trying to find comfort where we can

Hopeless liquor with a
We're drinking to forget the reality we face

Convert to atheism denounce god pronounce religion dead
I deny the existence of any higher power or religion

Faith in nothing trace my wrists with razors
I have lost all faith and inflict pain on myself

I refuse to wait for the blades to erase my spirit
I won't let myself be killed

Death - faced with it - run to it - not from it
I will face death on my own terms

Swallow all the pills in the medicine cabinet
I'm ready to die

Chase it with a bottle of 151 hung mommy
I'm drinking a strong alcoholic beverage

Head outside the smashed windows in trash my hotel lobby
I'm destroying my surroundings

Break the grip off the time at last
I'm breaking free from time's hold

I find I get to him up Wish I did more sinnin
I'm ready to meet my maker

Get a strap on run up in two women
I'm reflecting on moments of lust and pleasure

Laid in the middle of a highway wait for pain to hit me
I'm lying in the road, waiting for the end

Still a can with people lootin screamin come and get me
As chaos ensues around me, I wait for death

Finally it was porn shop biggest gun crowded street
I'm ready to die in the most violent way possible

Blow my brains to hell - I'm gone - and let the devil come for me
I'm shooting myself and accepting death at the hands of the devil

What's the chance that I'd be one of the last ones left of my preceders
I'm questioning why I'm still alive when everyone I knew is dead

The Earth Crusher came before I could even conceive a fetus
The end of the world came before I was even born

But I did go from nothing to misunderstood elitist
I went from nothing to feeling superior to others, but no one really understood me

Who tried to tell his people the lies instead of acting like defeatists
I tried to give people hope, even if it wasn't entirely the truth

But what good is that? Cause we're now all goin to hell
Nothing I did matters anymore because the world is doomed

Like some kid playin in his class out talkin before the bell
Humanity was foolish and didn't take the threat seriously

I died believing in righteousness but I could have indulged more
I believed in doing what was right, but maybe I should have given in to temptation more often

Cause giving in to temptation don't seem that raw no more
In the face of death, giving into temptation doesn't seem like a big deal

I heard some airline offered flights into space
I heard of an opportunity to escape the doomed planet

I shoulda took it to see earth before they matched up the place
I regret not taking that opportunity

I thought I'd be alone when they finally came to get me
I didn't expect to be with anyone when the end came

But nobody gotta miss me because they all comin with me
Everyone is doomed, so it doesn't matter if I'm gone or not

Our horizon was accessorizing we bred more need
We were always looking for more, always breeding like there was no tomorrow

Best believe this be the equation of greed
That's the formula for greed

I need a new car and thus new breaks
I always wanted more, including a new car and other items

Another tune-up with lube
I was always maintaining and upgrading my possessions

Whatever's put together shall be unscrewed
Everything falls apart eventually

In times of famine we made more food
Even when resources were scarce, we kept trying to make more

Food made more people
The more we had, the more we reproduced

It's all explained within the cycle of evil
This is all part of a vicious cycle

Would I trade it all?
Would it be worth it to trade everything we had for a chance at survival?

Cruisin down the highway on a bright summer day
I'm remembering simpler, happier times

Gazing out a plane to see the earth from miles away
I'm reflecting on opportunities I missed

Watchin the patriots win the super bowl
I'm thinking of sports and entertainment

Grabbin that fumble from Ricky Prole
I'm remembering specific moments in sports

Or my stereo provided me with rhythm and soul
Music was a big part of my life

I don't know, all I know is I feel guilt for
I'm full of regret

Every single thing I've ever bought and sold
I realize now the material possessions were meaningless

I shoulda been at more demonstrations
I should have been more politically active

Planted bombs in corporations
I should have taken matters into my own hands

Murdered CEO's and cancelled TV shows
I'm thinking of drastic, violent measures I could have taken

Burned billboards and torn posters
I'm thinking of other ways I could have protested

I coulda read more
I could have better educated myself

Finally I get to meet this god they left us dead for
I'm acknowledging that there might be a higher power after all

And its ill, its power to the form of a bill
It's ironic that belief in god is now represented by money

To which people killed by manipulated free will
People were killed because of decisions made by others

Conscience be the crucifix a chopping block for poppycock
Conscience is the only thing that really matters

And I can feel our spirits drop upon these streets I oddly walk
I can feel the weight of despair everywhere I go

Enough talk! Here's my last chance to cherish a thought
I'm focusing on one last thought before I die

My flesh is fully melted and my stomach's in a knot
I'm feeling the physical pain and fear of death

So to my love I hated to leave you alone
I'm thinking of my loved ones

Parted my zone passion took me to places and my life was a poem
I lived my life passionately and found poetic beauty in it

Baby I was on my way home about to catch a flight
I was on my way home, about to escape the end

Our meeting has dissolved in radiation and light
Any chance of us reuniting is gone

Love you gave me made me shine
I'm grateful for the love I experienced

You're gorgeous with a powerful mind
I'm in awe of my loved one's intelligence

You lifted my spirits and strengthened my spine
My loved one gave me courage and strength

I'm at peace with my life cause knowin you was divine
I'm at peace because I experienced real love

You made me see eternal beauty in a world that was dying
My loved one showed me that there was still beauty in a world that was falling apart

Now we're all ground by the grind
We're all suffering because of the end

Out of luck and out of line, out of signs
We're lost, out of control, and there's no hope left

And now we're out of time...
But now it's too late for anything to be done, and we're out of time